Monday, July 24, 2017

one thing I learn from my own history, is that is that sometimes I learn very little from herstory....


how come they don't ever say her story?   ... I thought there was a chance we could get a long, hoping that we could figure out how not to annoy each other... she complains that my place is a mess and no kids would come over because he would be too embarrassed about my home... so she takes daily potshots and cutdowns, so that I cannot help but react... things are peaceful until she gets up about 1130, I make her breakfast but she is continually making demands ... while I cannot get my son out of the house when we have had a string of 100 degree days..., so the only way to get water and some inexpensive frozen tv dinners, which you can stretch out to feed 3 , when there is enough daily requirements of sodium for our whole family with one meal!


I could go on and on... but its too depressing ... I finally had to ask her to go so I could enjoy the last week visitation of my son (without her) until xmas!  I cannot help crying in front of her and dread having to beg each day going through her and her perfect controlling mother to communicate with my son who hates me more each day... always showing his love for me by hitting me

Sunday, July 16, 2017

ancient elephants and attention challenged mermen

wow....   sidetracked by a couple different herds of elephants at a  gathering in the African reserve,  ... his mind  thinking about a creature like a large ancient elephant evolving into whales... and how human creatures could have evolved into aquatic hominids... so now he's distracted by bloke who likes to hear him self talk and proclaims himself higher in the pecking order of this worlds... they establish themselves sometimes successfully...
Look at Trump   (don't get me started),,,


he says to himself that he needs to discipline himself to write at least for 5 minutes  every single day, while letting his thoughts flow as jack Kerouac wrote on every available piece of paper (even toilet paper0...he's sad or frustrated  perhaps that he cannot write as fast as the many images run through his mind...


 exhilarated, after talking to his son on Skype for an hour and a half , but with trepidation ( about when she arrives) , in my own mind a test of whether they are capable of getting a long?? 2 alpha minuses stubborn in their own strata s of laziness...




and then he's distracted by bronzed lady and litter looking for book, while her well toned legs show off the hours by the swimming pool...
he thinks of the  rainbow gathering school lady who picked up the old man and his son while they were walking along the dirt road in the high hills of the many acres of the  Mahana colony....


she took them to the most beautiful spot of the maori peninsula where she parked her school bus...
these magical experiences happen once in a lifetime.....


https://www.vice.com/en_nz/article/7xzn34/inside-mahana-when-a-commune-turns-to-rot





Saturday, July 15, 2017

POLITICO: EMAILS RELEASED BY DONALD TRUMP, JR. SHOW "AN INTENT TO COLLUDE WITH RUSSIA" TO INFLUENCE OUR ELECTIONS
We've suspected from the start, but now it's UNDENIABLE: The Trump campaign knowingly tried to collude with Russian officials to influence the 2016 election.
This isn't just unprecedented, friends , Okies, yanks, it's un-American.
Trump's campaign team worked with a foreign power to try to swing the election against Hillary – and they've LIED about it, time and time again. The Trump administration has cozied up to Russia even when it could put America at risk – like when it moved to let Russians return to compounds they've used for spying. Now that the truth is coming out, we have to act before the media moves on to the next Trump outrage.
 
ok.... that was just  an email about how we need to work together to impeach Trump and this whole warped republican for the rich mentality...as long as they throw in guns and abortion, the poor will keep voting for the party of the rich hypocrites!





 
 
 
so what do we do?  .... in every way  possible write, complain, voice your efforts to express that we are losing our democracy and our country to a few authoritian assholes, that want to make themselves richer and more powerful, while claiming to be Christian!


ive been watching" Logan", (played by that aussie actor  that my very good friend and brother from another mother met when he was involved doing documentaries for the emmies, and I suppose its post apocalyptic ...
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Friday, July 14, 2017

feel like if my life is a bell curve or just endless curves of ups and downs.... I think with me it will be an ever bigger crest, that I can body surf with my soulmate to paradise....

listening how the poor coral reefs are dying... trump and most repubs don't care about the temp of oceans increasing... thinking it wont happen in their life time.. well imagine when one you even 1 degree increase, especially if you already have a high fever.. that could put your body into a coma..
think of that happening to your world , when 50 percent of the species that you were born with will be gone before your death!!

my beloved OZ with the great barrier reefs coral dying in my state of my sons birth, Queensland..
she wants to go back there and Ive always realized and told her that I cant take Colin to Oz without her and my passport is safe in my lawyers office... we would have to get another passport and me go through the very long emotionally wearing task of getting all the paperwork and realizing all that we have to do..

my mind is working but my fingers grow tired.. my house is getting very hot except for the one room where I put my last credit on a tiny window unit... it does gets its money back in 2 months savings! and I am so much more comfortable... I need to get another unit for living room when my son comes to visit...hoping that she will change custody to equal joint custody.. I feel she still does think about me and miss me , but she misses how much fun she had in Oz!

Thursday, July 13, 2017

well finally im doing something more productive than playing this very rigged backgammon game, that I stupidly got hooked on again, figuring I could win at least half the games.. its programmed so that I lose about 52% of the games.. so if I have winning streaks, then sure enough, the opponents will have incredible luck rolls doubles necessary to get out several x in a row....

oko... ive feeling more creative lately especially when I realize I have great friends and brother who still loves me ( I think)... for some reason , it seemed like he had been reading my blog, because if I told him on his machine that ive borrowed from friends...
so now I can pay off the water bill, especially forgetting to turn off the water for my new pool (used and left on curb on another street..im not too proud to do that :( )
so now in the hot summer after going for bike ride with my Buffy so she can take her twice daily poop and the both of us old creatures need exercise !
...and pee... when she pees , I have to come to a complete halt, as if she threw an anchor, enough that I almost fall out of my bike when she stops!

so ive wanting to see how tiny our conman Don of American crooks' hands are?? they are 7 and 1/4..
Mine are 8 and a half... im less than inch taller than trump. so his hands are the size of a bloke about 5 foot 2 according to stats!, so little Marco Rubio was correct! therefore according to most with tiny hands , he would have a pp less than 3 inches... as I told you before a Russian prostitute was interviewed , she was telling the interviewer  as if trying to hold back her tears (of laughter)....

he claims it still works, so maybe because theres less material for blood to be pumped into ? (sorry for those that might be offended)

http://www.hollywoodreporter.com/news/how-small-are-trumps-hands-916593

Care to compare with The Donald? Print here and measure up against Trump's 7 1/4-inch-long right hand — just slightly less than that of the average man — which was cast in bronze at the museum's Times Square location.
Find out for yourself how you measure up to Trump. Click here for a printable, life-size look at one of Trump's hands.
Lincoln's ghost. Nixon's missing tapes. Carter and the killer rabbit. And now, to the long list of presidential mysteries, add the true size of Donald Trump's hands.


and about other things I wanted to mention, my friend does is a film producer, (mostly for weddings but so many things especially documentaries... I was telling him my idea of creating this movie...
I was very pumped after  hearing from this critic and earlier today her excitement of the movie... woody harrelson gives his best performance... a few folks have said that I look like Woody...playing the ultimate human authoritarian!

Robin, we have to get this idea and the evolution of our cousins in the sea!

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

"Why are Republicans so cruel to the poor? Paul Ryan’s profound hypocrisy stands for a deeper problem "

I was late on my water bill, so I have to pay the full amount instead of the payment plan that I had worked out with them.. and I cant afford a plumber, so I cant the stop the constant drip in my bathtub that fills up the tub everyday.. I plugged up the bathroom to see how much im losing per day, and use it to take a cool bath...
while I have one window unit in my bedroom, because I cant afford for the central air con man to come out and find out I probably will have to buy a new central unit.. that cost over 2 k when the voodoo witch was living with me  ( karma has hit the poor lady so much but I still want to help her even with the curse she put on me)
there is no sub pay, but most  this will get better when I get my first decent paycheck in a very long time... so I don't have to feel guilty about being a very poor father..i have to figure out a way, so I am calling all the community help lines that depend on donations.. I am so thankful of friends that have helped me out.. as a last resort I left a message with my older brother knowing I will get a lecture... I will be seeing my son for only 2 weeks and I have little funds to help make his stay enjoyable.. Ive been trying with no luck to get a hold of the IRS to get my pay statements.. I have to bite the bullet and take care of that in this stifling heat...
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http://www.salon.com/2017/03/23/why-are-republicans-so-cruel-to-the-poor-paul-ryans-profound-hypocrisy-stands-for-a-deeper-problem/

funny how I just did a search... and my words came up as others are wise to "y republicans are cruel to the poor?"   others resent when you are poor because they feel you have made bad choices...

yes , but in other well off (relatively) countries, we would always have access to help... there are many republican people who are helpful, but the party and the underlying philosophy is its their fault and they are automatically guilty...but somehow Republicans hijacked the right wing Christian thinking after George Jr. came into realizing that he could court the vote much better than his father (who was above separating church from state).... suddenly they decide to garner the religious vote by going after right to life and right to have huge guns that kill folks....(ie ak 47s and make it easier for underage gang members to buy the weapons of mass killing than buy some beer at the corner store!)
so Im just curious when our country  turned away from helping others... with Ronald Reagan and then right wing media taking a hold of the philosophy of religious conservatives... Rush Limbaugh and right wing Faux (fake ) News! 


so bottom line, you could say I'm well into  the poverty level! my income for the last 2 years was well under 13k... enough for me to qualify for Medicaid and food stamps... this is with regular substitute pay of only 75$ for a certified teacher... the working poor are exactly the way the "plantation economy" worked in the south... Bill Moyers described it and I'm realizing the rich 1 percent have adopted this mentality...

"It is normal to feel aghast at and disgusted by the Republican Party’s war on the poor. The more challenging and perhaps even more disturbing task is to ask why today’s conservatives feel such antipathy, disregard and hostility toward poor and other vulnerable Americans. Certainly greed and a slavish devotion to a revanchist right-wing ideology are part of the answer. But they may not be sufficient
Conservatives are more likely to exhibit social dominance and bullying behavior. This is a function of their authoritarian tendencies. The election of Donald Trump exemplifies this phenomenon.
American political elites often use language that robs poor and other marginalized people of their individuality, humanity and dignity. This language also creates a type of social distance between “middle class” or “normal” Americans and those with economic disadvantages."

"Conservatism is a type of motivated social cognition that by its very nature is hostile to members of groups on the lower rungs of the social hierarchy.
And conservatives are more likely than liberals or progressives to believe in what’s known as the “just world fallacy,” whereby people who suffer a misfortune are viewed as somehow deserving their fate. Conservatives are also more likely than liberals or progressives to not use systems-level thinking as a way to understand that individuals don’t exist separate and apart from society. Conservatives are also more likely to defend social inequality as “fair and legitimate.”
Social psychologists have shown that, in effect, poor people become invisible to the rich and upper classes.
The psychological dynamic known as “diffusion of responsibility,” whereby people tend to ignore those in crisis — especially if they’re perceived as being of a different social group, race, ethnicity or class — also encourages a lack of empathy and concern. It undercuts policies meant to offer direct assistance to vulnerable and marginalized individuals and communities. A perverse corollary to the “diffusion of responsibility” can also be used to legitimize punitive policies that target specific individuals and groups."

Monday, July 10, 2017

im figuring a lot of theses technical qualities of the text to speech.... I knew that I would feel better in the morning.. not feeling so lonely... just enjoying the morning... going for a swim in the new (used) outdoor tub... thinking about the moles that are digging holes all over my yards, especially my backyard,.. trying castor, oil, poison peanuts (animal rights activists will be mad) and even tiny bits of bubble gum, hoping they might choke on the gum... is that horrific? actually saw the mole, peering through the hole I help make to put gum down there...it appears the mole likes the gum and has come right out in the open with more mounds showing up each day...
so I have a lot of things to write about, but instead want to sidetrack myself with this silly rigged game of backgammon when I know I have to figure out the IRS dilemma, get a new social security card (lost so many) way over on the other side of the town...


this heat is the hottest week and it will be so hot...and my son is so used to his grandparents keep their home very cool and have wifi... difficult to compete...... she still wants our family to go to Oz...keep thinking BA will get ideas when the neighbor calls him up about my plans...


I  know it sounds paranoia... but did we ever think someone worse than Bush would take over the country and behave like a Don!!?? don't get me started!  He is DON!





Sunday, July 09, 2017

I think I won't be able to talk to my best friend across the street if I say the wrong thing... This is my fictional diary, so please don't put too much into how I might offend thee..   we are all living creatures and there's a reason  y we are living... Our desire is to get along, but sometimes.... We just want to be ourselves so we feel much safer..        and then we come out of our caves , wave to our friends... take my dog for a quick run.

 Head to library , blogging or stupidly getting hooked to a very rigged  backgammon ... As if you are gambling.. tomorrow I will make a list, get my irs refund and figure out my insurance for new job..
. Don't get down, G! Morosely morbid over the finity  our existence on earth... OK sometime we can go to church together... But please don't take what I write personally , develop ur sense of humor.

 U know life is short!
 I really appreciate my good friend helped me out so I could pay overdue water bill and filled my gas tank... Poorest and loneliest this summer.. I guess he's not allowed to talk to me today.. those women controlling my son wouldn't let me talk to my son either.. women love to hurt men by not talking to them or controlling who talks to whom.i f it weren't for my lawyer, the evil grandma would have control of my son and keep me away the way she kept her other grandson from his now deceased father..        my brother s wife has cut me off from his family ever since Ale plne and Mom passed a way,        never inviting me to his home or theAdirondack s. I've seen his children less than the fingers of my hand and now they have graduated from ivy league college s... Solitude with this unbearable Okie heat comes even more solitude..now I feel intimidated to write anything ..I hate the way the system is fixed for so the mother gets the children.... Y do women put themselves on a superior pedal... They are just as evil as men,.                     Sorry, I usually feel better in the morning.         And maybe we can have a good chat tomorrow ...
id give yesterday a 8.5 out of 10, mostly knowing I had help from good friends,
as I head towards another span perhaps of my life... just steady work to make me feel so much better about myself, feel I can provide as a father... (which lets me digress in thought to how she is deciding to keep my son another year, but expect me to do all the paperwork and cost to take her and Colin to OZ..
I was actually willing to do that thinking for some heavenly reason she wants to be nice and make our family work, warts and all...


Its very hot again this Sunday, parking myself at the large environmentally friendly huge library in northwest okc...there are so many great environmental attributes....being buried around on the lower half, water, all things take the minimum amount of energy,,,, at so cool....if we just took the extra effort to help the environment, avoid war, and we would have a lovely unattainable shangra la....
Maybe in a few hundred years, we will all work together more, the evolution of our human race?
Well I'm just realizing this that I can say things turned into text . Just edit this later. Put in the periods later. Watching the movie with Goldie Hawn's daughter ,Kate Hudson, the movie was made back in 2005      .                 today was actually one of my better days coming out of my cave to go down to the Paseo area to the gentrification of Oklahoma city. My good friend Bought me a cool beer Tecate we both like the same kind of Mexican beer Just enjoying the party.. telling my life story for the 50th time and this is the happiest I've seen him.. is charisma was coming out a side to him that I admire..                   I want to get him involved in this ground floor that I'm producing
 I've got to figure this thing out ... and so few hours before the morning... perhaps it's only the ramblings of a sad old man in his sad lonely bachelor's pad!😒 Stay tuned... Readers please write a word of encouragement!

Saturday, July 08, 2017

a long awaited  refreshing rain which cleaned the cities air last weekend... .. with about a 50 mile an hour wind, it wasn't long before the stagnant Okie zone becomes putrified accelerated by the behemoth redneck trucks with tinted windows , so the angry driver can be invisible inside... all u can see often is a hand... with gas so cheap, folks are buying bigger and bigger jacked up redneckmobiles...
the redneck mobile represents so often the close minded thinking of rednecks who will always vote republican, even though they are biting their own hands...

consider if we all drove electric, there wouldn't be ozone alerts with pollution all over this huge city spread out over the plains... the wind usually comes whipping down the plains all the time except in the hottest most stagnant months of the year...

as punishment for my sins, I feel I'm stuck in the Okie Zone, with little $ to do anything but go to the library...
I thank my friends for helping  me out..I don't know how I would survive emotionally after PTSD without my good friend who always listens to my pain and frustration that I probably wont be involved in his growth another year, with his possessive  controlling grandmother being his surrogate parent...
 and I have to find a way quick to earn enough to last until the end of August.. I was hoping id figure out the dilemma of getting tax refunds...but with the republicans cutting out everything, you cannot visit the IRS anymore to get income statements or anything else  You have to set appointment with them weeks in advance..

I often feel so overwhelmed with everything, but somehow hope that things will happen for the best...
I hope that I will have enough to do some fun things with my son for 2 weeks...

Monday morning I will have to take a trip or call to make an appointment with IRS so I can get  several refunds!

the creative moment is lost now, overwhelmed with frustration, but I need to be happy that I finally will have full time job!


and on another good note, soon it will the end of Trump and his world...

http://vote.us.org/memo/thread/18394/breaking-mueller-is-all-set-to-destroy-trump/

Friday, July 07, 2017

"Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm."

Winston Churchill

Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm.


I was so frustrated this morning, first finding out that Colin won't be living with me next semester and going to a much better school, and then never being able to get a hold of a human being at the IRS,,, when you call numbers of companies it is becoming so challenging to talk to a human!  so I cant get the necessary forms to be able to get my refund...

but my wonderful neighbors and my childhood friend, Robin are helping me out... and I will pay them back immediately when I get my first paycheck at the end of next month!  Thank you so much!

I knew that I was getting my hopes up about being with my son.. it frustrates me that my son will be with his grandparents another year...

Thursday, July 06, 2017

I am trying to make it now with very little cash in my account.. I don't have enough for the water bill, and I will have to ask to borrow money.  I wont get a paycheck until the end of the month and my credit cards are maxed out... Please Lord, help me get by until things get better

Monday, July 03, 2017

http://worldnewsdailyreport.com/russian-hooker-who-had-sex-with-donald-trump-mocks-his-tiny-penis/

A 22-year sex worker named Ivana Kamensky, claims she was one of the prostitutes who had sexual intercourse with Donald Trump in Moscow in 2011, adding that the American President had the smallest penis she had ever seen.

In an interview with the Moscow Daily Herald, the young woman described in great details the night that she allegedly spent in Mr Trump’s hotel room five years ago.
Ms Kamensky claims she was hired by Donald Trump along with two of her friends to perform several degrading sex acts, like urinating on him and on each other.
She said that she had been shocked by the incredibly small size of his penis, and remembers laughing about it with the other two girls.

“Many parts of his body are too small, not only his hands,” she told the Moscow Daily Herald. “I’ve slept with hundreds of men and I’ve seen some small penises, but he’s by far the smallest I’ve ever seen.”

She described Mr.Trump’s genitals as being the size of a grape, barely one inch (2.5cm) long when fully erect.

“We were not surprised when he asked for some unusual stuff, because he was not physically equipped to engage in any kind of normal penetration.”


Ms Kamensky says she was paid $10,000 for her night with me Trump, which is more than the average Russian worker earns in a year.


Im trying to put, so it goes to say often small hands, small pp... no wonder he's always been an insecure asshole
 

Sunday, July 02, 2017

Written a while back

wow...October 23 rd....so many in this latter half of my life were born in October...from the 18th to the 30....my angel's son is 15, born close to that date...

hmmmm...all the signs .... and then the thoughts that it wouldnt be our reality...it hasnt sunk in yet...just nice talking via email to my cousin in lawyer, Kenny..


a connection to the whole family at the Parthenon and our family history on Mermaid Beach will continue ...from cardboard shacks for houses 40 years ago to multimillion dollar mansions...


we are leaping to Oz in hopefully less than two months...to be there for the winter solstace.

amazing about Donald trump had his team(?) of creative editors show Don Giovanni Trump doing a take down of CNN....

does a third of this country love asshole bullies... did a majority love hitler??  this bloke lives on winning by being a more successful asshole ...
https://i.imgur.com/BBE6kK7.mp4
 
 
 
Today 22 Russians viewed my blog... im flattered , perhaps they were pissers that made donalds golden juice ... funny how this asshole is such a germaphobe...

purely fictitious , but could easily happen in the future, Donald retires and goes back to wrestling bullies like himself!

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wow.... amazing,!!!
,, then I wouldn't worry so much about BA showalter owing me several thousand dollars...
when I get the job,,,, ill have money to get that lawyer to help again... along with many other legal headaches... here and abroad...
 
its kinda frustrating when I know the people who read this most don't like what I write...
 
but if you don't like it,,, sorry... this site is fictional, so stay out of my business...
 
nosiness is perhaps a genetic trait, like some dogs have a much better sense of smell... women have more than twice the olfactory power of their nostrils than men... is that y they are nosier?? (just kidding)
 
but seriously... one nosy bloke whos job it was to bully and sense weakness , so he could rat to the boss and get rid of folks...
 
he thought he met his favorite bully , when the conman took over my house and my street...(I know u will tell me to let it go, but id have most of my essential bills taken care if it weren't for a crook.. so ill try not to get mad, just even)
 
well this bloke was bobbing and weaving yesterday to look through his purple flowery bushes (lilacs?) that defltly dramed in camolaughe over his short wire fence for excellent spying....
 
he was bobbing up and down like an old Muhammed Ali, weaving and ducking, floating like a mosquito, waiting for a bite of some news ...
to tell his conman friend in hiding....
 
Im sure that u will not like what I write, but we are in a free country, and remember this is a fictitious site where the names will be changed to protect the guilty  (just kidding)
 
Im wondering when their favorite bully, will be impeached or get angry about Trump being on the receiving end of goldenshowers over his orange weave!



 
what do you expect of a bloke at least 100 lbs overweight!
 
 
afterwards he has a heart attack from too much excitement....
 
 


Trump will go down in History as the most asshole wannabee tyrant of the free world!

Saturday, July 01, 2017

another apology

part of my heart is very sorry that either of you were not in my life for a much longer period...
but then I would never have my son who is incredible, and the powers that be wont let me see him on a regular basis, but the Lord works in mysterious ways (coming from a hopeful agnostic)...


I've had a few incredible loves, and I don't regret these beautiful women come into my life, and sadly leave.... sometimes I wish that I could talk to them...ones in heaven, one or 2 won't talk to me, and the other has a beautiful family in France  (I sometimes think how wonderful it would have been to be the father of her children in her wonderfully hospitable family... even when I barely understood any French! we had wonderful conversations, all night on a deserted green country peninsula, the van of French backpackers, and then us swimming in our birthday suits about 4 decades ago)...

the wonderful conversation spiced up with a little herb (funny how im more afraid to talk about it than gays are afraid to come out of the Oklahomo closet...)

to be continued...