Thursday, March 31, 2011

another morning as i come to the reality that im in another perhaps stronger (?) life and it could be more fullfilling than the last half...perhaps it could be an enlightenment/renaissance...
getting over the little things in life that hinder me from enjoying life...

yeh im weird or a nice more flattering term could be eccentric as I have my own little world...and my own philosophy of how best to live love....
the reality of the earth from my conciousness ...(as i watch another good movie on Oz TV.. they have the best almost uninterupted movies at night  ...) with Gerard Depardieu and Katherine Deneuve
i slept from about 5 till 10pm!! my hours are weird but then i can relate to the hours that Winston Churchill had. He wrote his most inspiring speeches
  to the British when they were invaded by the Nazis after having long naps in the evening..and wake up to do his best writing...
more and more I realize how it is so important to spend time with my son as i prepare him to live in this brave new world!
its important that I write a little bit to you each day!

meanwhile as our democracy falls apart:
(AP) CLEVELAND - Gov. John Kasich on Thursday signed into law a limit on the collective bargaining rights of 350,000 public workers, defying Democrats and other opponents of the measure who have promised to push for repeal.
His signature came a day after the measure was approved by the state House and Senate, which are led by his fellow Republicans.
The measure prompted weeks of pro-labor protests by thousands of people amid a national debate over union rights, keyed by a similar bill passed in Wisconsin and signed by the governor there.
The 350,000 public workers covered under the law can still negotiate wages and certain work conditions - but not health care, sick time or pension benefits. The measure also does away with automatic pay raises and bases future wage increases on merit.

Monday, March 28, 2011

"Why does every man of any age post a pic of themselves standing half naked in the mirror admiring whatever kind of crazy body they own? "  quote from fat and crazy exgf...
I suppose it's better than getting fat, outta shape and sick in the head like most middle aged crazies!

beach sprint Queensland Titles

Sunday, March 27, 2011

oh My God, when will Daddy be finished with his bloody races, Mate??
umm which way should I run??

it cost me 60 mbs to publish these pics to the cyberworld....
its about 930 and perhaps the powers that be above us(?) wanted us to share
the bed and angela was actually trying to kid around....
we were making the best out a blackout happening around 730...a blackout only for our apartment...
and it was kinda like an adventure...with the only power in the laptop and the mobile phone flashlight!!
so much has happened over the weekend...
with us all competing for Mermaid Beach... feeling part of a team...more so than I have since college and high school...
letting my body get into the best shape swimming wise that it has been in a long while..
at the party last night we all had an awards ceremony where the medals were given out.. I wasnt expecting to get any and was so happy when everyone cheered for us getting the bronze medal (3rd) in the surf swim relay ( for a combined of 0ver 150 for 3 people!)

the vibes at the ceremony in our downstairs club were so positive and supportive... I have never felt more part of a family in my adult life since I was a young man enjoying the warmth and love from my extended family here in oz!

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Cheers to Kipling!

8th place in the surf swim race, oldest in my age group! next year could be one of the youngest!

 Thanks, Rudyard, for capturing the spirit of a champion so well with your eloquence!...
for  showing what we humans have inside of us and then carrying this instinct from millions of our ancestors as we were coming down from the trees learning/evolving  to survive against all odds..

"If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew

To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

( i had done so much writing in a creative way only for it to be erased when the blog of writing freezes... knowing that I have the strength, heart, endurance and cunning to go the distance winning my race along my rip that I claim for myself on saturday!!!
visualizing swimming out the rip... figuring the general outlay of the rips and the banks...
wondering if Greg and I could scout it all out before the big races on saturday and figure on the strength of the waves...(the waves were extra large and challenging to get out past the breaks)
These past few days have been so challenging  f as parents and hopefully as  best friends and mates for life!
and yet so rewarding as our family slogs and paddles through the challenging waves of life
first losing my wallet when cycling back from shopping
then having to call the electrician when our power tripped out because of a faulty corroded wiring...

A big 2 meters of white froth is coming towards u
And u duck dive deep under the water avoiding the strong water on top to find the calmer water that will take u past this wave
avoiding the strong water on top to find the calmer water that will take u past this wave

Im very frustrated with this computer as I figure out her idiosyncracies….
She waits for me when I have a moment away from my sometimes angry child refusing to take his nap…

At this pint Colin is screaming while I hide out in bed while writing to u…
As if u are a mistress waiting to hear my innermost thought that I shoot out there for u to perhaps ponder…

March 29, 2011, 4:25 PM

Its already 5 minutes past 420 and there less than only a few hours left of light in this gorgeous (d)evolving (??) paradise as the wind and the swell pick up it’s to time to find ur current to take u past those wave and then find the right wave to take to first place!!!

At least in ur own book!

March 29, 2011, 4:25 PM
Its already 5 minutes past 420 and there less than only a few hours left of light in this gorgeous (d)evolving (??) paradise as the wind and the swell pick up it’s to time to find ur current to take u past those wave and then find the right wave to take to first place!!!

At least in ur own book!
Im very frustrated with this computer as I figure out her idiosyncracies….
 She waits for me when I have a moment away from my sometimes angry child refusing to take his nap…

At this point Colin is screaming while I hide out in bed while writing to u…

As if u are a mistress waiting to hear my innermost thought that I shoot out there for u to perhaps ponder…

Friday, March 25, 2011

today, i actually thought that i would do poorly and then was pleasantly surprised when i finished hard in the tube rescue race to come in 5th.. and then 8th in the surf race in the Queensland titles!

  these event were at Kurrawa (Broadbeach) just down a km. on the beach!

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

 I guess, sometimes the best moments are visiting with good friends... doing a good body surf into the break visiting them both while out in the rip on the most gorgeous day in a long while..
it was hot and so the perfect place on this day was out on my beach with our tent...
and visiting with great mate and chat about yarns... as our lives intertwine... other good friends his age as we come to terms with our mortality....
and seeing other come and go, but I see the familiar faces of this little community by the sea... where the center of activity is the surf club...
we all go for a race sunday morning with coffee later upstairs in the club seeing the sun and shimmer over the warm25 deg. sea

opened up the barbecue this avo and invited a professional tennis coach over from Ocean st.
after chatting out on the tent... had tasty chicken with chinese sauce, dim sims, fries and vegetable all grilled with we chatted and drank a couple of beers... it was the nicest atmosphere...

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

So you think the child-men of today will grow up one day?

Yes. Absolutely. I think most child-men will grow up. And they are growing up. I hear stories all the time of the Maxim-reading-beer-pong-playing-frat-boy who turns out by thirty to be a mensch of a guy. But the danger is this: that guy, if he's waiting until his early thirties to become a mensch, the women who are his age are in a different place than he is. Also, to get back to the biology, it is simply a fact that men have an increasing pool of available women as they get older, and women have a diminishing pool. And that's just math. On average, men are more interested in younger women, but not older women.

Another bit of math affecting preadulthood: 58 percent of our college grads are women, which means a great deal of women are going to have a hard time finding a college-educated spouse. And many women don't want to marry "down." Will they do so in the future? I suspect that a lot of them will decide to simply have children on their own.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Sometimes, u are struggling against the waves… and u just have to shift over to find where the currents will take u to where u wanna go…

Go with the flow, honey… and ull see our home with sun shining down on her!!

Saturday, March 19, 2011

colin kept us both up last night, insisting on sleeping between us... so continually waking up to his little feet kicking me in the back didnt help me get the needed rest to assure victory...
and we didnt get the early morning warmup to test the conditions with Stu and the crew as they swam out...
but even so I came in 3rd 12 secs behind an early starter who started 3 minutes ahead of my handicap...
I  could have swum a little bit farther over back towards the flags, so that I could have caught the winning wave and not be stuck in the hole!
a free coffee at the club was my prize!
I have patrol this avo and hopefully  will stay awake on this overcast day!

Friday, March 18, 2011

Happy wife, happy life

Watching the surf swim race..

Wishing my teammate was with me enjoying the struggles, vicissitude,

And triumphs…

Seeing and treating both of these impostors the same (thanks to Rudyard)..

The race will be on at 820

Ill have a 3:30 handicapp

And I will need to be up 2 hours early doing my home work , scouting the possible 2 or 3 rips that could take us to 25 to 50 meter row of buoys…

Figuring out which spot is the best to take our winning wave together…

The shallowest sandbank to help the wave take us to victory!!
"Take Your Time

I have a friend who rushes out to the mailbox to retrieve her mail and then rips it open impatiently. We laughed the other day about this and thought maybe she could walk slowly to the mailbox, breathe while getting there, maybe look at the trees and sky, too. It's not like the contents of the mail are going to change before she gets there! There is always reason to rush through things, always something to tend to in life, and we could work until the wee hours of the morning and still never get it all done. It took me years to understand that, but my life has changed profoundly since I have."
from Huffpo

In the end, is anyone going to say, "I wish I'd worked more"? I honestly don't think so. Take time to breath  to enjoy a laugh or a moment with friends and family and take in the beauty of nature and the richness of slowing down. Your body will thank you.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

March 18, 2011, 2:41 PM
 probably the biggest thing that ive been thinking about is how to help my family the most ,…. At this point, I just want us to be safe, well fed and happy… the last challenge is of course the most difficult… I can swim in the most gorgeous blue ocean and then come home my better half crying… I get frustrated that time is passing us by without really enjoying life without all the drama…

In my many relationships of the past, when I love someone I would feel their pain…because I loved them so much… especially with Alene and I tried to save her… and couldn’t…

Im often just in a state of denial with so much pain in my life… when I face it and write about it, it helps me get past or underneath this painful wave…

To where the water is warm and clean clear blue and im looking at sun shine on my beach with such warmth…

And then just let myself be deluded (?) into thinking we have purpose on this life…

Maybe we can do something fantastic that we can be proud of…
 and then perhaps we could think the mental blocks are over??

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

spent a large part of today body surfing putting off all the things I have to to do... just to live on the paying them 3000 just for council rates to live here!! never a free lunch... well at least we dont have to deal with tsunamis, ....yet.

Monday, March 14, 2011

aah to be a kid again!... discovering new experiences everyday...i want to give everything to my son that I missed out... namely living on the beach would have been the best present my parents could have given me...nothing matches this in my life... anxious each morning to run out and check out the surf...just body surfing the waves and then have brekkie with my family out in the morning sun before my older bro and I walked or skipped to school... singin Puff the magic dragon lived by the sea...
 this little boy of yesteryear had no clue that a middle aged man would be longing to play by the sea...
he wakes up 45 years later
how long can this go on... sell the house in okiehoma and hang out for a little while longer renewing our holiday visa..
get off my ass and become Aussie by descent (100% Queenland Aussie parents)
this would make me the happiest old man on the beach..if not the fastest on the beach..

catching that rip with my teamates...
I knew that I had the best spot in that river of fast water rushing past the breaking waves
and going underneath the waves , pushing off the bottom of the sand and gaining several body lengths on better swimmers...
the ultimate feeling is working out with my new team as we train for the Queenland titles in 2 weeks and then the Aussie titles...
just working out on the best swimming pool in the world, (the ocean!)
happy that Im here and not where the rest off the world is teetering on the brink of Armageddon...
just wish that I could stay here a little bit longer
while my irate territorial redneck surfer neighbor
blows a gasket while Colin  & I sit out on the lawn watching the half moon rise
angry that we are there sharing what he feels is his view
(amazing how angry some folks are no matter where u go)
wewait for Mommy to come back from her evening walk on the beach!

Saturday, March 12, 2011

March 13, 2011, 1:46 AM
, I went to sleep thoughtlessly thinking I’ll just nod off for a few minutes while colin naps on me before I take him to the cot, but alas , I fall asleep for a few hours and now can t get back to sleep in anticipation of our surf swim race at 820 this morning! Low tide will be at 930 so the course might not be as tough as it is when its closer to high tide… so maybe I

Might have a chance, if take the power play that u can do once a season…so ill take 45 secs off my handicap and then?? Free brekkie for 2nd time in a season?? With anticipation of the state titles in 2 weeks!!

waiting for the to warm up for our surf race!

Friday, March 11, 2011

another way of destroying anything good for the common people!

stumble WASHINGTON — House Republicans will "lead with our chin" and offer politically explosive cost curbs this spring on programs like Medicare, Medicaid and perhaps Social Security, the party's point man for curbing crippling budget deficits said Thursday.

Even then, Rep. Paul Ryan acknowledged, the government's budget still won't balance for quite some time.
In a wide-ranging interview with The Associated Press, the Wisconsin lawmaker and chairman of the House Budget Committee said the House Republicans' budget proposal for the 2012 fiscal year that begins Oct. 1 will propose fundamental changes to Medicare and Medicaid, the giant health care programs that cover 100 million Americans and whose combined costs rival the defense budget.
Ryan offered no specifics, saying details are still being hashed out.

Ryan, 41, a rising figure in the GOP, has been tasked with both schooling the 87 new Republican freshmen on the brain-numbing intricacies of the budget and devising a plan to wrestle the deficit under control. Both are big challenges.

"I see a willingness to embrace big things, I see a willingness to tackle the problem," Ryan said, describing the sentiment among Republican freshmen elected on a wave of concern about the growing scope and reach of government.

"When you walk people through just how deep this hole is ... it really does leave a lot of jaws dropping," he said.

Endorsing reduced Social Security checks for future seniors or raising the retirement age is viewed by many Republicans as well as Democrats as political suicide without cover from President Barack Obama. And some see the effort as futile when Republicans control only the House and a presidential election just over the horizon.

Ryan, however, said the debate on how to get the government out of its budget mess has moved far beyond the relatively easy spending tweaks here and there.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Court Attention at all Cost

Everything is judged by its appearance; what is unseen counts for nothing. Never let yourself get lost in the crowd, then, or buried in oblivion. Stand out. Be conspicuous, at all cost. Make yourself a magnet of attention by appearing larger, more colorful, more mysterious, than the bland and timid masses.

I was looking at the 48 laws of Power, and I thought the only one that I use when Im at my peak is this one….

Yes, M, Im a little narcissistic... I love the game...the race...the passion and just being the best I can be... and fight off old age..

Wednesday, March 09, 2011

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master,

If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!
I love this poem that I keep posting... and then think of the Murch painting hidden safely (?) away of a dream that I have always longed for and envisioned in my subconcious (hidden away in happy dreams of being a young child held in Mommy's arms)...
 seeing a beautiful mother with her daughter on the beach underneath the umbrella...
and now the child is a boy and he is ours!!
I wondered about writing several steps to happiness
but Im realizing more and more that it is the pursuit (the race) that is so important...
and we often little waves get in the way or avoiding the big waves
instead of finding our rip (river/road) for winning our race....
and being out there where it's all calm in the beautiful blue ocean early in the morning
seeing your beloved beach and home...'
and then feeling everything will be ok...
not just ok... could be wonderful
our simple life as a family on the beach!

Monday, March 07, 2011

meanwhile in the fast failing & falling empire
far across the angry seas..
pushed on by greedy power hungry republicons
taking the "starve the beast" method of destroying the middle class
and profiting the very rich and powerful corporations!:

WASHINGTON -- In a bold gambit to put an end to the weeks-long budget standoff in Wisconsin, Gov. Scott Walker (R) split his controversial budget-repair bill in two on Wednesday, allowing the Senate to pass the most hotly contested provisions while their 14 Democratic colleagues remained out of state.

The parliamentary maneuver, first reported by local press, allowed the anti-collective bargaining measure to pass with just Republican support. Under Wisconsin law a 3/5s quorum is needed for a statute that is fiscal in nature. No such quorum is needed for non-fiscal matters.

It was also a 180-degree reversal by Walker and state Senate Republicans, who have insisted for the past three weeks that the collective bargaining provision was designed to help alleviate the state’s budget problems. State Senate Majority Leader Scott Fitzgerald (R) had previously said he would not attempt to pass any portions of the bill without Democrats present.

Wisconsin Democrats decried the move as an unprecedented and blatant end-run, but it was clear that they were powerless to stop it. Indeed, it took the conference committee only a matter of minutes to pass the severed off measure by a four-to-two vote. Minutes later, the same bill passed through the entire Senate by an 18-1 margin, with Sen. Dale Schultz, a Republican moderate who had proposed a compromise measure, lodging the only no vote.

Justin Sargent, a staffer to Senator Chris Larson (D-Wis.) called the maneuver completely unexpected. It showed, he added, that this “obviously wasn’t about any kind of financing, it was an attack on working families.”

Sargent would not say whether his boss was en route back from Illinois but noted, rightly, that he wouldn’t make it back in time to even lodge an on-the-floor protest. Instead, Larson offered a simple tweet: "Shame."

The new procedural maneuver requires that bill now be sent back to the State Assembly for consideration since that body has passed only the full (not the severed) budget bill. According to Mary Spicuzza of the Wall Street Journal the Assembly will reportedly take up the measure tomorrow.

UPDATE, 7:12 p.m.: University of Madison-Wisconsin student journalist Talya Minsberg, who is at the Capitol, told The Huffington Post that there are vastly more people stuck outside than inside due to "airport-style" security measures. Those outside crowded around a window near where the vote was taking place, to shout and protest Republican lawmakers: "You lied! You lied! You lied to Wisconsin!" went one chant. "Shame!" went another.

UPDATE, 7:46: The Weekly Standard's John McCormack has more details on what was in the actual bill that passed.

The legislation being voted on tonight has few changes from the bill as initially proposed. It would save just $30 million less than the original budget bill by stripping out a refinancing provision. But it would still save the state $300 million over the next two years by requiring state employees to contribute about 5% of income toward their pensions and by requiring state workers to pay for about 12% of their health insurance premiums. It would also save $1.44 billion by requiring public employees in school districts and municipalities to pay 5% of their salaries toward their pensions and by removing collective bargaining for benefits, thus giving school districts and municipalities the option of requiring their employees to pay about 12% for their health insurance premiums.

Saturday, March 05, 2011

in my beach tent watching the world across the Pacific... glad Im thousands of miles away!

why not fly away to paradise away from the falling empire?/

Id rather watch my son blow bubbles across the sea!

and thousands of miles away in the land of the leaping lemmings
as they mindlessly follow others to their fate:

WASHINGTON -- While Wisconsin Gov. Scott Walker (R) continues to wait out the state's Senate Democrats on his budget bill that would strip collective bargaining rights from public employee unions, a growing number of Wisconsin's abortion-rights advocates worry that they have become his next target.

In 2009, Wisconsin passed a "contraceptive equity" law that requires health insurance plans in the state that cover prescription drugs to include contraceptives. Proponents argued that the measure was necessary to ensure that commercial health providers -- who cover approximately one-third of the state's residents -- don't discriminate against women. "Contraceptive Equity is about fairness, preventing gender discrimination, and access to basic health care," reads a statement on the website for Planned Parenthood of Wisconsin.

Walker's budget released this week would repeal the 2009 law. His budget summary called it an "unacceptable government mandate on employers with moral objections to these services," adding that it "increases the cost of health insurance for all payers."

The governor is also proposing the elimination of the Title V Maternal and Child Health program, which receives a mix of federal, state and local funds to provide family planning services. Uninsured men and women can currently receive this care, which includes cervical and prostate cancer screenings, access to birth control and testing and treatment for sexually transmitted diseases.

Walker's budget estimates that Wisconsin would save $1.9 million annually by eliminating the Title V program, whose money goes to family planning centers such as Planned Parenthood. But Planned Parenthood of Wisconsin spokeswoman Amanda Harrington argued that more than 50 health centers in the state would be deprived of a total of $4 million once the federal and local funds are included. (Planned Parenthood receives roughly one-quarter of that money.) In many cases, Harrington said, these health centers are the only providers in the area and deliver critical care.

Planned Parenthood is not a new target for Walker. While campaigning for governor in April, he told the Wisconsin Right to Life convention that during his time as a state legislator, he was proud of "trying to defund Planned Parenthood and make sure they didn't have any money, not just for abortion, but any money for anything."

Walker's budget would also kick uninsured men between the ages of 15 and 44 out of the family planning program of BadgerCare, the state health program that currently provides coverage to tens of thousands of residents who don't receive employer-sponsored care but earn too much to qualify for Medicaid. Currently, men can receive coverage for birth control, cancer screenings and STD testing and treatment.

Matt Sande, the director of legislation at Pro-Life Wisconsin, a group opposed to abortion rights, applauded the governor's proposed cuts.

"This state/federal program provides free, taxpayer-funded birth control to 15, 16 and 17-year-old boys and girls without their parents' knowledge or consent. This undermines parental authority in the sensitive area of teen sexual health and increases underage pregnancy, abortion, and sexually transmitted diseases by encouraging sexual promiscuity," Sande said in a statement, encouraging lawmakers to also raise the eligibility age for women from 15 to 18.

Abortion-rights advocates argue that Walker's cuts are short-sighted and could result in more unplanned pregnancies, meaning more money that will need to be spent. Planned Parenthood pointed to a 2008 statement by the state's health department that said expanding family planning services prevented an estimated 11,064 unplanned pregnancies and saved nearly $140 million in expenditures that would have been used to cover the births and health care costs of those children.

"This shows that the governor has no conception of fiscal responsibility, because when you take away basic preventative health care like cancer screenings from working-class and middle-class women, you're going to end up costing the taxpayers far more in the end," state Rep. Kelda Roys (D) said in an interview with The Huffington Post. "We know that this governor is just hellbent on destroying access to health care and destroying the social safety net. It's just unfortunate that it's really the working-poor and the middle-class who are going to be forced to pay the price on this, in terms of fewer preventions of cancer, fewer health screenings, and more unintended pregnancies."

Walker's office did not return a request from The Huffington Post for more details about the potential savings.

The governor's attempt to defund Title V is similar to a measure that Republicans in Congress are proposing at the federal level. Rep. Mike Pence (R-Ind.) recently introduced legislation that would kill the federal Title X program, which provides funding for family planning programs, including Planned Parenthood. House Minority Leader Nancy Pelosi (D-Calif.) said that Democrats needed to make this issue "too hot to handle" and go on the offense against attempts to take away women's rights

my comment sent to Huffpo:
sounds like walker and Karl Rove should get together if they havent already in following the 10 steps to "starving the beast" and bankrupting america, so we will be at the mercy of the corporations when we become the banana republic, that the think tanks of the rich and powers that be have decided as the stategy... and then??

are we heading for a world govt owned by big business and the military industrial complex (as eisenhower prophetically predicted and warned Americans about)??
often I dont want to think about the very scary world my son is inheriting... so i like to escape those overwhelming thoughts of what we can do and just focus on the surf handicap swim race tomorrow morning at 820!
I have a 4:30 handicap behind some of the weaker swimmers who start at 0... the back markers will be starting about a minute behind me...
if the surf is weak, well probably swim two laps which might give me enough time to catch the slower racers but the faster swimmers might catch me.... ahh the excitement of the race I look forward to each week... and then all the worries of the world are momentarily gone!!