Sunday, November 29, 2009

I can't help thinking about the tremendous debt that we are creating with this war..
How does this government whether it 's Republican or Democrat justify building such a debt for these wars!!
(it's just giving me chest pains thinking of all this tension and debt that I feel like paying for and letting my son take over this debt!!
I need to speed up the process for us becoming dual citizens or my druthers
I would want to just let Colin growing up Australian!!
It makes me feel good that he was born in Oz (that's half the battle for him becoming an Aussie)!
(picture from a very similar topography from Nimbin, NSW!)
still wakin' up to hillbillitis as winter approaches...
all I can dream about is our family in Oz in summer!!
enjoying the beach before the inevitable tsunami takes
most of the beach away...
as our once and future president causes Colin's other country to sink
further into our modern Vietnam...
I have to get away from this right wing fundamentalist thinking that voted for the idiot that got us into 2 wars and has held this country hostage for almost a decade
we are not just in one war but two!!
and the media never approaches the real reason behind these wars!!
to profit Cheney and Bush's oil rich buddies and families!!
the Mafia of politics!!
30 thousand more troops will go there !
that is 30k x a million $

Don't get me started...
I just want our family to escape the Arkie Zone and have our own peaceful low carbon imprint from this mess!
I had an argument this morning with my Christian mother in law...
she believes in Jesus but thinks escalating this war is a good thing
so that these Moslem infidels won't be over here...
with all this hate that we've created over there,
it will be hard to stop them...
especially if they have become shrinks in our own army!!
This how war is really about religion and war...
they have hate for us and
we have hate for them...
then you mix God in the equation and
these idiots on both side believe they are in a "holy war"!

Saturday, November 28, 2009

each time I have a lot of things that I want to say,
there is no puter near by...
time to get another puter...
after my disaster..
now the choice of our destiny
and our family's future
is in limbo...
my honey wants to have xmas with her family...
I just down want my birthday
in Hillbillville
I see me in the surf two weeks from now!!
It's Sunday with my mates of Ocean street
celebrating my 54th in our little Paradise..
the icing on the cake would be Colin and my honey cheering me on along with my mates!! what a day that would be!!
I would be the one happiest men over 50
at least out of the Okie and Arkie Zones!

the weather is beautiful at least here in hillbilly country
while I sneak off to relieve myself and have a little buzz
I'm as usual in a decision limbol...
well for me the choice is obvious..
to deal with the possibility of living with this extended family..
cousin Sally suggests I rent
but that makes me almost blow a stack
and perhaps say things that I'll regret
that bitter side of my mouth has hurt more folks than any other part of my physical apperture...
I try to imagine when I was happiest...
was it when I had a variety of beautiful personalities in and out of my life ?
until our living habits, behavior and ultimately our personalities
got on each others' nerves??
and I would need my current cave/closet to hide away from the reality that I did not enjoy...
I had to escape....
we might become bored
or just plain tired of the situation..
bring up these children not related to me would not be an inevitability
but often when I was with my new found families of my ex-gfs
..well I need to go ...it's time to leave my musical bedroom , before I have to clean it up and put the fold out cot where it was before..
lata
now I have a little chance to write
but Dad in L. will want his puter back...
all I can imagine is watching sunrise and sunset on the beach
legally herbalized....
It's really scary that Bush's former press secretary really believed this!!

"CommentsDana Perino, recently nominated by President Obama to the Broadcasting Board of Governors, made an odd claim Tuesday night.
"We did not have a terrorist attack on our country during President Bush's term," she told Sean Hannity. "I hope they're not looking at this politically. I do think that we owe it to the American people to call it what it is."

It frightens me that these right wing lunatic can hold this country hostage for another decade!

Friday, November 27, 2009

Black (dog) Friday

whenever I visit with my good mate(oz lingo) and muse, Charles, I seem to be at a crossroads with plenty of herbal epiphanies...
we
I checked out my tenants' home
and felt like the 3 ghosts of xmas past had possibly visited me the night before without my knowledge...
Cannabized dreams are the best after a long hiatus from good bud...
It was great to visit the street that I habitated half my life...
It would be so nice to do a documentary (time lapsed photography) with interludes into the lives of my closet cannabizing neighbors of 83rd street..
This forbidden formosa tree is still surviving after being cut in hald..
it still gives my old abode an appearance of being semi sub tropical...
I feel like I experienced relationships and friendships coming and going like a movie/documentary flashing before my eyes...
well, my son, Colin has just run over to me, so I'll talk to u in a while..

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Wednesday, November 25, 2009


I was browsing or getting my daily fix of Huffpo and saw Katie Kouric (50)
gettin it on the dance floor...
I remember goin middle age crazy at Danny's Blues Saloon (where midnight manic motorbike maniacs love to hang out, dance and fight)...
I'd be the male version of her...

all I can say is I miss the beach and the Ocean street gang!
... getting pumped up for the
morning surf swim race!!

walkabout in misory....
my infiniti went off a little track...
1-44 instead of 71N....
so why not check out the beaches is this state of mizory along the many man made lakes of the Ozarks!!




Buffy and me
on another little adventure...
wonderful to meet LA and Muffy again
Butterfly effect:this wouldn't have happened
maybe I would be a different person and this blog wouldn't never have been created??
Maybe I would never have become a father...'
and I would be miserable and alone...
Instead I am often miserable but don't we love company??
It's wonderful not to be alone!!
sharing moments with friends and family are the best moments...
I lost all the sentences about Buffy being so happy..dancing the way Snoopy does in his comics when he is the happiest dog lying on top of his dog house with his circle of friends..
his little bird chick family!!
and see Buffy re bond with the family again!!

Maybe eventually my ole friends can meet Colin waking up to a new dawn of civilization and peaceful utopia??
I guess I will edit all of this later....I have to realize that I can't let myself get down over my very imperfect first impressions of a great weekend!!
I have to realize how important happiness is...seek it...it's there
everyday...
seeing my son smile at me...
thinking of all the time we can still share together
as he deals with his first impressions!!

Friday, November 20, 2009

"'Zombie Buildings': Are They The Next Economic Calamity? "


"While the overall U.S. financial system is showing signs of stability, a rapidly rising tide of troubled loans for commercial real estate threatens the survival of hundreds of the nation's small and medium-sized banks.

Financial reports this month from federal regulators and industry analysts detail a new cycle of uncertainty that they fear could cripple the economic recovery. Billions of dollars in commercial debt will have to be paid back or refinanced at a time when property values have plummeted. About $500 billion will come due in 2010 alone and an equal amount every year through at least 2012, according to the Federal Reserve.



Many banks that cater to regional and community developments were largely unscathed by the residential mortgage meltdown. But now they are facing huge numbers of possible defaults by builders who erected thousands of office towers, condominiums and shopping centers with the easy credit available five years ago. With few tenants, those developments are turning into what industry insiders call zombie buildings.





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Commercial real estate loans generally have terms of five to seven years. Many of the loans issued at the height of the credit bubble are coming due. By mid-November, $150 billion worth of commercial properties, about 7,500 in total, were in distress, according to Real Capital Analytics Research Inc.

Next year "looks like an unavoidable bloodbath for a multitude of 'zombie' borrowers, investors and lenders" and the shakeout could continue for "several years," says a recent report by PriceWaterhouseCoopers and the Urban Land Institute drawn from confidential interviews with industry experts.

Story continues below Stephen Blank, a principal researcher for the report, said that regional and smaller banks that made the loans are bracing for big losses that could overwhelm their resources.

"The number on the street - what we hear - is that as many as 400 banks might fail before this is over," Blank said in an interview.

As of mid-November, 123 banks had failed this year, largely split open by commercial debt. More than 400 banks now are on a problem list maintained by the Federal Deposit Insurance Corp.

Industry analysts, such as the Real Estate Roundtable trade group, point out that a sick commercial market hurts any hope for recovery. Local government revenues suffer. Construction jobs--and all sorts of ancillary jobs--disappear. Retirement funds are vulnerable.

In recent Capitol Hill testimony, Roundtable President Jeffrey D. DeBoer pointed out that "a growing number of Americans have a stake in commercial property" because of their investments in pension plans, 401(k) plans and direct investments in real estate investment trusts. He estimated that $160 billion of retirement savings are invested in commercial real estate.

In October, federal regulators issued a statement encouraging banks to work with borrowers to extend loans, rather than call them in. The federal government is also trying to entice investors to buy back bonds based on commercial mortgages through a government-run emergency fund aimed at salvaging the credit market.

Despite those efforts, the banks' problems are continuing to grow, said Michael Stevens, senior vice president for regulatory policy at the Conference of State Bank Supervisors.

"It's not the next big thing. It is the big thing," Stevens said. "We're dealing with it right now. We wouldn't be at 120 bank failures if we weren't seeing it now."




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- + leduck I'm a Fan of leduck I'm a fan of this user 36 fans permalink OBAMA will get us through this mess...,
he has HOPE

Reply Favorite Flag as abusive Posted 02:20 PM on 11/20/2009 - + pumpupthevolume I'm a Fan of pumpupthevolume I'm a fan of this user 45 fans permalink The government shoulod seize those commerical building from the banks on behalf of the taxpayers, then have the corporations pay rent to the government and not the banks

Reply Favorite Flag as abusive Posted 02:19 PM on 11/20/2009 - + 31BlueDog I'm a Fan of 31BlueDog I'm a fan of this user 45 fans permalink seriously?

Reply Favorite Flag as abusive Posted 02:20 PM on 11/20/2009 - + Bzzzt I'm a Fan of Bzzzt I'm a fan of this user 39 fans permalink Apparently there are some slow-witted dullards hereabouts who think that cap and trade is a policy or something, rather than an implementation of a policy. How sad.

Reply Favorite Flag as abusive Posted 02:19 PM on 11/20/2009 - + amaycatbaker I'm a Fan of amaycatbaker I'm a fan of this user 23 fans permalink Getting Job creation is the key, BUSH Tax cuts expire at the end of next year. The rich wanted those, to get richer.

Why not get someone in Congress to RENEW these, with adding to it "If you want the cut make a job in America." Then it really won't be Obama raising taxes, it would be the wealth raising it on themselves.

The Republicans hate taxes and claim lowing it would stimulate the economy. Let them put their money where their mouths are, and give incentive.

Reply Favorite Flag as abusive Posted 02:18 PM on 11/20/2009 - + JeroenRitsema I'm a Fan of JeroenRitsema I'm a fan of this user 3 fans permalink The bankers, traders, and paperpushers are doing great, masturbating each other daily. Making profits while the rest of you can eat cake.

Or better yet, just continue waving your flag and sending kids to go fight illegal wars of aggression.

Notice the War ON terror has changed to the WAR of TERROR, ,,,,,,,,,,,,,on YOU AMERICANS>

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Reply Favorite Flag as abusive Posted 02:19 PM on 11/20/2009 - + Coyote777 7 I'm a Fan of Coyote777 7 I'm a fan of this user 42 fans permalink here we go: American protectionsim is set to make this problem worse.

Reply Favorite Flag as abusive Posted 02:20 PM on 11/20/2009 - + leduck I'm a Fan of leduck I'm a fan of this user 36 fans permalink PEAK OIL will correct that mistake

Reply Favorite Flag as abusive Posted 02:19 PM on 11/20/2009 - + leduck I'm a Fan of leduck I'm a fan of this user 36 fans permalink I we have to do is WISH OUR PROBLEMS AWAY

Reply Favorite Flag as abusive Posted 02:17 PM on 11/20/2009 - + KewlJoJo I'm a Fan of KewlJoJo I'm a fan of this user 176 fans permalink Reagan aimed the Titanic at the iceberg. Bush I and Clinton kept her steady on course and she hit the thing while CaptDubya was on the poopdeck. We're sunk. It was nice knowing some of you.

Reply Favorite Flag as abusive Posted 02:16 PM on 11/20/2009 - + PerfectSense I'm a Fan of PerfectSense I'm a fan of this user 100 fans permalink The business cycle did not exist before Raygun? - interesting.

Reply Favorite Flag as abusive Posted 02:18 PM on 11/20/2009 - + cyrano1 I'm a Fan of cyrano1 I'm a fan of this user 83 fans permalink We're all culpable. Glass - Steagall vaporized under Clinton.

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Reply Favorite Flag as abusive Posted 02:18 PM on 11/20/2009 - + mheister I'm a Fan of mheister I'm a fan of this user 48 fans permalink We used to quote the Founding Father who said, "The price of freedom is eternal vigilance".

That needs to be amended just slightly.

Today, the price of freedom from corporate tyranny is eternal vigilance.

Reply Favorite Flag as abusive Posted 02:16 PM on 11/20/2009 - + GringoLingo I'm a Fan of GringoLingo I'm a fan of this user 180 fans permalink Have you ever gone to a city where the skyscrapers are obviously dated 1920s-30s and marveled at how beautiful they are? That's what future generations will be doing with these buildings. They will be put to good use in good time.

We've got plenty to worry about but we will make it through. The economy is going to take another dive because we're spending too much. Inflation is going to hit us sometime at the end of next year, and then we'll start to recover.

We've artificially tried to solve a problem that is best handled by nature. We have to let bad businesses fail. We have to allow hardship to hit us. We have to endure the bad times to get back to the good.

We cannot buy ourselves out of this. We need to save and pay off our debts so that we don't prolong a recession into a depression.""

Are we in the decline or downright fall of this American empire??
I think it's obvious when so many want to believe and follow idiots like Bush and Palin
like lemmings eager to run of the cliff to their fall on the rocks below...

"im growing old at the sea"




I was listening to these songs and they all seemed to relate to me...


I get so frustrated with myself more than anybody...


It's my own fault and ODD (organizational deficit disorder)


that it takes me forever to get out of a place....


leaving a trail of disgust and contempt....


so why worry??


I'll just go for a swim in the beautiful Pacific!!


and hopefully Colin and company will come with me...

Thursday, November 19, 2009

ASS BACKWARDS

Hooray for the military!! It's about time these right wing nuts were put in their place... this nasty, crazy , lying lady actually believes she has a chance to become president! ...well I never thought that that idiot, Dubya, had any chance whatso ever, so who knows?? Notice in the pictures and clips that she has an all white audience!

"RALEIGH, N.C. — The U.S. Army plans to prevent media from covering Sarah Palin's appearance at Fort Bragg, fearing the event will turn into political grandstanding against President Barack Obama, officials said Thursday.

Fort Bragg spokesman Tom McCollum told The Associated Press that the military post's garrison commander and other Army officials had decided to keep media away from Palin's book signing, which will not include a speech.

The AP and The Fayetteville Observer were protesting the decision to ban media.

McCollum said the Army did not want the Monday event to become a platform to express political opinions "directed against the commander in chief."

"The main reason is to stop this from turning into a political platform," he said. "There are Army regulations that basically prohibit military reservations from becoming political platforms by politicians."


In the decline and fall of the Roman Empire there were both crazy and stupid emperors that helped Rome in it's downward spiral!
This woman know less about geography than George Jr. and the way she talks it's obvious that she would need a ghost writer like Bush had to have one so he could survive Yale!
The scary thing is this conniving nasty lady has so much power and influence...even over my mother in law who at least appears to smart!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

FOX (FAKE) NEWS

"
Last week, Jon Stewart and The Daily Show caught Fox News' Sean Hannity running old footage of September Tea Party crowds in an attempt to make Michele Bachmann's smaller November Tea Party shindig appear to be more well-attended than it was. Is Fox up to the same tricks today? Faiz Shakir at ThinkProgress thinks so, and he pulls a segment that seems to tout the crowds that greeted Sarah Palin on the stump during the 2008 campaign as throngs that are gathering to purchase Sarah Palin's book, Going Rogue.

In the clip below, watch as Fox anchor Gregg Jarrett describes "pictures just coming into us" as "huge crowds" that have amassed while Palin is "promoting her new book." The pictures that are supposedly "just coming in" are actually year-old video from the presidential campaign:


Last week, Jon Stewart and The Daily Show caught Fox News' Sean Hannity running old footage of September Tea Party crowds in an attempt to make Michele Bachmann's smaller November Tea Party shindig appear to be more well-attended than it was. Is Fox up to the same tricks today? Faiz Shakir at ThinkProgress thinks so, and he pulls a segment that seems to tout the crowds that greeted Sarah Palin on the stump during the 2008 campaign as throngs that are gathering to purchase Sarah Palin's book, Going Rogue.

In the clip below, watch as Fox anchor Gregg Jarrett describes "pictures just coming into us" as "huge crowds" that have amassed while Palin is "promoting her new book." The pictures that are supposedly "just coming in" are actually year-old video from the presidential campaign:

For what it's worth, I think this appears to be little more than a momentary disconnect between newsreader and news producer than a conscious attempt to mislead. I am sure that Fox News is more than aware that crowds are mainly gathering today at a mall in Michigan, where Palin is expected to appear, and not at some rally that Palin presided over today. Of course, the fact that Fox was caught manipulating footage in a misleading manner is only going to spur further suspicions when things like this happen.

MSNBC has also been reporting on Palin's book signing all day today. It's not something that Fox is likely to have missed, and it looks a little something like this

I miss the land of Oz so much!
where our son Colin was born...

I just wish my wife felt the same way!!

Monday, November 16, 2009

Newsbusters.org as usual loves to give it out but cant take it!


Jon Stewart Trashes Sean Hannity For Apologizing To Him
By Noel Sheppard November 13, 2009 - 15:20

Comedy Central's Jon Stewart absolutely trashed Sean Hannity on Thursday's "The Daily Show."

What was Hannity's crime this time?
( Comrade Sheppard runs Newsbuster like the Pravda was run under Stalin!)

Well, the Fox News personality actually apologized to Stewart for a mistake that was made in a "Hannity" segment aired last week and "reported" by "The Daily Show" host on his program Tuesday.

Rather than graciously accepting Hannity's apology, Stewart attacked him with a segment that included a "young," 22-year old producer -- having aged 50 to 60 years watching "Hannity" the last five months -- asking Stewart to kill him so he wouldn't have to watch any more (video embedded below the fold with transcript):


so of course, it's perfectly alright for fox to rig the news or more like propaganda to fit their agenda that they want people to believe!
It is amazing how folks believe this channel...
and so it's amazing how blindly people will vote for Palin...the dumbest governor (male or female) in American history!!
Newsbusters.org
read this site sometime and see how there are no liberals ...if they do , they eventually weed them out as I was...the represent the very sore losers of the Republicon party!
It is amazing how their idols are idiots like Bush, Palin, Limbaugh and Beck!
showing this pic probably exhibits my licentious animal desires..
yeh...
don't we all wish we could be that age again partying in college like there is no tomorrow

an innocent adolesence missing out on all the depravity and sin...
missing out on all the fun...
so you fantasize about being Benjamin Button!

Sunday, November 15, 2009

I guess so many of us deal with depression, sadness or deep brooding at some point in our lives..
I think we need to just figure out daily rit
uals to deal with this
"Black Dog"!

if you are just laying there brooding(perseverating)...
about this heavy dog on your soul at 32o or 420 in the morning
I would more likely call this dog gray!....
instead of laying there with this heavy bitch on your sould,
go outside and grab the natural high of endorphins
run in the grass or if you are lucky enough to be living on the beach feel the sand and surf cool your feet...
watch the sunrise on a new day!!


let the fresh air cool your heated body as you coast down that hill
on your mountain bike...
or better yet body surf that big wave...

as the new sun reaches over the horizon!!

yep.....
I wonder why so many of friends and ex friends have to deal with this black/gray canine.??..
either with alcohol, sedatives, man made pharmaceuticals...
or the healthier alternative
a cannabis cookie with some mocha at the local cannabis cafe!
or just a little bit of food spiced with hydro
just for a tiny little buzz before the swim in the sea!!

Monday 1245 am:
COOL!! Cheech and Chong were just on Faux (Fox) News with Geraldo!
Of course, Adam's Apple Coulter was on there against the legalization of weed saying how alcohol is bad enough, why should we introduce another bad drug??
Cheech and Chong will be starting a tour about legalizing pot throughout the states..of course if the tour and the momentum of grass r0ots popular opinion, it will then become legal in the states and the domino effect will across the Pacific to my homeland of Oz...HallefuckingJUlia!!



Maybe my dream and others won't just be up in smoke about
finally to come out of the closet about smoking it guilt free!!

I suppose I should put this post for the next day but after a little homegrown puffs, my mood changes for the better or to the pro grass tination mode....
this causes enough mind altering to help me desire to change the world
at least for the legalization of weed...
my good mate,D, is helping watch my place in case a cyclone or tsunami hits... In which case , it would be 420 time, while we all wait in the basement taking a few hits off the bong mixture of highgrow and damiana... at least I'd be with him and Shano in spirit while the excitement of the storm comes through...
I was so sad to not be able to see the height of the waves and storm surge as mother nature takes away our backyard fence at the edge of the dune vegetation.. My Ocean street mates saw it all happen after dark with umbrellas for the storm... it washed it away like it was tooth picks!!
I introduced him to the language of herb in the states...
maybe only 1/100 stoners in Oz knows what 420 means (and that would be because of visiting the cannabus culture of the States)
my good mate, D, well understands our beach bum cannabizing philosophy of 420!!
He of course works hard at his for 6 or 7 hours... enjoying being the Zen Master of the surf from sunrise before 5am till about 7 or 8....
then there is no worries mate at 320 or 420... depending on how soon he wants to kick off for a game of chess and beer while watching the late Avo sun!! aah the life of beach bum stoners...

it's enough to write a script that would far outdo the American version of the beach surfer/stoner society...


"Surfer Dude" with Mathew Mccomical playing the lead role


and sadly it had a good actor, Woody Harrelson (unofficicial spokesperson) for the closet cannabis society!!

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Sure would be nice to have this cafe in town!! Have a cappucino and some bud...hmmm...maybe a game of chess and some intellectual conversation...
Maybe discuss how Obama can loosen up the rules for cannabizing in the US...
I'm sure Oz would be soon to follow!




First U.S. marijuana cafe opens in Portland
Sat Nov 14, 2009 7:36am EST
By Dan Cook
PORTLAND, Oregon (Reuters) - The United States' first marijuana cafe opened on Friday, posing an early test of the Obama administration's move to relax policing of medical use of the drug.

The Cannabis Cafe in Portland, Oregon, is the first to give certified medical marijuana users a place to get hold of the drug and smoke it -- as long as they are out of public view -- despite a federal ban.

"This club represents personal freedom, finally, for our members," said Madeline Martinez, Oregon's executive director of NORML, a group pushing for marijuana legalization.

"Our plans go beyond serving food and marijuana," said Martinez. "We hope to have classes, seminars, even a Cannabis Community College, based here to help people learn about growing and other uses for cannabis."

The cafe -- in a two-story building which formerly housed a speak-easy and adult erotic club Rumpspankers -- is technically a private club, but is open to any Oregon residents who are NORML members and hold an official medical marijuana card.

Members pay $25 per month to use the 100-person capacity cafe. They don't buy marijuana, but get it free over the counter from "budtenders". Open 10 a.m. to 10 p.m., it serves food but has no liquor license.

There are about 21,000 patients registered to use marijuana for medical purposes in Oregon. Doctors have prescribed marijuana for a host of illnesses, including Alzheimer's, diabetes, multiple sclerosis and Tourette's syndrome.

On opening day, reporters invited to the cafe could smell, but were not allowed to see, people smoking marijuana.

"I still run a coffee shop and events venue, just like I did before we converted it to the Cannabis Cafe, but now it will be cannabis-themed," said Eric Solomon, the owner of the cafe, who is looking forward to holding marijuana-themed weddings, film festivals and dances in the second-floor ballroom.

NO PROSECUTION

The creation of the cafe comes almost a month after the Obama administration told federal attorneys not to prosecute patients who use marijuana for medical reasons or dispensaries in states which have legalized them.

About a dozen states, including Oregon, followed California's 1996 move to adopt medical marijuana laws, allowing the drug to be cultivated and sold for medical use. A similar number have pending legislation or ballot measures planned.

Pot cafes, known as "coffee shops", are popular in the Dutch city of Amsterdam, where possession of small amounts of marijuana is legal. Portland's Cannabis Cafe is the first of its kind to open in the United States, according to NORML.

Growing, possessing, distributing and smoking marijuana are still illegal under U.S. federal law, which makes no distinction between medical and recreational use.

Federal and local law enforcement agencies did not return phone calls from Reuters on Friday seeking comment on the Portland cafe's operations. Continued...


well, my Dad in Law is going for a bike ride at the lake real soon...I'm debating about letting him kick my butt in cycling again today...
or getting a b'day card for Mom I.L.
I'm trying to get a hold of LA and Muffy...
hope all of my readers are doin' ok...

Friday, November 13, 2009

FRIDAY THE 13TH!! another beautiful day in autumn!

We have to look at things positively
I saw "Point Break" last night. I think it was the best surfing movie...
of course there haven't been many...
among them,
the worst in the world, "Surfer Dude!"
All it did was make me miss Mermaid Beach even more!
I think it was Patrick Swayze's best movie...
but how prophetic of this actor to die at such a young age, loving life!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

I can't do the cut and pastes with the in laws' puter...
these lazy cloudy depressed days..
as the days get shorter
and the more depressing nightfall arrives sooner
drinking my mocha mixture and then some warm chai tea...
trying to get a tiny buzz
while I look for my reading glasses
in my attention deficit disorganized state..
Colin has woken up from our nap
but he's whining for his freedom and pursuit of freedom and happiness
i wonder if Homer would be happier all alone
with no responsibilities...
or tied up with all of his friends and families??
which is better??
Originally my only worry was Buffy and who could I share my life with??.



I wonder how many middle aged men are happy or at least feel fulfilled...
Homer is not alone...
but is he happy
??
aye, that is the question
would Homer feel happier with no worries ??
or in the constant companionship of all of his worries, resposibilites and judgements??
yep... the curse continues...
from loneliness to living with the in laws...
which hell is worse??
I have a feeling that somewhere out there, I might have a couple readers/ friends who can laugh with me rather than at me...
why do I put myself through this...
just yesterday , I was feeling pretty good

and then I wake up debating about sneaking outside to take a leak
and there is Daddy in law
walking outside on such a beautiful day with Colin "Joe" (as he affectionately calls him)
I'm waiting for this old ex world triathlete to kick my butt in cycling...
today , I'm staying way ahead of him coming down the hill...
I think that I can take the 90 degree turn to the left...
I lose my confidence and run off into the grass on the other side...
wondering if I'm gonna crash....
I manage not to but my ass takes the majority of the beating..
Now as I type in frustration,
my ass is hurting...

he's a cunning competitive old coot
eager for vindication the next morning
" we are leaving at 930 am sharp!
so don't stay up late at night watching the news...
watching the news won't make a damn bit of difference!.."
I don't bother to argue with him
as he's king of his own castle with me his reluctant guest/prisoner
now that my laptop in ruined
from my own retardation..
I leave it on the floor
just so I can unfold the uncomfortable right onto the old laptop
with all my records and photos...
I open it up and there Is a big huge crack showing right straight up in the glass...
ah well...no sense getting upset over a laptop...
I can still have a good day...
until the nightfall arrives
and that is the worse time...
living in confined quarters
Why do I put myself into these situations??
Why not just get out the violin??
where can I friend out of my loyal readers??
LA, are you still out there??
each night, I'm waiting for king of the castle to relinquish his den at about midnight so I can fold out the cot
and crash to wake up

Tuesday, November 10, 2009


Last night I dreamed that I came in 2nd in the surf swim handicap race...
all I can think about is heading back there to where my son was born...

Friday, November 06, 2009



I suppose this blog has been semi anonymous, but still I fear exposing my innermost thoughts...
fears that my relatives, in laws or friends will see what I worry about...
my pleasures, my carnal desires...
eventually, these thoughts will come out of the closet ..
with this delusional desire of writing a book...
a collection at this point of my in the various stages of my mid life

Wanna picture?


It'll last longer, mate!

Wednesday, November 04, 2009


all I know is that life is too short..

and even shorter if y0u have an eternity to think about your short time on this minute speck of earth's geologic era...

scientifically thinking, this is it...

but just in case our conciousness goes on in either heaven or hell..

wouldn't we want to enjoy every short moment on this earth??

Sunday, November 01, 2009


Colin Murray Garvald is walking
soon he will be talking
at least in the language we understand..
(he communicates to us talking to as if we should already understand him!)