Sunday, September 27, 2009



Thanks LA! Colin will love the present! It's nice to know that there are some folks that enjoy reading the site and seeing the pics of our family escape!

Saturday, September 26, 2009





These pics were from a few days ago when this dust storm arrived from inland... once in a lifetime occurence...
it looked like the "day after" a nucular war...ala george bush!!

Sunday, September 20, 2009

" Did Jesus suffer from Bipolar Disorder

The excellent BBC programme on Stephen Fry and his struggle with Bipolar Disorder impressed me very much. The thought that even though only about 1% of the population may suffer (if that is the word) from this ailment but that those 1% are perhaps amongst the greatest movers and thinkers of us all.
I could not help but think, when Stephen Fry and Professor Nick Craddock were discussing childhood and adult symptoms together with delusions of grandure, that the classic case of this was Jesus of Nazareth. Surely I was not the only one that noted the incredible ups (preaching to 5,000; confronting Jewish scolars; gathering apostles) and suicidal downs (40 days in the wilderness with the temptation to suicide; confronting the moneychangers; the submission at the garden of gethsemane) and perhaps even the delusion that he was he Son of God as the classic symptoms of Bipolar Disorder?
So what difference would it make if Jesus of Nazereth was not actually the Son of God but actually a “normal” manic depressive. What difference would that make to the world?
I have always admired the philosophy and teachings of Jesus and despised how that had all been perverted by (particularly but not exclusively) the catholic church to empower them to subvert the general population to their will. How did the teachings of Love and Forgiveness of a great and humble man lead to the slaughter of millions of men, women and children of different beliefs over the ceturies? But that is a Rhetorical question which is tending to lead me way from my theme.
There are a number of religious anomalies which have personally troubled me which would surely be cast asunder if it was acceptable that the Holy Trinity was the delusion of a troubled mind.
1. No Christmas. Does any sensible person accept that Mary was a Virgin when she bore Jesus? Another Rhetorical question, sorry. But if you wanted to put your candidate for Superman forward couple of Millenia ago, then a Virgin birth was a Must.

2. No Man can enter Heaven but Through Me. The ultimate dillusion of Grandeur? So a Moslem cleric who has done great charity and has humbly served his community through his life ends up in Hell, and Pope Gregory IX and his inquisitors and any Catholic who did any wrong (as long as he repented on his deathbed) go to eternal salvation?
3. Easter and the Resurrection. Well no, actually. I put this in as a paradox because there is no reason why the resurrection should prove, or disprove, that Jesus is the Son of God. There have been many recorded instances of persons supposedly dead and/or being in a deep coma returning to life without them being hailed as some sort of Super Being. I personally believe that Jesus came back to his fellows after a few days, it is about the only thing that all the Apostle writers seem to agree on.
4. Why was Jesus so inconsistent? Ghandi was humble, he was respected because he resisted the British Raj by Passive Resistance. He built up a huge following by preaching peace and reason. Jesus, on the other hand, was a bit of a hot-head. Drawing huge crowds, he preached and performed miracles then rode into Jerusalem on a donkey behind a crowd spreading palm leaves in his way. He goes into the market and causes a riot by up-turning tables and spilling money on the floor. Yet here was the man who was so full of self doubt that he spent forty days and forty nights in the wilderness, who for all his powers apparently did not say a word in his defence in front of Pilate and went mildly to the cross, completely humiliated.
4. Why was Jesus crucified? OK so he was popular and he did a few miracles and he caused a bit of trouble with the local Pharisees and money lenders in the market place. But that is no reason why the Jewish hierachy and aristocracy should look on him as such a threat as to risk making a matyr out of him. The reason why he was crucified was his persistent Blasphemy, that He claimed that He was the Son of God. In the sociey in which he lived, particularly because it was under occupation by the Romans, it must have been seen as essential that the Jews maintained there tradition. They had kept (and continue to keep) their way of life by utterly rejecting any reason, arguement, evidence, logic which may shake their belief in their inherrent superiority over the rest of mankind by reason of their being “God’s Chosen People”. The along comes the “Son of God” who tells them they are wrong: well he has to go.

So there are my thoughts, but this does not mean that I am not a Christian, merely that I do not accept the supernatural munbo-jumbo made up by the Church in order to control the masses. I believe that Jesus was a man, a very great and good man but just a man.

Here endeth tht lesson."

http://www.robinsonic.co.uk/2007/12/30/did-jesus-suffer-from-bipolar-disorder/http://www.google.com.au/search?q=jesus+bipolar&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8&aq=t&rls=org.mozilla:en-US:official&client=firefox-a



"Ostara - a festival of fertility and growth celebrated on the Spring Equinox - the first day of Spring. On this day darkness and light are in balance. From this day onward, day will dominate the night and the Earth will explode with new life. Ostara is a celebration of this renewal and rebirth of nature and warming of the Earth."

days are getting longer if I stay here or shorter if I were in the US... I think that I prefer the optimism of spring...
my honey has gone for a walk...hopefully, her spirits will improve and not feel constantly homesick...
I guess the pull of the family is stronger for her than the pull of my roots and my Pacific that I'm hopefully soon calling home...
I'm here babysitting Colin lookin out into our backyard waiting for the lawn that we share with our neighbors to be vacant (they will all be at work!, so I can relax with my son over a cuppa underneath our umbrella, so I won't feel like I'm intruding...

Friday, September 18, 2009

""There is a substantial hippie community that exists on St. Louis' South Side around the area of South Grand Avenue. There is also another older, but growing hippie enclave in a close-in suburb of St. Louis. Known as the University City Loop along 10 blocks of Delmar Boulevard, the area is hopping with hippie-run shops and vendor stands."
Another Opinion: Bullshit.I lived there for 10 yrs on and off and ya I meet some cool people (every place has em) but The Dirty BASTARDS tryed to give me 30 yrs for cultivation. 14 little plants, less than 5 grams. I'm a 3 time loser, but I hadn't been locked up in 17 yrs. I just thought since You people were trying to guide people to where the Kynd Folks are St.Louis and or Missouri ain't it. The Law there are about the Money and Crooked, definitly stay out of Jefferson County south of St.Louis "
I noticed that some bloke every other day does a search for schwagstock often from somewhere in missouri...
they find my site... I feel like exposing how the police are in the states, in regards to a harmless herb that actually has many health benefits , including lowering blood pressure and reducing the need for addictive valium!!

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Study links 45,000 U.S. deaths to lack of insurance!

By Susan Heavey
"WASHINGTON (Reuters) - Nearly 45,000 people die in the United States each year -- one every 12 minutes -- in large part because they lack health insurance and can not get good care, Harvard Medical School researchers found in an analysis released on Thursday.

"We're losing more Americans every day because of inaction ... than drunk driving and homicide combined," Dr. David Himmelstein, a co-author of the study and an associate professor of medicine at Harvard, said in an interview with Reuters.

Overall, researchers said American adults age 64 and younger who lack health insurance have a 40 percent higher risk of death than those who have coverage.

The findings come amid a fierce debate over Democrats' efforts to reform the nation's $2.5 trillion U.S. healthcare industry by expanding coverage and reducing healthcare costs.

President Barack Obama's has made the overhaul a top domestic policy priority, but his plan has been besieged by critics and slowed by intense political battles in Congress, with the insurance and healthcare industries fighting some parts of the plan.

The Harvard study, funded by a federal research grant, was published in the online edition of the American Journal of Public Health. It was released by Physicians for a National Health Program, which favors government-backed or "single-payer" health insurance.

An similar study in 1993 found those without insurance had a 25 percent greater risk of death, according to the Harvard group. The Institute of Medicine later used that data in its 2002 estimate showing about 18,000 people a year died because they lacked coverage.

Part of the increased risk now is due to the growing ranks of the uninsured, Himmelstein said. Roughly 46.3 million people in the United States lacked coverage in 2008, the U.S. Census Bureau reported last week, up from 45.7 million in 2007.

Another factor is that there are fewer places for the uninsured to get good care. Public hospitals and clinics are shuttering or scaling back across the country in cities like New Orleans, Detroit and others, he said.

Study co-author Dr. Steffie Woolhandler said the findings show that without proper care, uninsured people are more likely to die from complications associated with preventable diseases such as diabetes and heart disease.

Some critics called the study flawed.

The National Center for Policy Analysis, a Washington think tank that backs a free-market approach to health care, said researchers overstated the death risk and did not track how long subjects were uninsured.

Woolhandler said that while Physicians for a National Health Program supports government-backed coverage, the Harvard study's six researchers closely followed the methodology used in the 1993 study conducted by researchers in the federal government as well as the University of Rochester in New York.

The Harvard researchers analyzed data on about 9,000 patients tracked by the U.S. Centers for Disease Control and Prevention's National Center for Health Statistics through the year 2000. They excluded older Americans because those aged 65 or older are covered by the U.S. Medicare insurance program.

"For any doctor ... it's completely a no-brainer that people who can't get health care are going to die more from the kinds of things that health care is supposed to prevent," said Woolhandler, a professor of medicine at Harvard and a primary care physician in Cambridge, Massachusetts.

(Editing by Xavier Briand)

yep...and then the most unhealthy rednecks are the poor ignoramusses protesting in Washington ...no clue...just brainless dittoheads who love Rush and Beck!


Wednesday, September 16, 2009


our lives revolve around Colin Murray...
a new soul...or is he an old soul??...
if so,a merry old soul is he
especially if he has a fully tummy...
like so many friends I know ;)
we start off with some of my oatmeal with a spoon of butter and a little Pacific sea water for minerals and flavoring!!
will we take him for bike ride today on our new bike trailer??
after making sure the tires are inflated and my honey's gears are working right

Tuesday, September 15, 2009


one of the most intimidating things in the world is filling out paper work...
and even bloody figuring just how to fax on your new fax machine(it's half a year old and used maybe 4 or 5 times because I am too learning disabled to sit down and read the instructions...
is it a kind of learned helplessness??)
at least for me in my very hedonistic beach bum lifestyle...
all these things that require mental energy and fear of rejection (worst fear is not become an Aussie/american poet laureate of the two continents....jet setting in a beach bum lifestyle...

who was that Greek legend?? Sysyphus??
the bloke who's trying to push this giant metaphoric boulder up the mountain...
without it falling backward...
that's the way I could easily feel..
with the whole weight of the world upon my shoulders..
and what would it all matter if suddenly...
A large tsunami engulfs your whole reality...
all I would think about
would be getting Colin
and make sure Angela is with us
and wait for the wave on tp of the roof....
ready to ride that wave.....

Saturday, September 12, 2009



Today was the best day in a long while both of us realizing how much better we both are. My honey realized how much I support her and want te o be a agood father more than I ever have before!

Thursday, September 10, 2009


we woke up before 6 hearing our precious gift crying l
both of us changed Colin's diapers...
my honey went back to bed
after a little pill
to greet the day far more relaxed
I watched and fed Colin in his high chair with my recipe of oats, muesli and rice...with bright orange red carrots to play with...
my honey just woke up refreshed at 8 to change his poopiness and give him a bath.. she talks in her cute voice to him...(when I talk like a baby she can't stand it)
I just made her some freshly ground coffee with macadamia nut honey from the local farming communities in the hills of the hinterland... giving her treats is my way of making love..
just giving to others especially my family makes me happier

I haven't had the urge to write for a while...nothing like a minute amount of bud for the little lift and the slightly different perspective created before I have a swim and go back to bed...mmm
sleep is sounding more attractive
three royal airforce helicopters flew by and shook the building like an earthquake...
never a dull moment along this sometimes tranquil and beautiful Gold Coast

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

"SUPREME COURT COULD USHER IN UNPRECEDENTED SPECIAL INTEREST ERA

The Supreme Court could loosen restrictions on the influence of money in politics after it hears Citizens United v. Federal Election Commission on Wednesday.

In an editorial on Sunday, the New York Times said that if the Supreme Court strikes down the longstanding rule that corporations can't spend directly on federal elections, it will usher in an era of labor unions and big business essentially deciding who gets elected and what they do in office:

If corporations are allowed to spend from their own treasuries on elections -- rather than through political action committees, which take contributions from company employees -- it would usher in an unprecedented age of special-interest politics.

Who might benefit from that? Republicans, reports Politico.

The case challenges decades of restrictions on corporations and unions spending unlimited cash on advocacy and advertising. Campaign finance experts predict that the court's conservative majority might expand the types of ads corporations and unions can purchase.

From Politico:

Depending on the contours of the decision, sources familiar with the political and legal strategies of unions, major Washington advocacy groups and trade associations expect a deluge of new spending in the 2010 and 2012 elections that likely would most benefit Republicans, since for-profit corporations and their non-profit advocacy groups tend to lean right and have more money at their disposals than unions, which typically support Democrats."

Monday, September 07, 2009


yeh... it's cool to just hang out in the middle of the dune vegetation!!
set out an old broken table and an umbrella to protect us from the sea breaze on the cloudy cool day!!
I set out the chessboard and we play a game of chess right in front of the Pacific!!
That would be the ideal setting to grow old to..
a good game of chess over a few beers and bud...
just escaping for the happy chess hour on our little beach cafe...

Sunday, September 06, 2009


I participated in the 1km ocean swim today....it was great to get back into athletic competition...
it keeps me feeling alive.. I came in second in my age group!! The other bloke was way ahead of me with the younger age group!!

http://oceanswims.blogspot.com/2009/09/fathers-day-swim-at-burleigh-heads.html#comment-form

Saturday, September 05, 2009

ok... I think I'm used to living in a fish bowl..
hopping from one fishbowl to another..now I might as well be some endangered species with my offspring looking for a shelter on the beach...
and perhaps some alien or even God?? is watching us...

Friday, September 04, 2009


still trying to perfect the idyllic life of a beach bum...
just have to get my sleep patterns to follow our Colin more closely...
so I sleep for a sound 8 hours before he awakes hopefully no earlier than dawn!
then to watch the sun come out of the ocean so that eventually I will have had a good hard workout in the ocean and beach before brekkie!

Thursday, September 03, 2009


maybe a little too much info comes out
under the hydroherbalied epiphanies...
it's nice to do a little herbalizing with neighbors of the beach..
each seeking a little release from the mundanity of day to day survival...
but we figure solutions or just plans
while my mate figures out how to kick my ass in nintendo pong!!

now I'm under the influence of the mojo and the moon...
I feel her effects as everyone is drawn to her influence
as they come out to the Godess of yore
cave men and cavewomen worshipped her
cavorted under her magical influence...
now the millionaires of Hedges pay their homage
coming out on their balconies and limited yards
a few meters from their sea...
what is it about the moon that causes
us to act like loonatics (lunartics?)
or maybe just feel a little delusional actually narcissistically thinking something would come out as great poetry...

where am I going with this blog??
am I trying to ever gain the courage and especially the discipline
just to do what it might take to make the goals that I want in this short life!
I realize t hat happiness has to come from within and just living in the now
greatful for every day
that my son can learn to talk
and walk to me...

I have many regrets in life but all I hope for is that I grow as a person
and now into I person that I would love as a family would love the members of it's own family...

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

I'm having difficulties downloading pics...I like to put in pics of the beautiful coast especially when I'm short on words :(

I think things are going better..
better to cut the umbilical cord
to do things on our own
learning to live a low impact carbon imprint lifestyle...
living each day one day at a time..'
learning to enjoy life to the fullest!

I just bought a bicycle trailer for Colin and the groceries...
then I can concentrate on losing weight while getting in the best physical shape of my middle age!