Tuesday, November 28, 2006

A cleansing snow is finally coming down over the Serendipachi Mountains

..I didn't have chess practice today and took off from school so I take care of business in town. Just going there and facing it was such a relief. I could not believe how nice the judge was but he won't be the same one in trial. It could be that cold ice queen that others have talked about but I will cross her bridge when I come to it. Sometimes when you think about the worse case scenario it is so pleasing when things are not as bad as they could be. I visited my class with the sub to make sure that he understood the work for the kids and it was so nice to see good behavior from my two boys! They were smiling and clay was working in my comfy chair after seeing that he helped himself to my instant cains coffee with chickory and probably hot chocholate. They love my cocoa/coffee mixture. It was such a treat for them bringing my expresso machine and making Cappucinos for them on the last day before Thanksgiving Vegetation! It's nice to go back to work and then immediately have a day off where I can sleep a few more minutes with Buffy and then really smell her dog breath! I imagine her playing in the snow before I come home. I hope that we get a few inches tonight. It would be so cool to be snowed in but I run out of things to say with my canine soulmate ;)......
I'm not enthused about writing to you . I am almost enjoying the time with Buffy in the snow. It was so beautiful seeing the snow on the mountains and the whole community being blanketed in snow. It was more snow than I have ever experienced here in the Serendipachi range. It would have been so fun to have spent it here all nestled in for snow...we are so alone far away from any major town but there is a comforting feeling being away from it all especially seeing all the problems in the middle east!
Speaking of problems, Jesus coincidentally set up a two hour meeting for our sped dept meeting the day I had scheduled to be off.
the asst. sped director from the district from town was there. The Borg and Jesus had a heavy discussion but according to Julio(this is from a bloke who borrows my sugar for his coffee and I often buy cheap beer, meals,ets), she knew far more about sped than an inexperienced Jesus,so she was obviously still in charge. It was almost a welcome relief to feel that J's power had been diminished I'm sure that he will now be putting his Machiavellian efforts on her.
Julio said that he will cater my birthday party for about $ 200 to 300. He will make Lasagna and have a Carribean theme! He says that then I will recover from my reputation of being cheap. I guess saving money is only popular in Oz and yet everybody still calls me that when I am still paying for everything. It reminds me of John Stossell telling everyone about the cheap rich people when he is a prick and I guess of the token neocons on news journalism. I remember him bashing teachers on one of his episodes.
I think it will be so much fun to have a bash before the last week of school before Xmas. It looks likely that I will stay in the states for the holidays but I need to see my home in Oz so badly. Next summer, I will most likely just stay there. My only ties to this country are Muffy, Buffy and my house. It will be wonderful to finally really escape.
I was roaming through tribes and decided that this ladies' quote fits me best.
"I am a gypsy. I don't mind having a solid base, but this
girls (boys) gotta roam from time to time. It is key to my happiness."

Chess practice was great again!
It was so wonderful to have the band director come by and play a couple games against one of his young musicians that also loves chess! There are a steady group and one that was angry with me for more than a month or more for talking to his cross country coach about his low grades in algebra. His attitude has changed after he finally talked himself into coming to chess again. I was giving out free lemon tea donated by Julio to all the players. It was great seeing how competitive they all are. I visited one of the teachers who's involved with photography and the newspaper. I will write a little ditty about what I want to accomplish with the chess club this year. I felt wonderful and then chatting on the phone again with M spoiled my great mood because of my verbal faux pas of saying like mother like daughter...It's funny how different the relationships are between moms and daughters verses sons and fathers. Mothers and daughters have a much thicker bond even till old age but oh well regardless of the way a daughter treats her Mom and vice versa (ie, sticking the child in an institution!). I loved my father but I would have been to Oz far more if Mom was still alive. I believe he just resented me even being in the same continent. I'm sure many of my ex loves would feel the same way! :( wah

Saturday, December 2nd
So Now I have to go the public library to express my thoughts to you! The school district apparently does not want me to have access to my writing and www.newsbusters.org ... funny... Julio last night said I was paranoid but I have already told folks that and of course they use it against me just like me getting a reputation for being cheap even though I was letting him drink my cheap beer and Boone's farm wine last night along with my intentions of making a big dinner party for my "surprise birthday party"( I will be surprised if anybody shows up;)..I'm joking at my expense!
Well, I finally took my mountain bike in to have a new tube with automatic sealant to stop flats and then put on some shocks ... It will be a lot more comfortable ride! I'm going to get one of my sped students a Garfield tape for her birthday. She is retarded but works extremely hard. She is very motivated to learn how to read especially to her one year old child. She was neglected so much in education. Even last year the Borg hardly spent anytime with her on reading or math...She was out of her class more often than being there so she could schmooze up to last year's in the closet principal and pretend to be an administrator (she had a very large gf that looked like the obese superintendent living with her!)

Wow! I have no idea what is going on with limited acess but something is up. Temporarily we have acess so I can write to you. Chess club is on right now so I will be back later!
Sometimes for brief moments, I have access to this site and then it is blocked. It is so weird!

It seems like only during school hours can I access my blog so I can chat with you! Wouldn't it be awful if our govt. had the same power to limit our freedoms to see sites that they did not want us to see?? Clay wanted to go see another teacher and so I went to the office to say that it was no big deal about him walking out of class without permission. Jesus comes outside and Clay overhears him talking about him from about 100 feet away. Clay threatens to kick Jesus' ass and that might set J on a mission to permanently expel him from the school since it was the 2nd time in the last two weeks that he's threatened him. I'm grilled by the principals about talking to Clay about J wanting to take over the sped department. I deny it but Clay understands all the sped dept. politics without hearing it from the staff. Well, it was nice chatting with you. I'm off to early lunch to check up on the love of my life, Buffy, and emptying my bowels in my hovel of refuge.
Now school is over for a couple of hours. The bus driver from the care center and I coaxed Darren into the van just for him. Darren was violent yesterday but Jesus was dealing with one of his rages for the first time. J had said that Darren doesn't behave that way with Him. He regardes himself as the miracle worker.
I found out at lunch that Clay will be expelled completely for the rest of the year. J had incited the rage of Clay so angry about us talking about him. I guess for so long, he was walking on very thin and eventually a bear will break the ice. Jesus' influence with his administrators made sure that he would be expelled. He had been his friend. How dare he break his trust in Jesus?
You understand that I say this all so tongue in cheek.
So now I'm in town 30 miles from my desert refuge almost wanting to get back to home. For some weird reason I feel at home but very lonely. There is only so much thrill in talking to Buffy and then not having access to chat with you! I have become often depressed and I try to release myself by writing or especially arguing with neocompoops on newsbusterds.com...M says that I do enjoy getting on folks nerves. She can imagine how I am with those closeminded idiots on www.newsbusters.org!

TGI Friday!
It's so nice to relax and walk to school. This afternoon when the students were acting out, I made a joke when Jonathan came back after walking out. I told him that security would come and pick him up....tomorrow...It is no big deal for these kids to be written up ... I am hoping that when some of the kids that are continually truant are expelled, they will learn that they cannot continually get away with skipping. The students that are serious about school will be left so that we as teachers can help them.
It's so good to know that I can talk to you. It seems like the fact that I can't have access to the school computers after hours when I'm free makes me want to talk to you even more! Two weeks till xmas break. Time flies by so quickly. I need to visit the attorney Monday and find out his fees! That court day about the pre trial is hanging over my head. That sorts of adds to the depression that often hangs over my head, but knowing I have Xmas break really helps! Now that I'm here at the library , another thing I can do is go newsbasterds to give those brainwashed neocons a hard time. They have banned my ip and the school doesn't allow acess either! I'll show a little of their conversation sometime.
It's great to say something to you again! Did you all have a great weekend and not let the holiday blues get you down?? I'm praying that I can really get into the old fashioned holiday spirit where folks are actually nice to strangers, friends and even enemies. I will do my best to get along with Jesus and his interfering ways. It was nice to have a productive chat with the Borg. Clay wouldn't be expelled if J didn't continually interfere with my student when he's not even on his case load.
Wednesday Holidays are coming up! There is still all this tension in the school. It would be so nice if I could chat with you in the evening when I have more time to write. It's only during the school day that they have this blog open! It's nice when Jesus and the Borg are fighting each other for control of the sped department! My b'day party is saturday. Things are looking up especially with the interest in chess. I really look forward to our club practice now that teachers are coming by often for chess also!

Sunday, November 19, 2006

New Moon over the Village!

Does he think things are for the worse?? He was stopped the other night ....Was a curse put on him again just as the gypsy had done to him about 5 years ago??
( "Gypsies are justly famed for their psychic powers and the ability to curse or bring good luck to those that cross their path.")Deja Vu or Groundhog evening all over again?? He made foolish decisions Friday night and was happy to see freedom again Saturday after the longest night since 5 years ago in Oklahoma. Then it was only a couple of months after 911 and now it's the post election let down. A husband of a wonderful lady committed suicide a week before. The funeral for him is tomorrow...Maybe he thinks it's a curse but he seems to still have a guardian angel watching over him?? He should have kept Mom's sweater in the trunk as he usually does for protection! You wonder if the area has a curse as so many used to say or do things happen in cycles?? Greatness comes out of adversity!
Brad bought an inexpensive 1750 psi pressure hose machine. I saw him using it on his driveway with his family watching. I was so excited to see the job continuing . Our wonderful chessboard will be made!

New Moonday!
Today we started the board with Brad's help and his corn pollen class! Students were gathering around as I sprayed the high pressure hose on all the old paint spilled while painting the mural on the wall adjacent to where the board will be. In between passing on the warmest late morning in weeks, the young natives filed by the beginning base of our creation and they started a momentary gathering while it was being done. Marty came up and wanted to work the hose! It was the best day in a long while just to see the start of this! Other teachers especially the band director walked by and I could tell how proud he was and the school will be when we we are in the middle of creating this wonderful project!

Who knows?? I might even volunteer to help wrestling too. It's almost as if a voice is telling me more than ever to do these things! Time is of the essence!

I am so excited especially after dealing with all the negativity and trauma the past couple weeks since leaving for Halloween! I see prosperity for our community with the support of the teachers that want to join in on this project!

It is a new moon and I read on a site about how it is best to start projects on the new moon! Clay and Marty were working today. I will go the funeral of my friend's husband this afternoon.

The funeral was very good. If a teacher were to come back and see the impact of the children that he taught, this would be the place. It was so sad that he was such a great teacher with wonderful almost mischievous sense of humor.

11:11 pm
So another day passes in your short life
and you are able to see the sun before it hides behind the hills of your local town...
You have been taught a costly lesson but you are ok other than the handcuffs left sores on the back of your wrists...
follow your first thoughts for safety and stay at a motel!..
.it's less than one 50th the cost of what you will have to pay out,
but you still are lucky than you haven't hurt yourself or anyone else because of a silly accident!!
Would you be able to live with yourself??
and you compare yourself to the poor bloke that was such a good friend to others??
Maybe he wanted to teach you a real lesson and just let the cops stop you being the great teacher that he was
instead of it being another silly accident
he made his life changing moment in a drunken stupor or he just passed out
with the motor running??
A waste of a life when there was still so much to give to his family and crying students...
His brain was cloudy and we will always wonder why!

I'm not sure where to head for the holidays?? East or West?? Gambling in Vegas to win money for my chess club or eat turkey at the Jesus house in OKC??

Saturday I'm still very down, depressed and bored. Life is passing by so quickly. Others are very busy with family. Utopachi is not as joyous as I expected it might be. I have been too afraid to venture out. I have bad experiences when I came back to Jesus taking over the sped department to losing my freedom for a night which shocked me back into depressing reality of things could be much worse. It was nice to have thanksgiving with Marla and Rob. They have been so supportive of me knowing how mean the Navaho ladies can be. I am happy that I have my own room and can have the freedom to do things that I want!
Ok. I know that I need to get out of here before the day escapes me as it has for so many days. When was I the happiest?? That was when I was visiting new folks and making new acquaintances before they get to know me and get tired of my companionship.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006


The beginning of the end for the neocons! Rummy resigns and we will control the house and shortly after we count the last votes we will control the senate. Bush and his white house Mafiosa will be held accountable for their crimes including war crimes!

What a day yesterday was! The police came in to do a check of red verses blue gangs and do an assesment of our campus! Jesus has taken over the sped department with his pseudo hippy bs ...saying to everybody that he didn't want to do it but the principal asked him to do it since the Borg is out on mental leave for a few weeks. We had a meeting about the conflicts in the life skills class with those matriarchal ladies who love to sit on their gluteus maximusses. The first meeting went well but then they all continued conspiring for the next hour while I taught finally in my old room without pass interference from these meddling ladies! Wfhen I come back from teaching they are all sitting there in the life skills class (there were no life skills students so they could have meetings about me the whole afternoon!). Betty Lou motions for me to sit down so the ladies and Jesus can take turns setting me up for a cruxification. Julio was the only one defending me and that upset Jesus thinking that he was one of his disciples too since he has all the ladies including the secretary feeding off of his charm. I'm thinking Karl Rove would be proud of him doing such an effective job of the coup of the special ed department while I'm gone for a few days and the Borg is out!
"We all have to be held accountable including myself! I know how to handle these kids far better than G. Darren does not get violent in my class.(that was as good a lie as "Mission Accomplished" was for Bush!tdf!)
Well, the principal is back today so I wonder what he'll say to me since I became a little loud defending myself under the Rovian attack. Karl couldn't have done a more excellent coup! (Jesus had two years experience becoming the peace corp mayor of a small village in Mongolia) The ladies were all ready to vote for him as the reichminister of the sped department.
Samstag: J left me alone yesterday and it was so nice having my own room without pass interference from the nosy assistance. Marge has been the matriarch of the life skills room for the past decade and Betty Lou has been there almost 20. In that situation the roosting hens will almost always stay and also because we are just regarded as "transient"." They'll s stick around the Bellagonna will leave"
I shouldnt have left for Halloween and listened to my paranoia about how bad it could actually be and it was worse. That is when we call paranoia- a heightened sense of true reality....if you expect the worst out of some enemies, when you see them act worse than you expected it doesn't shock you as much!
Now we have a 3 day weekend and unfortunately it's so close to our Thanksgiving break of 5 days, but we all needed it so badly especially when Jesus is leading the cruxifiction!;) It's best to joke about a bad situation and then the worst. We have a two hour delay meeting and this will be my chance to write a metaphor of pieces working together in chess will be able to win. They will lose when all the power on the board is not used for a common purpose!
I'm off to see Raphael and Erowyns' soulmate haven in that oasis of the desert. We will go mountain biking and all I need to find are the knee pads?? oh well I need to be really careful and at least I have shoes (?)

well the trip went great and I treated them and their friends to brekky...50$ ...It was worth it! I had such a wonderful time biking with Raphael!!
I guess one realizes the older he gets how little time there is to really do the things he wants to do. He walks into Jesus's Life Skills Class. It has become his kingdom! I am amazed how quickly and charasmatically he has taken over the classroom. He is Machiavelli in the demeanor of Jesus. He sees me talking to the band director and wonders if there is a conspiracy. He is attempting to control the land! I have never seen it happen so effectively with my own eyes!
Should I be resigned to it or fight him or learn to let him learn to work with people without feeling that he has to overshadow them. He must know the Borg won't be coming back from her mental leave. He filled the vacuum with consumate skill.
It is really amazing to see someone with so much "missionary" zeal in person!

I could worry myself into an ulcer as he continues with his coup of the school and "my inclusion teachers". He calls them those on his own PDSA's. He has become an effective convert to the Baldridge system. There is no way I could compete with this megalomaniac so I get excited about chess. I borrow a chair for my small overflowing room of young native american chess players from the Life Skill's classroom. Jesus stares at me.
I revel in having a larger crowd of after school kids than ever in my bi weekly chess practice. It is so wonderful to see this kids so excited about a fun game. We got about 8 new recruits and their gfs to come out. We had tea and lots of good games! I am looking forward to asking volunteers to start cleaning the cement outside if it gets a little warmer tomorrow! It was almost tornado weather today and it showed in the behavior of the emotionally disturbed students and Jesus! ;) just kidding, relax any neomentalists that might take offense to naming this character"Jesus"!

I realize it is good to make allies of moral support among the teachers. It is almost as if it is young verses old. I'm dealing with a young Jesus but didn't Christ die in his early 30's? Would His ego be any worse than our new "emergency sped director"!

Your outlook is sure a lot better when the sun is shining in the morning. As always I'm running late, so I drive the short distance instead of absorbing the autumn sun and having a beautiful walk praying that we will have a beautiful day. I was depressed last night thinking about the poor woman who's husband asphyxiated himself last Friday in the garage. She was so helpful to me last year facilitating the Iep meetings so effectively avoiding and preventing the often contentious meetings with young sped directors and shrinks looking for ways to embarass other professionals in order to attempt to make themselves look better.

I helped Clay through his 10 algebra problems while he constantly complained about the way he was taught and that I confused him. I did my best to simplify the work as I have all this year even using computer manipulatives but he still does not completely undertand. Please, Lord, Universal Reiki Energy, help my student learn Algebra. Is that a good prayer?

On positive note, the principal came by our thriving chess club at the end our practice about 520 and saw the interest. I bragged to him about almost having 20 students show up Tuesday. He wants us to sponsor tournaments and sell pizza by the slice 2$ each to make money for our financially strapped club! Even Harold showed up for the first time and dominated after being dormant in chess activities for a couple of months!