Sunday, August 29, 2004

Life is emptiness and then you find your keys!

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Missing his keys for the last 3 hours while also sorts of "evil" paranoid thoughts as to what could have happened to them transpire!
Garvald looks all around his house and then he thinks they have to be in his bedroom. He lifts his king sized mattress taking up 85% of the "mother in law's" bedroom floor (it used to be Alene's mothers room for more than a decade) so he can find his key. No luck. He resorts to a lick of the few grains left in of one of his adderalls left all over his territory in case he forgets where he left his medication. Garvald has all sorts of ways to cope with his disability. He feels his mind kick in and EUREKA! He thinks to actually look in his shorts that he already crossed off his mind to look in. He thinks,
"If the keys are not in my shorts, then I am as usual shit out of luck! "
The way Murphy's laws have a pic of Garvald in the "Encyclopedia of Follies!" (There is not such a book I don't think?)In his bathroom library while in search of his keys he just randomly opens up to the book of Buddhism to a chapter on "emptiness". It makes him realize that anything above emptiness is great like his principal at Wewoka told him about the philosophy of being "a dead man walking!" He has to keep reminding himself of how lucky he is to be existing on this earth...all the elements combining to make him a living breathing creature. Happy to find his keys, the chance for freedom and to still explore this "spaceship earth" and all of are us a combination of parts of the earth and the universe.

excerpt :
Emptiness ('Sunyata')
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 • Mahayana Scriptures
 • Anatta
 • The Four Noble Truths
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 • Sunyata
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Early Buddhism, with its teaching on not-self or anatta, taught that there is no such thing as an enduring self or soul. In reality, the self is made up of five impermanent constituents (khandhas) - the body, feelings, perception, mental formations (including volition) and consciousness. As Buddhism developed, the anatta doctrine was subsumed into something more extensive in which all phenomena were seen to be 'empty' of self or essence. This concept, known as sunyata or 'emptiness', is a key feature of Mahayana Buddhism. Such a term may appear, on the face of it, to have negative connotations, as though something is lacking. The opposite is in fact true. In Buddhism, the realization of emptiness equates to the experience of nibbana (nirvana) and therefore the cessation of suffering or dukkha.Crucial to the sunyata doctrine is the notion that the world is made up of a stream of ever changing elements, dharmas. Rather than seeing these dharmas, we create concepts which approximate what is really there. The world as we see it, therefore, is ultimately illusory - a fabrication of mind. Mahayana philosophy sees truth as of being two kinds, conventional and ultimate. Conventional truth is the world as we normally see it; ultimate truth is the world as it really is. The two don't exactly adhere - the world of conventional truth is a world of appearances; the world of ultimate truth is sunyata.

Meditation on Emptiness

Through particular types of meditation, it is possible to disperse this illusion. In the New Kadampa Tradition, this process is referred to as 'Superior Seeing', a particular meditation technique that consists of two contemplations. In the first, for example, you focus on the emptiness of the self or 'I'. In this 'We should imagine that our body gradually dissolves into thin air, and then our minds dissolve, our thoughts scatter with the wind, our feelings, wishes, and awareness melt into nothingness' (from The Meditation Handbook by Geshe Kelsang Gyatso).

Of course, this can all be understood at a conceptual level
but the real benefit of emptiness is in its realization! So finding my keys and being happy finding some sort of permanence or stability in the ever changing stream of elements. Yet learning to go with the flow, not fighting the flow so much but taking the wave and being in that curl so that the spark of life continues for as long as the wave will take you!
I'm watching water polo and doing my best to go with the flow on the situation of my home. I do enjoy the fact that I do still have a home and I'm not homeless (currently jobless but of my own volition) while I clean out my home and make it a little more empty from all the clutter that symbolizes all the shit that has been stored in my mind. When I learn to cope with all this clutter and focus on what is important to save will only help me with the potential I have. Most often in my life I have had very little focus and I know especially from teaching kids with processing and organizing problems how it disables you. Discipline and a plan is so essential to overcome ADD! My mother would always tell me proudly of her younger brother, Uncle Ron, who was only average in school, made it a point of always writing down what he had to do the next day. He continued as manager of his father's meat packing factories in Brisbane and Towoomba, Queensland and had a successful business, life and family (with 3 beautiful daughters and wonderful grandchildren!)
My life has often been a culmination of failing to plan but I know that I'm regrouping here in my home of 23 years before I decide on the plan for the rest of my life. I hope that the book will show how I will finally get my engine fixed and ready to fly to the stars while learning to live in the now and enjoying the process of this journey!
I hope that others that read this website will also get a little insight or just enjoy the little tidbits of thoughts that I might throw out to the winds of the universe!

Friday, August 27, 2004

Silk flows by my moon,,,,mmmm

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its august and i am very cannabized right now to show you that i can still spell....
its almost a full moon and the clouds are skimmming over the moon likes shes teasing me with her silk white nighties...
shes looking at me ...
her eyes going deep into my soul and im enjoying her gaze as I envelope her lovely warm rays before the storm of the plains comes beckoning me to her....

before I drive to ....
Mikes!! (the den of ineqity and delciously wicked souls :))
(to be continued)

In a state of Limbaugh or limbo?

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Main Entry: [1]lim·bo
Pronunciation: 'lim-(")bO
Function: noun
Inflected Form(s): plural limbos
Etymology: Middle English, from Medieval Latin, ablative of limbus limbo, from Latin, border
Date: 14th century
1 : often capitalized : an abode of souls that are according to Roman Catholic theology barred from heaven because of not having received Christian baptism
2 a : a place or state of restraint or confinement b : a place or state of neglect or oblivion c : an intermediate or transitional place or state d : a state of uncertainty

Today (yesterday since its almost 2am!) has been a state of vegetation, depression, inactivity and the Olympics. I wake up to find my ex/tenant did not tell me that he had cut off the water and was nice enough to leave me a 215$ OG&E bill and not pay the last months rent before he stormed out angry at me when I told him that I would be officially moving into my house in 30 days ... I had been alternating weeks between Kansas City and OKC.. So I guess he rationalized that since I was moving back into his "home" he should leave me with all the bills and not pay the rent that was almost 2 weeks past due. How many in the audience would like to keep their house at 70 and then have the landlord pay it for the summer??

People always say I have it coming and I think they are often right and that's why shit always happens to me but I wonder if this story of hard luck happens to others with this type of ADD disability where I lack the ability to organize. This problem with rent and tenant problems if I was better organized and have everything spelled out. For example requiring a deposit and paying rent on time if he wished to stay at my place.
Why do I bring these problems out into the weird world of cyberspace? Maybe to let others know that they are not alone in these types of trials and tribulations. Let me show you all this excerpt to help understand dealing with space cadets as myself. (sometimes a self effacing sense of humor helps one deal with such pathos).
This is from the Chadd website that I have a link to:

Recognizing Adult ADDFidgeting, interrupting conversations, losing things, forgetting the reason for a trip to the grocery store - everyone acts this way once in a while. But a long and persistent history of restless, impulsive, or inattentive behavior may be a sign of Adult ADD. This is especially true if these behaviors have existed since childhood and result in problems at work, home, and/or in social settings.

excuse me, let me interrupt with this (interupting is a common trait but I am interupted before I can think to explain what I mean because it takes me more time to say it!):
{I consistently was nagged by Mom growing up with her Australian accent.
"John, its always the same story with all your teachers, professors and coaches. You never listen!"
"What did you say, Mom.?"
Yet I often seem to hang around with people who have very little patience with my disability to process and me having to write something down in order to make sense of it! Girlfriends and controlling neighbors can get very upset when they are used to people paying better attention to what they are saying! Mom passed away before knowing about ADD and was always wondering what my problem was. People would just think of me as the weird guy at the bar! After several years of teaching kids with similar processing difficulties and research, I realized that I had all of the symptoms especially after reading a book in my bathroom library, "Driven to Distraction" Books: Driven To Distraction - Driven To Distraction : Recognizing and Coping with Attention Deficit Disorder from Childhood Through Adulthood, Edward M. Hallowell, John J. Ratey. ...

If you think you might have Adult ADD, here are several questions you might want to ask yourself. These are some of the questions that can help doctors and healthcare professionals screen for Adult ADD.Ask yourself these questions and think about how long you have experienced these symptoms and how often they occur. If these symptoms are interfering with your success at home, at work, or with friends, you may want to talk to your doctor or healthcare professional about a clinical evaluation.Do you have difficulty concentrating or focusing your attention on one thing?
Do you often start multiple projects at the same time, but rarely finish them?
Do you have trouble with organization?
Do you procrastinate on projects that take a lot of attention to detail?
Do you have problems remembering appointments or obligations?
Do you have trouble staying seated during meetings or other activities?
Are you restless or fidgety?
Do you often lose or misplace things?
Questions to Ask Your Healthcare Professional
Only your healthcare professional can make a definite diagnosis. If you think you might have Adult ADD, you'll want to speak with your doctor or healthcare professional. Here are some questions you might want to ask your healthcare professional at the first meeting.
How are the symptoms in adults different from the symptoms in children?
How common is Adult ADD?
How can Adult ADD affect me at work and at home?
What kinds of medications are available to treat Adult ADD?
What are the key differences among the different medications to treat Adult ADD?
What are the side effects of these medications, and how common are the side effects?
If I begin treatment, how quickly can I expect to see improvements in my symptoms?

Hope that this was informative for you understanding what you have or that about 10 percent of the population have similar symptoms or "problems"! Please be more sympathetic or empathetic if you have experienced being "lost in space!"

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

Its amazing what Hitler could get away with...Power corrupts absolutely!


WASHINGTON, D.C. -- Green leaders and candidates
are calling national attention to apparent
efforts to intimidate African American voters in

Citing reports in a series of columns by Bob
Herbert of The New York Times that Florida state
troopers are interrogating elderly black voters
on vague charges of 'voter fraud', Greens warn of
a repeat of 2000's manipulation and obstruction
of votes. The Florida Department of Law
Enforcement reports to Gov. Jeb Bush.

"The latest attempt to suppress black votes in
Florida recalls not only 2000, but the history of
obstruction and terrorism of African American
voters in southern states," said Michele
Tingling-Clemmons, co-chair of the Green Party's
national Black Caucus and candidate for city
council (Ward 7) in Washington, D.C. "Bush
supporters are preparing a battery of means to
ensure their candidate's reelection, including
misusing homeland security forces to frighten
elderly black voters away from absentee voting.
Other methods include the use of computerized
voting, which can be easily tampered with, as
well as hints that the Bush Administration may
postpone the November election if it decides the
U.S. is under threat of attack, a dastardly
attempt to intimidate Americans away from voting
their conscience."

Greens have called for verifiable paper trails,
auditability, and open software in computer
voting machines to prevent manipulation.

The Green Party has called attention to other
ways in which elections have been engineered:
restrictive and difficult state ballot access
laws enacted by Democrats and Republicans to
block third party and independent candidates;
underhanded efforts by Democrats to banish Greens
and independents (including Ralph Nader) from the
ballot; ownership by the Democratic and
Republican parties of the Commission on
Presidential Debates (labeled partisan in an
August 12 Federal Court decision).

Greens have also called the winner-take-all
apportionment of Electoral College votes in most
states a deliberate distortion of the will of
voters as expressed through the popular vote.

The Green Party's national Black Caucus and the
D.C. Statehood Green Party have called for
allocation of state electors' votes in proportion
to the popular vote. Many Greens have hailed a
state ballot initiative ('Amendment 36') to enact
this reform in Colorado.

"Americans need to be more vigilant in 2004 than
ever before to ensure that our elections are fair
and our votes are counted accurately," said
LaVerne Butler, treasurer of the Black Caucus.
"Unless we demand immediate accountability and
reforms, we'll see our democratic election system
replaced with something that resembles the
elections of Augusto Pinochet, Ferdinand Marcos,
or Saddam Hussein."

Why don't the Bubbas censor this national article??

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Lawyer Quits Bush Campaign
Ginsberg Advised Anti-Kerry Group

WASHINGTON (Aug. 25) -- An election lawyer for President Bush who also has been advising a veterans group running TV ads against Democrat John Kerry resigned Wednesday from Bush's campaign.

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''I cannot begin to express my sadness that my legal representations have become a distraction from the critical issues at hand in this election,'' Benjamin Ginsberg wrote in a resignation letter to Bush released by the campaign.

''I feel I cannot let that continue, so I have decided to resign as national counsel to your campaign to ensure that the giving of legal advice to decorated military veterans, which was entirely within the boundaries of the law, doesn't distract from the real issues upon which you and the country should be focusing.''

Ginsberg's acknowledgment Tuesday evening that he was providing legal advice to the Swift Boat Veterans for Truth marked the second time in days that a person associated with the Bush-Cheney campaign had been connected to the group, which Kerry accuses of being a front for the Republican incumbent's re-election effort.

The Bush campaign and the veterans' group have said repeatedly that there is no coordination.

Lawyers on the Democratic side are also representing both the campaign or party and outside groups running ads in the presidential race. Ginsberg's dual role has drawn attention because of an ad the Swift Boat Veterans group ran accusing Kerry of exaggerating his Vietnam War record, an issue that has dominated the campaign since early August.

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Kerry has fired back by accusing Bush of using the group to run a smear campaign for him. Democrats have jumped on any tie, even if legal, to back up that claim.

''The sudden resignation of Bush's top lawyer doesn't end the extensive web of connections between George Bush and the group trying to smear John Kerry's military record,'' Kerry-Edwards campaign manager Mary Beth Cahill said Wednesday. ''In fact, it only confirms the extent of those connections.''

In Ginsberg's letter to Bush, he accused the media of a ''stunning double standard'' between its focus on the activities of groups supporting Kerry and those that oppose him.

Kerry is the subject of complaints by the Bush campaign and the Republican National Committee accusing his campaign of illegally coordinating anti-Bush ads with soft-money groups on the Democratic side, allegations Kerry and the groups deny.

Neither campaign has produced proof of coordination on the part of its rival.

Joe Sandler, a lawyer for the DNC and a group running anti-Bush ads,, said there is nothing wrong with serving in both roles at once.

In addition to the FEC's coordination rules, attorneys are ethically bound to maintain attorney-client confidentiality, Sandler said. They could lose their law licenses if they violate that, he said.

Ginsberg said Tuesday he never told the Bush campaign what he discussed with the veterans group, or vice versa, and didn't advise the group on ad strategies.

The group ''came to me and said, 'We have a point of view we want to get into the First Amendment debate right now. There's a new law. It's very complicated. We want to comply with the law, will you keep us in the bounds of the law?''' Ginsberg said in an interview with The Associated Press. ''I said yes, absolutely, as I would do for anyone.''

Ginsberg said he had not yet decided whether to charge the Swift Boat Veterans a fee for his work.

On Saturday, retired Air Force Col. Ken Cordier resigned as a member of the Bush campaign's veterans' steering committee after it was learned that he appeared in the commercial.

Ginsberg represented the Bush campaign in 2000 and became a prominent figure during the Florida recount.

He also served as counsel to the RNC in its unsuccessful lawsuit seeking to overturn the new federal campaign finance law, which banned the national party committees from collecting corporate and union contributions and unlimited donations known as soft money and imposed stricter rules on coordination involving parties, candidates and interest groups.

Larry Noble, head of the nonpartisan Center for Responsive Politics campaign watchdog group and former FEC general counsel, said it's true that serving as a lawyer for both a campaign and a soft-money group isn't considered automatic evidence of coordination under commission rules, but he added that it doesn't mean the FEC won't look at it.

''I think there's a valid question about when you're talking about strictly legal advice and when you're talking about policy issues and strategic issues,'' Noble said. ''It's fair to ask what the advice is about.''

08/25/04 12:11 EDT

Words from a veteran

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This was from the message board on aol...Where are your sources or do they just fall off the top of your head, Harry?
And why not answer some of these veteran's questions or are you too dogheaded to even go there for fear of knowing you voted for such a crook?

Message 1 of 1333 Subject 2 of 50
Subject: Serious Thoughts here only.
Date: 8/5/2004 6:33 PM Central Daylight Time
From: Inspmark
MsgId: <>

apparently somehow, the message was deleted ...I guess i have to change the password

Monday, August 23, 2004

Do any of you Brainwashed Rush fans know Pat Buchanan??

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From Pat Buchanan: how neocons are leading conservatives -- and America -- to disaster
And what we must do now to save our country and our cause
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Pat Buchanan's new Where the Right Went Wrong: How Neoconservatives Subverted the Reagan Revolution and Hijacked the Bush Presidency explores the pressing truth that few others dare to admit: conservatives have lost their way. The pundit and sometime presidential candidate explains how a Republican-controlled capital city whose leaders daily profess their conservatism could preside over the largest fiscal and trade deficits in our history -- and have us mired in a Wilsonian imperial war to force democracy upon an Arab Middle East that has never known it. This book is about a cabal that betrayed conservatism because, from the very beginning, they never believed in it. As Buchanan shows here, they had another agenda all along.

Buchanan courageously argues here that the invasion of Iraq and the neocon-inspired mission to impose democracy upon it could be a textbook example of the imperial overstretch that brought down so many empires of the past -- and could bring America down in the near future. He points out that all the blunders committed by Britain's ruling class during the swift fall of the British empire have been replicated by our neocon elites: from the arrogance of power, to the alienation of allies, to the waging of wars in regions where no vital U.S. interests are at risk.

Meanwhile, Buchanan discusses other signs of grave danger: soaring budget deficits, the steady loss of manufacturing jobs, the unstopped flood of illegal immigration, the rapid deterioration of American education, and more. He examines the implications of the rapidly changing religious, ethnic and racial composition of the country in this age when race, religion, and ethnicity are tearing countries apart.

What is the Republican Party doing about all this? Buchanan dares to state the truth: the traditional conservative party is abandoning its core principles in search of votes, signing off on imperialistic misadventures and economic treason, and helping to impose a social, moral, and cultural revolution upon our country.

Buchanan doesn't just summarize the deep trouble that America is in. He recalls Barry Goldwater's dictum that "the ancient and tested truths that guided our republic through its early days will do equally well for us." In a sweeping, insightful prescription for our ills, he sets out the hard choices we must make in order to restore those ancient and tested truths, and bring back sound government in our foreign and domestic policies. He even details how we must fight back and win the culture wars that have sapped so much of our nation's resolve.

Pat Buchanan tells the truths that few others have the courage to state
How the GOP has become not the party of Reagan, but of Woodrow Wilson, FDR, and LBJ

Influential pseudo-conservatives who argued at the end of the Cold War for nothing less than the surrender of American sovereignty -- and aggressive wars to "wage democracy" all over the world

Wolfowitz, Perle, and other key neocons: how they captured the President

The revolutionary "neo-Jacobin" streak in neoconservatism that cannot be reconciled with any concept of true conservatism

The Muslim world: five sobering real reasons why they hate us

The ambiguous American position on Taiwan: how it has created the real possibility of war between the U.S. and China -- and seven elements of a new, realistic American policy toward China

Why America's political independence, as Alexander Hamilton insisted, cannot survive without economic independence -- which we are wantonly squandering

How George W. Bush has bloated the deficit with social programs that out-liberal the most committed liberals

Judicial supremacy: how today's activist judiciary came into being - and how it must be stopped

How the Bush threat of war upon nations that had not attacked us is utterly unprecedented in American history -- and puts us all at risk

Why the worldwide War on Terror as George W. Bush has framed it will continue not only through his presidency, but for the rest of our lives

How Bush has unnecessarily thrown down the gauntlet to every rival and would-be world power, and issued a challenge to lesser powers to unite against us

The Islamic world: how President Bush has placed us on a course for endless wars with Muslims who are repelled by the social, cultural, and moral decadence they see in America and the West

How the Bush Doctrine contradicts history and common sense, and will bleed, bankrupt and isolate this republic

Where the Right Went Wrong is a much-needed handbook for policymakers and every concerned American to recover conservative politics of principle. It shows how we must restore not only the Right, but our deeply troubled nation.


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Wow, Is that your writing, Bubba? Or is it another redneck with occasionally good grammar? But, you still have the common characteristic of going from a universal topic concerning how Bush is pulling the wool over Bubbas' eyes but not the rest of the world to making a personal attack, just the way you hippo critters (check that in ur spell check) love to get personal when your losing an argument. The way you did with Clinton's fellatio (do u know the meaning of this word?) when Bubba Starr had no where to go except complain about oral sex because he never experienced it himself!
Oral sex didn't cost us your children!
My dear Bubbanon, when you show me ur resume like George's then Ill tell you. (Wouldn't it be wonderful if I was just making you up, Bubba the way u sound like a broken record and say I'm making up the few other commentators that this site has).
The way you all criticize and try to take away that Kerry risked his life for rednecks and all Americans but he knew he went somewhere that had no possibility of threatening us just like Iraq was and is no threat (until we started killing innocents)
and letting our own children go there. Of course no senator's son that approved the war is going there.
Bubba, If the country were to be attacked like it was in Pearl Harbor is a whole 'nother story! You have a nice evening and do some yoga and herbal therapy to help chill you out, bra or it sounds like the anger in ur remarks ur about to have a stroke!
your friend,


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This individual seeks an executive position. He will be available next January, and is willing to relocate. Should the executive position be unavailable, he can move home and apply for new openings from there.

1600 Pennsylvania Avenue
Washington, DC 20520


Law Enforcement:
I was arrested in Kennebunkport, Maine, in 1976 for driving under the influence of alcohol. I pled guilty, paid a fine, and had my
driver's license suspended for 30 days. My Texas driving record has been "lost" and is not available.

I joined the Texas Air National Guard and went AWOL. I refused to take a drug test or answer any questions about my drug use. By
joining the Texas Air National Guard, I was able to avoid combat duty in Vietnam.

I graduated from Yale University with a low C average. I was a cheerleader.

I ran for U.S. Congress and lost. I began my career in the oil business in Midland, Texas, in 1975. I bought an oil company, but
couldn't find any oil in Texas. The company went bankrupt shortly after I sold all my stock. I bought the Texas Rangers baseball team
in a sweetheart deal that took land using taxpayer money. With the help of my father and our friends in the oil industry (including
Enron CEO Ken Lay), I was elected governor of Texas.


- I changed Texas pollution laws to favor power and oil companies, making Texas the most polluted state in the Union. During
my tenure, Houston replaced Los Angeles as the most smog-ridden city in America.

- I cut taxes and bankrupted the Texas treasury to the tune of billions in borrowed money.

- I set the record for the most executions by any governor in American history.

- With the help of my brother, the governor of Florida, and my father's appointments to the Supreme Court, I became President after
losing by over 500,000 votes.


- I am the first President in U.S. history to enter office with a criminal (let alone felony!) record.

- I invaded and occupied two countries at a continuing cost of over one billion dollars per week.

- I spent the U.S. surplus and effectively bankrupted the U.S. Treasury.

- I shattered the record for the largest annual deficit in U.S. history.

- I set an economic record for most private bankruptcies filed in any 12-month period.

- I set the all-time record for most foreclosures in a 12-month period.

- I set the all-time record for the biggest drop in the history of the U.S. stock market. In my first year in office, over 2 million
Americans lost their jobs and that trend continues every month.

- I'm proud that the members of my cabinet are the richest of any administration in U.S. history. My "poorest millionaire," Condoleeza
Rice, has a Chevron oil tanker named after her.

- I set the record for most campaign fund-raising trips by a U.S. President.

- I am the all-time U.S. and world record-holder for receiving the most corporate campaign donations.

- My largest lifetime campaign contributor, and one of my best friends, Kenneth Lay, presided over the largest corporate bankruptcy
fraud in U.S. History, Enron.

- My political party used Enron private jets and corporate attorneys to assure my success with the U.S. Supreme Court during my
election decision.

- I have protected my friends at Enron and Halliburton against investigation or prosecution. More time and money was spent
investigating the Monica Lewinsky affair than has been spent investigating one of the biggest corporate rip-offs in history. I
presided over the biggest energy crisis in U.S. history and refused to intervene when corruption involving the oil industry was

- I presided over the highest gasoline prices in U.S. history.

- I changed the U.S. policy to allow convicted criminals to be awarded government contracts.

- I appointed more convicted criminals to administration than any President in U.S. history.

- I created the Ministry of Homeland Security, the largest bureaucracy in the history of the United States government.

- I've broken more international treaties than any President in U.S. history.

- I am the first President in U.S. history to have the United Nations remove the U.S. from the Human Rights Commission.

- I withdrew the U.S. from the World Court of Law.

- I refused to allow inspector's access to U.S. "prisoners of war" detainees and thereby have refused to abide by the Geneva
Convention (thereby also endangering captured U.S. soldiers in future).

- I am the first President in history to refuse United Nations election inspectors (during the 2002 U.S. election).

- I set the record for fewest numbers of press conferences of any President since the advent of television.

- I set the all-time record for most days on vacation in any one-year period. After taking off the entire month of August, I
presided over the worst security failure in U.S. history.

- I garnered the most sympathy ever for the U.S. after the World Trade Center attacks and less than a year later made the U.S. the
most hated country in the world, the largest failure of diplomacy in world history.

- I have set the all-time record for most people worldwide to simultaneously protest me in public venues (15 million people),
shattering the record for protests against any person in the history of mankind.

- I am the first President in U.S. history to order an unprovoked, preemptive attack and the military occupation of a
sovereign nation. I did so against the will of the United Nations, the majority of U.S. citizens, and the world community.

- I have cut health care benefits for war veterans and support a cut in duty benefits for active duty troops and their families in

- In my State of the Union Address, I lied about our reasons for attacking Iraq and then blamed the lies on our British friends.

- I am the first President in history to have a majority of Europeans (71%) view my presidency as the biggest threat to world
peace and security.

- I am supporting development of a nuclear "Tactical Bunker Buster," a WMD.

- I have so far failed to fulfill my pledge to bring Osama Bin Laden to justice.


-All records of my tenure as governor of Texas are now in my father's library, sealed and unavailable for public view.

- All records of SEC investigations into my insider trading and my bankrupt companies are sealed in secrecy and unavailable for
public view.

- All records or minutes from meetings that I, or my Vice-president, attended regarding public energy policy are sealed
in secrecy and unavailable for public review.


Sunday, August 22, 2004

Altered States

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Another gorgeous morning. Saw Tommy and Valli at Ripper Park playing tennis. Its amazing how we were all playing doubles together there more than 20 years ago! I'm missing the Olympics but its such a gorgeous day. And yes, I do make spelling errors when I have a buzz,
Anon (short for anonymous). Should I capitalize at the start of a sentence?

Monday, August 23rd (schools in Kc, Missouri will start in a week):

OH and dear Anon, I'm sorry that you might harbor so much anger to go from a spell check cut to a "smart ass" cut. You as many of us have many issues that we are afraid to look inwardly at. I have dealt with the death of my wife passing over in this house/home in this land that I'm not happy in except when its a gorgeous day or I'm in love. I am discovering possibly through the great catharsis of writing what gives me the greatest happiness and fulfillment in case there might be a better place to go. I love this search and the writing that is involved with organizing this search with in my own soul. Our minds can be like the homes we live in with all the shit that's collected over 23 years! Its only up to us to organize and clean this mess within the closets and attics of our mind. This website is the very rough draft of this process that is going on within my home, my soul, my community, the place where I habituate. This website will eventually evolve into a book with the names changed to protect the guilty and so Bubbas will have less likelihood of coming after me. (I will thow in Bubba humor occasionally).
At the moment, teaching with power hungry administrators, and not the right location is not best for my health and for doing the best job of helping the children that will have my help when I am ready and fully rested.
When you are angry at someone its very often because you might despise that person deep inside yourself. We often don't accept the anger, greed, selfishness, and all these morally sinful traits in others when we haven't look deep inside ourselves to accept that we might have some or all of these characteristics. Teaching emotionally disturbed children takes a great toll on someone if they don't have a lot of patience and sometimes strain. I am not paid to help or do I have patience as much with emotionally disturbed adults especially when they don't accept that they have issues to cause such deep rooted anger.
I often use humor even learning to laugh at myself and my frequent mistakes. My own own heart has to forgive myself first before I can forgive others.

Ok! There's so much more I want to say to you, Anon, but I've gotta watch the ' lecture to you shall continue later!) Try adding those words to ur spell check Mate! Golly, I love chess!!

Saturday, August 21, 2004


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Met patch the boxer ...hes a cool boxer! He fought Oscar De Lahoya!'''
we was chilling and conversatin!!

Oh, what a beautiful morning!..and a blurb on sensory integration dysfunction!

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Oh, what a beautiful DAY!..

Its amazing how the weather and the sun makes me feel so different day to day...not a cloud in the sky and just feeling good, waking up from a release from all the tension!
The tenant/roomate was so angry last night about using a cup of his, for bleach and I dont remember that but maybe I did it without thinking looking for an old cup to use. Bleach does not ruin an old plastic cup. It only cleans out the shit and maggots that might be growing in it! Its amazing how some people get nuts over things like that and then think that bugs flying all over a blue light in your garage leaving dead bud droppings along with mice dropings all over your king sized bed thats been moved into the garage with the bugs and Willardo's colony, is petty!! (MUffy, was that a run on sentence?)
Speaking of Willardo, I havent heard from him lately so maybe that trip to Walmart helped last week! :)

Had a couple of bowls and Im feeling slightly euphoric about things even though nothing has been solved for me as to where Im going right now but sometimes I just wake up and have the feeling that things will be OK (sorry to use the phrase!)
I dont know how to edit my comments or take off others that might be a little nasty. At this point, this site is uncensored as to some of the unsavory opinions that I might have on things. Wondering who the audience might be in the universe of cyberspace??
Its different than writing in my diary or my millions of notebooks scattered all over Garvalddom (how does that little new word sound, Muffy?)
My only censor is Muffy, nagging me; I see her right behind my shoulders rolling her eyes at me writing this BS!
(She is the part of my superid conciousness along with Mom}

Do I regret going to KC even though, Im a year older with more worries, more physical and emotional strain of having another Groundhog year?

All these silly things we worry about when it wouldn't make a difference if we were to die tomorrow! Learning, from Bob T, my former principal and mentor at a rural school, to be a "dead man walking" has the best way of learning to live, work and enjoy life as if there might be no tomorrow and to savor every moment that our souls are physically on this earth. Its funny that his school district was in the news last night for spanking a child with that new buzz word, "sensory integration dysfunction", for kids that are having a hard time catching up with many things that kids can do academically and socially of kids their own age. I worked with one student with this "diagnosis" and he showed great progress as far as keeping his behavior in check. The mother of the boy in the news was complaining about his boy's butt being really red. I am old school as far as corporal punishment and the schools policy of effective discipline for students. Just knowing that you have a principal and especially a parent in regards to letting the student know that he/she will have consequences for inappropriate behavior that they know they can control, helps with an effective behavior management program for the student.
(to be continued but I need to do some things around the house/home)

After all the tension in my home and feeling it all around, I feel so much better, still a pain in the neck, but I feel more mobility!
IM so excited, Zach (hes my bone breaker!) For the next 2 weeks, the chiro college where I get adjustments will only be open m, w, friday so I will go there wed or friday depending on how the volatility of the situation in my home will stabilize. Maybe Muffy will be at the time of the month where she might long to see me :)
I hope that she had fun time last night going out with several people....Garvald! Dont have those thoughts of others havin fun without you!..You could be in IRaq helping the Haliburton and the Bush dynasty!!

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Walk out the door. That is the best way to deal with anger directed towards you. I think how can I avoid a confrontation with an emotionally disturbed and very angry student or adult. Fight or flight. Flying most times is much safer and just learning to pick your battles, whether it is with student, tenant or girlfriend!
For the sake of your emotional health and your ever compressing spinal column! :(

Friday, August 20, 2004

Back to the OKie Zone

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Its amazing how your mood changes when you wake up to a cloudy cold day with thoughts of the warm summer soon fading... I know its still better than the heat!
Muffy, says how I have this lazy type of writing with the ...
If I worry about my creative writing my thoughts will be stifled or censored so nothing will come out and then it will be constipation rather than than diarreah (2rs by the way, thanks Muffy!) of the mouth.
I told her that I can always edit it later but she says Ill lose readership when they grab the remote from you and change the channel especially if u have narcolepsy!
Muffy is going out on a date tonight and she became angry when I inquired about it. So I shouldnt feel guilty about a date either if i can find a bar before its too late to go!
I understand that Im not financially stable at the moment and not teaching. Its hard for her to understand me having this crazy idea about travelling around America and then gradually increasing my orbit around OKlahoma to the world! The whole process of rebirth and recuperation will take time. I need to make peace with myself and discover these dormant talents within me. I want her understand and be my companion through parts of this journey if she still wants to come with me. When I self actualize and understand my limitations and strenghts I will be so much better able devote myself to Muffy or whomever my companion will be.
(to be continued)

Monday, August 16, 2004

Some schools start this week

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Some moments, I feel speechless and others depending on the nuggets, Im "diareah" of the mouth". Muffy feels that I should edit these litte essays before I let everyone see them. I just feel that if there is editing before hand then nothing will be up there spontaneously for my readers to respond to!
Feel good that I at least have my resume out there for 5 states to look at and letting it happen like craps and a roll of the dice. I feel that if life is just a roll of craps then its best to lay the odds. Getting true odds without the house against you, you can win big. I would like to lay the odds on some publisher picking up this site and finding the essays that he or she likes and then advising me to go with it! Thats all it will take for Garvald to take that rocket.
The biggest disadvantage for taking this trek, is not a good major medical and paying sky high rates to keep my esophagus, prostate and focus in check! (prescritions)
Well Muffy will be home soon. Hope shes in a good mood. I think she will be cuz she doesnt have to work the next two days and her loving daughter is not here to spoil her mood!
By the way, after a great neck snap, by my chiro I went to 75th Brewery for good beer and this great 5 $ oven baked pizza!
Im hoping theyll give me a discount on those mugs for the free spots Im giving those blokes!

Sunday, August 15, 2004


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I sure hope all the olympics goes well with Zeus overlooking the games! Some fundamentalists mights call me a pagan for saying that but Im out of the zone sleepin in with Muffy on a gorgeous morn! Thinkin about checkin out one more year...if it werent for the numbness in my fingers from my back problems, I would feel great, but at least giving Muffy a massage helped her loosen up some or her muscle tightness and she feels better!. The muscle relaxants sure help for me and then Im gonna do some ground up ginger to put in my green but after I have cup of coffee mixed in with my favorite hot chocolate!

Saturday, August 14, 2004

Muffy's Den!

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Finally rested in our bed that I had bought from a neighbor in the Arrowhead APS...I was happy to let Muffy have it or borrow it depending on whether I stay In KC or travel...or "suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous Bubbas" (fears of being fifty still in the OKIE Zone and apologies to Will for the quote!)

It is nice to feel welcome until you outstay it. Yes, I do have a problem of learning when to make a graceful exit from a party to some other safe {?} place either to relax or recuperate...

Arrived late last night In Lees Summit missin the outdoor concert but happy to be with someone that welcomes you and you feel at home with!

They have a lot of concerts outdoors in downtown Lees Summit and then sidewalk fairs. Last Thursday, Muffy ran after the train as Kerry, Edward and their wives were waving from the moving caboose going through Lees Summit at midnight! I was hearing her message on my cell phone when Bubba came over trying to fight me last thursday at Bumpys! How ironic is it that I missed them (the caboose with our hopefully, future adminstration) to suffer smackdowns in Bumpys instead! Thats the story of my life :(

Lees Summit seems to
seems like a friendlier suburb than caucasian flighters and Sunday Christians in OKC.

While Muffy is being my favorite bartendress at weddings, Im gonna have a few brews with the friendly natives of this town so I dont have to drive!

Thursday, August 12, 2004

Transactional Analysis (Im ok, you're ok)

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overwhelmed with procrastination!

Ok...why don't u just do it?

You become afraid that you cant accomplish the task and so what is in the steps that you dont know how to do? OK, what steps are u afraid of?

Why cant u take the trip and go ahead and just sit back and even procrastinate about getting the sleep you need!

Garvald! You would have been so successful in so many endeavors and now you're old and have a bad back so u need major medical so u need a job and so u sit there stoned worrying about ur life passing u by!

You poor pathetic loser! Why would anyone want such a man that has a bad back, laziness and this insistent desire to just ramble on instead of doing something productive!

But at least this poor pathetic loser can out talk any Bubba in a bar but hes too much of a big wimp low on the pecking order so little jr. rednecks wanna pick fights with HIM!

You are a great swimmer and ur pigging out only once a day is helping define ur newly aquired abbers.

...mmm enjoy cute women staring at moi :)...start conversation looking deep in their eyes....they get the deep soul searching Garvaldian stare (muffy questioned me on this several days later!! at Habib's motel pool...mmmm..rt now i wanna do some stupping!! Their eyes look very deep into mine as if they want to look into
"the windows of my soul"
as i see the shape of her lips and teeth...BETTER NOT GO THERE!

now im in good mood...just wanna go to the pool instead of UCO

Im sure some ignorant Bubboner or angry gf will use these quotes against me when i run for office (just kidding, I would only run for office in the land of Shwagatopia!)

Willardo has been stealing from my stash!

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I went into my drawer to get something when my weed was all over my inside drawer...Willardo must have a great Buzz now...thats it !
Im getting a contract out on him ...and im gonna go to walmart and take this varmint thats takin over my study!

Cant we all just get along"?

Im headin back north ...only so much heat I can handle...this site has caused maybe a lttle too much controversy...ill be back for a few days and stay a hermit away from bullets and Bubbas

Im sorry if this site offended some Bubbas...buts its a free country and ones personal safety should not be at stake for free speech

sometimes, accomodating people only makes one look weak esp in middle school...maybe this site will help out some of my problems and discovering that there are easier ways to handle situations with less all around discomfort

Muffy, I cant wait to see you...sorry I procrastinated so much in getting there hopefully , well see the last of the concert together!
I need some comfort and no more angry people!

8/25 very rough draft cuz its late! its 2 weeks later and only hotter and a full moon is approaching so I need to avoid crazy angry people when its full! What day will that be??

I debated about whether to respond but I know that you (the neighbor who wrote the comment below)and her husband have a personal interest in the person that was renting my home. Originally he had told me he was moving out in the spring. Then he had obviously became attached to my home and I liked the way he was keeping it up and I could tolerate it up to a point late rent and no communication.
Finding out when I didn't receive rent for almost 2 months and that he had to buy a very expensive water heater that covered all of the months rent made me almost to the point of evicting him especially when coming back to find out I had to rehook the gas.
He would not return any phone calls for several weeks in the spring when I wanted to find out how long he was wanting to stay at my home.. The neighbor was an intermediary and he was the one who insisted that my tenant would be a reliable renter but then complaining I was starving him so he could pay the rent. I installed a phone in July so that we could communicate well. I had told him at the end of July that I would be living at my own house on and off since I did not have a place to stay since the end of June.
I gave notice that I would be moving in officially in a month even though I was still not sure of my plans to get a job in Kansas City. I have been going to Kcity each week for back treatment. I was saying that there would be a good chance that I would be traveling around the country in a month but there could be a good chance that I would be staying alot of time in my house. He then became very loud and screaming to the point that I was afraid that he would be violent. He then walked out with his firearms not wanting to listen or make some mutual agreement as far as rent and utilities. He did not pay this months rent or even the 2 weeks rent that he said that he had for me. Every month it was like pulling teeth to get any rent money.
He is also refusing to pay the electric bill when he continually said that he would pay it and had a health condition that required he keep the house very cold, so as I feared, I am stuck with another bill 215$ for electricity.
His neighbor has insisted that he come get his things but I feared for my safety and taking things that are not his especially his since I left my house furnished. I let him take liberties with my many of my things but they were to borrow while he was living in my house and not to take with him. The neighbor who was cussing at me this am came and got his laundry. I have insisted that a policeman be present when the other items are taken out of the house for the violent aggressive nature of this individual. He has threatened me with a lawyer. I almost willing to let 2 weeks of rent go if he were to pay the electricity bill but he will not talk to me. My neighbor insisted that he always pays his bills.
I am sorry to bore the audience in cyber world and I know Harry will have a field day with this one but I know that my neighbor who wrote the sweet comment above might read this and understand that I have bent over backwards to accommodate him with rent coming down 100$ and not unfortunately requiring a deposit for him to prevent him from walking out anytime and sticking me with the electricity bill beside the gas, and the phone.. The only utility he paid consistently was the water bill. He was mad because I would be staying at my house a lot more. he expects to just walk out of an agreement without rent and utilities almost like my house should be a charity for him.
It is very difficult being a landlord especially when you offer it at a cheap price. Things are torn up and doesn't make it worthwhile to tolerate all the aggravation and yelling. I guess I will learn or make sure that everything in writing and have a couple of months deposit to cover these types of things. I know I have made a lot of mistakes and Im sorry that I ever made a deal with neighbor that I thought that I could trust.
Well, I am tired now and pray that tomorrow will be a nice day without all the confrontation and anger. I am sorry that I rented out the house and you think about how all this hassle is not worth it. Make sure to always to things in writing, but I was happy to find a renter even though he didn't move in until November and told me that he would be moving out in the spring making it easy for me to move back into my home in the summer. They are acting like I am moving him out but he chose to move out on his own. After seeing his rages, I think it would be much safer.
I know Harry will get a great kick out of this and has more chance of reading this than my neighbor....I know, Muffy, that my life is like a comedy/tragedy that more shit happens to me or is like this with many other people.
I guess thats how the phrase "shit happens" but it happens more than all the turds left as fertilizer on my neighbors' lawn.
Have a nice evening and pray for me dealing with them tomorrow. :(
Thanks for reading this and I hope that it makes sense to you cuz it shore dont make sense to me other than rip off the man any chance you get!

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

"Packrack City, Packrat Love"

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Sometimes, Garvald goes on these starvation diets where he really pigs out once a day. He drinkson green tea, ginger root, slippery elm, muscle relaxants and a very steady flow of cannabis amidst the very think tension between Dave (as the protective chairman)John, and Art (one of his "brothers") narcolepsy is hitting him and its only 330....he says to himself
"fuck the resume" again as eh frequently does to tasks he fears (?)
almost a paralysis of the mind..
then the protective Dr. T comes thru with his very good bedside manner having had to teach Garvald how to be gentle and caress her before thinking of only satisfying your needs!"
The Dr and Garvald have often had very different perspectives on past lovers which were then enhanced the orgasmic experience with Marijuana! they are cajoling the soul to a place where he feels safe and in love in her arms....
"Garvald , ull have a really good sleep tonight cuz u is one exhasted motherfucker!."
WHERE DID THAT COME FROM? The good Dr sometimes helps Mr. Garvald thru these hard times with beautiful love makin to help him ease into dreamland with his soulmate that has been his companion in other lives!
But he wants to be with her in this life! and not other lives like she has talked about.
He feels safe in her arms when he goes there with his 5th bowl ...she understands, reads his mind as he reads hers over the many lifetimes from when the cell realized she could make another like her!

But then his paranoid selfs hears something and he Fears "WILLARDO"


La "ChupaKabra"

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Im trying to recollect all the events before and after this short intruder was caught in the act of pilfering through my belongings....
He had been doing this almost like he was stalking my home without me suspecting...I feared (I couldnt accept it) that he had been hiding upstairs in my closet of old cellulose between the rafters..

All these thoughts going thru my mind: fear, paranoia, anger, desperation at the numbers of them just continuing to invade his home and his neighborhood.
Sometimes he was afraid to walk outside for fear that one of these
animals will be giving him the stare down and one crazy brave one might lead the attack...He made sure to carry a flashlight because they were so fast and had incredible vertical leaps!
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I was doing my best to keep the borders of my home and stop them from coming in...I killed off a few but then slowly by eminent domain they took over my land and my home...they were all around and then I saw him give me the stare and he wasnt afraid to continue his eye contact...then just as I was about to open up a "can of whoopass" he calmly said in a heavy accent,
"Yu wan a peecture?? It weel last longer?"
So I in my amazement at his mano- eh m___o bravado, I said
"Hey Dood! Just wait there and I'll get my camera!"

When I came back, he had vanished without a trace!
all my belongings in my rooms had been infiltrated by dirty evidence of his survilistic instincts...only going for certain items but leaving such a trail as if to say he didnt care about my home and all the effort Ive spent saving my items....

Even the bastard in his poor newly acquired language he left a note for me in his own little defiant way!
(to be continued)

Garvald's Home (?)

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Garvald's Home (?)
A place he's resided in, habitated in, mingled in, made love in, had parties in, and had families in for 21 of his 23 years in the land of the red clay...his "Tara" in "Gone with Garvald"
bitterness and the test of time mixed in with the bittersweet sadness of fond memories of his life here....
Rip VanGarvald wakes up 23 years later and meets VanSchtupping after having escaped the OK zone for a year.
Oklahoma and his "home" have changed more than he has.
anger is in the air.
winds are coming in strong from the south and then almost immediately bitter winds from the north with the angry vengeance of mother natures tearing up her soul
....all agitation.....
urgent anger...
...feelings coming out of this frustrating turbulence...
his home is battered from the winds of time and neglect when
he left her for a year and many other times when he was just physically present, taking her beauty for granted
and when he comes back he feels she misses him holding all the love that has been aborbed by her along with incredible sadness
as the melancholic cedar trees try to strangle the moisture out of her foundations

the edges of her face are now ragged and falling from gravity
the angry winds and rains wearing out her frame and roof

her living trees beside her forcing her to leave her roots
and face the ravages of mother nature's' eventual wrath

what can he do to bring back life to her before the inevitable and then she might be a distant memory in childrens' hearts of a time of frolicking in the green grass by the beautifully growing Southern Magnolia that only radiates Mother Natures' good energy from when his mother bought this gift for him 20 years ago...
He has failed her and his mother upstairs for so long...
others wanting her for far less than she's valued
he will manicure her and tend her grasses with the care and love she deserves
he will feed her with moisture and build her foundations and then her frame and roof
her value of herself will soar from the love he will give her and she will be beautiful again and so will he from the love she radiates back to him

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Suicidal Coincidences
Unrelated Bush scandals with amazing similarities


Enron - Biggest Energy Company in the World
SCI - Biggest Funeral Home Company in the World

Involves Houston business owned by GW Bush friend and campaign contributor
Involves Houston business owned by GW Bush friend and campaign contributor

Central figure and key witness in investigation dies from "apparent suicide"
Central figure and key witness in investigation dies from "apparent suicide"

Subject of investigations only after loud public outcry
Subject of investigation only after atrocities were reported in the media

Involves unanswered questions about the company's relationship with George W. Bush
Involves unanswered questions about the company's relationship with George W. Bush

Cheney won't answer questions about meetings with Enron chief
Bush ignored subpoena to testify about meetings with Funeral Home chief

Thousands of retirement accounts decimated
Hundreds of dead bodies desecrated


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Wow! It sure would have been fun to party with Tennis Wimbledon champ, John Newcomb and George Jr! What kind of drugs did they have fun with??
AAh to go back in time and take my camcorder watchin George carouse with the Bubbas in KennyBukport!
WAIT A SECOND?? isnt that what Ted Kennedy did too a few years earlier...Rush and fellow rednecks love to make a stink about Teds drinkin!
What about George Jr....maybe he smoked a few J's when he was doin lines of coke...if hed be honest and try to legalize bud I could tolerate his hypocricy (is that the way its spelled, Harry or do u know what that word is?)

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"I learned some good lessons from Vietnam" March, 2002
``I've been to war. I've raised twins. If I had a choice, I'd rather go to war.'' January, 2002

Military Career of our Commander in Chief

Bush's DWI revelation at the end of the 2000 Presidential campaign may have been leaked to cover a much bigger scandal

On November 2, 2000, four days before the most disputed election in American history, military veterans in the US Senate lashed out at candidate George W Bush for his failure to explain a six-month lapse in his National Guard service. "At the least, I would have been court-martialed. At the least, I would have been placed in prison," Senator Daniel Inouye said.

Bush would offer no explanation for his absence and, as he had throughout the campaign, refused to discuss his military service during the Vietnam War. Why would a man who was running for the office of Commander and Chief of the US Armed Forces refuse to discuss his service in the military? Why didn't the public and press take notice? Their attention that day was focused on something else.

That same day, while senators were asking for an explanation of Bush's National Guard absence, the media and the public were watching another breaking Bush scandal: the sudden revelation of a 1976 drunk driving conviction that Bush had failed to mention during the campaign. As Bush spent the final days before the election explaining to America that he hid the arrest to protect his daughters, the National Guard absence was swept under the rug, not made into a campaign issue by Democrats.

Both Candidates avoided making Vietnam an issue during the Presidential race of 2000. Bush and Al Gore, who served in Vietnam as an Army journalist, had a sort of unwritten understanding that their military service during the Vietnam war would not be a subject of campaign debate. Both had been accused of using their fathers' influence to avoid combat in the war. Gore's father was a senator, Bush's father was a Congressman.

The Washington Post reports that Bush joined the National Guard 12 days before his student deferment would have expired, and that in spite of his low score on the pilot's aptitude test (25, the lowest score allowed), and in spite of the waiting list that some kids spent years on, Bush was sworn in as an airman the day he applied. Indeed, so giddy was Bush's commander, Col. Walter B. "Buck" Staudt, that he later staged a special ceremony so he could have his picture taken giving Bush the oath, instead of the captain who actually had sworn Bush in. Bush spent two years learning to fly airplanes in his home state of Texas.

As the 2000 Presidential campaign moved along, angry veterans in Alabama claimed that George W Bush never performed any military service in that state, as stated on his campaign website. They offered a reward of $1000 (which rose to $3,500) to anyone who could prove that he had. No one came forth with any proof.
Eight days before the election, the Boston Globe reported discrepancies between the Bush campaign's statements regarding his military service and what records and documents showed. In 1972, the Globe reported, Bush moved from Houston to Mobile, Alabama to work on a Senate campaign. It was at this time, the Globe found, that he was suspended from flight duty for not taking his annual flight physical. Furthermore, the Globe could find no evidence that he ever performed any drills while in Alabama, or any more drills after returning to Houston.
Bush refused to answer any questions concerning the charges. His official White House biography states, "He served as an F-102 pilot for the Texas Air National Guard before beginning his career in the oil and gas business in Midland in 1975..." but gives no further details about his military service.

Questions remain on Bush's service as guard pilot
Boston Globe October 31, 2000 Bush says raising twins not easy
Guardian Unlimited January 27, 2002
For Bush, an Ill-timed return to the past
CNN November 4, 2000 Bush acknowledges 1976 DUI charge
CNN November 2, 2000
At Height of Vietnam, Bush Picks Guard
Washington Post July 28, 1999 Bush Pressured on Military Gaps
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President Holds Press Conference
White House press release March 13, 2002 Biography of President George W Bush
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Bush acknowledges 1976 DUI charge
November 2, 2000
Web posted at: 11:00 p.m. EST (0400 GMT)

From staff and wire reports

WEST ALLIS, Wisconsin -- Texas Gov. George W. Bush acknowledged Thursday that in 1976 he was arrested for driving under the influence of alcohol near his parents' home in Kennebunkport, Maine.

Republican presidential candidate George W. Bush admits that he was arrested in 1976 for driving under the influence of alcohol near his parents' home in Kennebunkport, Maine ( 433 K/40 sec. AIFF or WAV sound)

Bush, who was 30 at the time, pleaded guilty, paid a $150 fine and his driving privileges were temporarily suspended in Maine.

Late Thursday evening, following a campaign rally in this tightly contested Midwestern state, Bush--with his wife, Laura, at his side -- told reporters news accounts of the incident were accurate, that he had been drinking in a bar with Australian tennis pro John Newcombe and others.

"I'm not proud of that. I made some mistakes. I occasionally drank too much, and I did that night. I learned my lesson." Bush said he was not jailed after the arrest. "I told the guy (the arresting officer) I had been drinking, what do I need to do? He said, 'here's the fine.' I paid the fine."

Bush said the timing of the initial news report, just days before Americans elect a new president, was "interesting." When asked where the story may have originated, he said, "I've got my suspicions."

Campaign aides of Democratic presidential candidate Al Gore and officials with the Democratic National Committee both said they first learned of the arrest from news reports Thursday and said it would be inappropriate to comment on the matter.

Gore spokesman Chris Lehane said the vice president learned of the story while flying from Chicago to a campaign event in El Paso, Texas.

Kevin Kelly, news director of WPXT, a Fox television affiliate station in Portland, Maine, said his station broke the story after one of its reporters learned of the arrest while covering an unrelated matter at the local courthouse.

"Somebody made a reference to it," Kelly said. The reporter followed up with phone calls, including one to the Maine Department of Secretary of State. Kelly said the department responded with a fax that detailed the 1976 arrest. Kelly said the reporter also talked to the arresting officer, who verified the incident.

Kennebunkport Police told CNN on Thursday night that the charge against Bush -- operating under the influence of intoxicating liquor -- was a Class D misdemeanor.

Karen Hughes, Bush's spokeswomen said the 54-year-old Texas governor, who has been open about his past drinking problems, had not publicly disclosed the arrest because not even his 18-year-old twin daughters were aware of it. He has said he gave up drinking the day after his 40th birthday.

At a campaign appearance Tuesday at a charity center in San Jose, California, that helps people deal with addictions, Bush said, "I was able to share with some of the men and women here that I quit drinking in 1986 and haven't had a drop since then.

"And it wasn't because of a government program, by the way -- in my particular case, because I had a higher call."

Hughes told reporters that on the night of the arrest, Bush had been at a bar in Kennebunkport with three friends and his sister, Dora. After he left, she said, he was pulled over by police about a mile away from his parents' home -- apparently because he was driving so slowly.

Hughes said Bush now believes drinking and driving is wrong and has acknowledged, as he did at the time, that what he did that night was a mistake.

Hughes said she has known about the incident for a while but Bush's daughters found out Thursday evening.

Hughes noted that Bush has admitted to past irresponsible behavior which he does not consider a good example to set for children.

"The timing of an announcement like this, four or five days away from the election about an incident 24 years ago, which the governor's daughters don't even know about, is certainly questionable," Hughes said.

CNN Correspondent Candy Crowley and contributed to this report.
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"you post this derogatory bullshit to satisfy your own short commings. Pretty fucking sad"

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Wow, this is the wonderful statement of a close minded redneck that no matter what will vote for an ADD president. If my Dad was of the royal Bush family, he would make sure that the profs at least gave me c's when I went to Yale or Harvard and did the Ivy league and enjoyed the wild animal house frat life of George W for several years and continue while goin awol in the national guard. I would make sure Big Daddy Bush would help me get my honorable discharge and cover up all my cocaine snorting, and partying with the frat boys.
I would make sure my girls gone gone wild in college would be not arrested and any press about it would be hushed.

By the way, Harry, what are short commings? are they worse than long commings??
Wow, what a life growin up Bush pretendin to be a Texan from Conneticut!

Procastination as an ADD symptom

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Just had a nap before thinkin about checkin the Warr Acres night life in OKC but now its a little late so Ill write about somethin before I go back to bed and actually accomplish some things tomorrow!!
Tomorrow (makes me wanna sing Annie's song), I will taste a little "addaboy" (Muffy likes the way adderall helps me focus and start doin a lot of the stuff that needs to get done!)
I will then drink my combination green tea, cinammon stick and ginger root, eat my oatmeal, flax seed and cannabis combination(just kidding,I won't put bud in my porridge until its cheaper), go for a 10 minute swim at the local apt pool to get my heart rate above 160, and then relax in the hot tub to heal the back and neck from last thursdays tag team thumping. I will then be rejuvenated and energized enough to go start the job hunt by takin a trip to UCO in Edmond to fix my resume and put myself out there in the world as the best emotionally disturbed teacher ull ever meet!

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

Margaritaville in Bethany

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Trying to find frolic in the last of summer before going back to the mundanity of work!....or travel around the country and find some major medical to cover me while on sabbatical in case some Bubba with issues does his best to send me to the hospital!

Daves wife, Steph who hates the name calling that some folks resort to but laughs at the "liberal" humor, was concerned about me visiting Bumpys tonight... u never know?...Martin luther King, Malcomb X and then Garvald all assasinated with lead from a redneck Bubba who loves Rush Limbaugh and oxycontin! Muffy was also worried that Harry might try to plug me in the alley behind Bumpys! Steve, my most favorite bartender, is workin but theres only so much he can do to cut the negative redneck vibes and uncontrolled testosterone for a place. But who will pay my emergency visit for the slam down tag team neck breaking duo of Bumpys??

Gettin my swim in for somethin productive today beside educating Bubbas at the Bethany pool but now there is no adult swim its harder to swim laps...
dont let me get started as to what those city council member were thinkin to cut off adult swim when there is a beautiful 50 meter swim for everyone to enjoy!


IM so happy! Bubbas have finally found my site?...I suppose I better fly to Australia before Harry and his south side Mafia get serious about burnin a cross in my front yard!..wonderin about visitin Bumpys but my cool Republican neighbor who enjoy the openminded thinkin created by this wonderful plant has invited me for some Brbecue chicken!...
think about smokin some,Harry, before u end up with a stroke over a dumb president!

wow!!a few years later, how prophetic was this gentleman's comment:

"Hey, I don't know how I found your site. I googled "what if god smoked cannabis" trying to find out who actually wrote & produced that song.I can sort of tell that you live in Oklahoma. I used to live in OKC and I went to Seattle seeking political asylum. I can tell you, if you want to go someplace that is better than where you are now, go to the pacific NW. From Northern Cali to Western Canada, it is a world of difference from the prejudiced and backwards south. Just my 2¢, from someone who has made the journey.I do not have ADD or else I would probably write much more. I am a graphic designer, not a teacher... but I decided once that if I was going to be poor, I would rather be poor anywhere else but Oklahoma... and I was right. So, from no one in particular, you should consider getting yourself to a more friendly environment. You will be surprised what a difference it will make in your life, believe me

Well, here I am now on the Gold Coast of Oz!! When I met my soulmate we fell in love on the pacific northwest Olympia Island!!

Butterfly kisses to Bubbas

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Watchin the republican corporation news right!!,,,,Ladies, germs and rednecks....when will the KKK come visiting my yard?

Its amazing how politics can make some people so angry and filled with hate here in Bubbaland, Iraq,etc. ....Heck weve only had civilization 10-20 thousand years...Bubbas thrived when they could knock someone over when they werent lookin to make a Neanderthal point...
Now the caveman's ancestors have bullets instead of bats...have we devolved??

Monday, August 09, 2004


Well, I start off with a title and now I gotta write somethin with purposely poor English so Ill appeal to grammatically incorrect blokes that vote for ADD presidents that love to say Nucular (nuclear) or ideal instead of idea. How many people in this state know the difference between and Ideal and an idea?

So , Im havin this great convesation with a triathlete who Im gonna teach how to swim when I was rudely interrupted by 2 Bubbas suffering from being brainwashed by Rush (the Oxycontin drug rep on the radio) for 20 years angry that I should have this site and told me, "why the fuck dont u leave, If u dont like it?"
Im trying to and that why Im writing about this process of leaving this state of Bubba love! But I told them to look on the website and leave a comment instead of comin by my place and
"openin up another can of Whoopass!" (sound familiar? tag team wrestling at lumpomania!)
But dont republican rednecks believe in Democracy?
This state suffers the first step in the 12 step program:

uh oh! Harry said he'd get the Southside Mafia after me as handed me a bullet.

sometimes, even though Im a fan of Michael Moore, Im almost glad my tenant and neighbor have guns .....
"Wild, Wild, West" in Bubbaland!

Butterfly kisses become butterfly waves

I had broken into the old deserted two story fibromansion as a 9 year old child with the tempation of those large Green coke bottles..They would bring enough for two toy soldier and ice cream...
Because of that little incident, you created a future home..
Your parents bought the deserted house perched on top of the dunes
and because of your brother's keen awareness of Greek Architecture,
"Why not name it, "The Parthenon!"
Your curious eyes looked into the future and explored...

Now 42 years later , you have inherited your magical place in OZ! Did you ever think that you wouldn't have been by the beach right now if it were not for your desire for adventure!

Butterfly effect or not???
Sometimes you wonder if u could go back in time...
so many things you could have done differently!....
So you wander aimlessly looking for a place to settle down...

Will you find your Oz??
In search of what ??
....comfort, satisfaction, lost loves to be regained?? would it have been if you had been the father to her children many missed roads not taken
all these chances for you to take root as a lost mango waiting....
to sprout its roots
and let the sands accumulate on his spot on his island
his settlement in his favorite lattitude of the tropical waves...
with the right breeze and right humidity for his flowers to finally bloom for her..
but then the Mango fruit gets lost in the winds of fate and destiny....
whichever God or this Universal Energy that created life decided for us ...
happiness, love, family
....could have been yours by taking a road that you did not follow

what love never materialized?
....and to have never known love....
because you werent there....
Like Jimmy Stewart in Pottersville...
how time without someone somewhere
affects the whole community and mushrooms out in many waves...
by taking the road another way or not following it,
you don't let your pursuit of happiness evolve the way u feel the spirits above want you to follow
..they want you to have a happy road
so enjoy that road to happiness Garvald! you'll find your roots!

I was just reading this poem and seeing how prophetic it was when I came back to the land called OZ where I could frolic in the winter mist in a land where I feel accepted

and all the bitterness of angry loves lost gets washed away with the beautiful waves as the sand accumulates beneath the mango roots

8/15/06 revised

10/21/08 summer sosltice revision
Peace baby!

Sunday, August 08, 2004


It's Sunday and Im still very sore especially in my shoulders and neck from being the victim of the tag team wrestlers taking turns to do body slams on me. It especially hurt tryin to play volleyball in the pool yesterday. My arms felt like lead.

Its a reality check about how serious it could have been as far as my head banging against the Bar when Bubba body slammed me against the bar and the floor! I keep thinking how I could exited the pub without him attacking me especially when I asked for help from security!

I have a good mind to call some tv stations and the newspaper ("The Daily Disappointment") about how some bartenders and some folks think they can get away with almost killing customers or maiming them for them for life. Its like one loses all rights when hes had some drinks and the bartender or redneck can do what he wants because you provoked him the way you were staring at him! The police would not let me file a report. The cop's first question was if I had been drinking and therefore he believes a bartender thats only trying to save his own ass!


Happy Bday, Ronnie! He is 51 today! God, that is old! (lOL)
(and now looking back, Im just 53...seeing those grey/white hairs come out of tanned head as they grow back after being shaved....
Reluctant to call him cuz Im embarassed in a way about jobs...

Early this Am after carousing in pubs where most are less than half my age, I decided to write a little about this amazing dog walking on two legs like a first I thought that it was some sort of paralyzed child and then realized that she was a dog that learned to do that because she was born without front feet and was taught how to walk! Everbody at the apt pool was staring at this amazingly smart and almost human dog! Her expressions were amazingly anthropomorphic. Her name is "Faith" and she has given me hope and not to be always feeling sorry for myself and my situation and then get this kind of Edgar Allen Poe depression where at least I'll enjoy writing about the misery ! :)

Friday, August 06, 2004

Wanna Picture???

After chatting with Bumpy's owner, I feel better about the establishment takin care of business. On a serious note, they could have prevented this fight from happening when I warned them that Bubba was on the warpath ...why do so many young testoterones get in the stare routine and get upset when u ask if they "wanna picture, it will last longer!"?

Bumpy's Bar and ass kicking pub

I've been back in the Okie Zone for only 2 nights and a Jr. testosterone wants to fight me for staring at him. He was acting like he was part of the Bumpy's staff and every time I looked his way he was glaring at me even though I didn't even know him personally as if he just happened to be in my fan club (sarcasm). I tried to be nice when I was going by the door with his glare but he said that he didn't like me and ANGRILY asked why I was staring at him? I told him that I couldn't help notice him glaring at me so he asked me not to stare at him. I just walked away from a bloke with a lot of issues and seeming to want to take them out on me. So I go outside to the patio and then later he comes out wanting to fight me because I was looking at him through the window. I was on the cell phone and talking to some friends when he started calling me a "mother fucker" and a "poet". I ignored him as much as I could but said I was flattered about being called a "poet". Someone came over and ushered him back inside so I enjoyed chatting with Chuck and an interesting girl that's traveled to at least 20 different volatile countries with the air national guard and was only 22 until the muscle bound very young bartender, (Scwarzenegger wannabee) angrily tells me its last call. I go to the restroom and then I pay the bill to the nice bartender, Steve, and then realize the bloke is waiting for me at the door. I ask Miguel to escort me or walk with me because the bloke is wanting to fight me. Then Bubba (don't know his name unfortunately) does a mad dash at me when I'm talking to the Miguel and several girls in the way of the entrance and exit and I'm not expecting this volcanic shove that knocked my head against the bar. I'm on the floor with him all over me trying to hit my head some more. In defending myself, I get him almost off of him when Schwarz (the bartender) tackles me like he's playin pro football. My head knocks the ground and I'm dazed. They push me out of Humpy's and I'm telling them that I'm calling the police to file assault charges. When I'm outside, Schwarz comes outside while I'm outside talking on my cell phone to the ambulance folks and the police hoping they will come before Bubba leaves. Bubba, who had been inside as he was friends with some of the staff, comes out and wants fight me outside. I told them that the police were on the way so they wouldn't try to attack me again (the cell phone) saved me from much more injury on the hard cement parking lot. Bubba hears me trying to describe his blue car and takes off driving towards me almost like he's gonna run me over. Fortunately, a girl tells him not to but he purposely doesn't let me read his car tags and takes off with me trying to tell the police which way on NW expressway he's heading.
The ambulance and cops unfortunately come at the same time when I wanted to talk to the police. Schwarz talks to the cops first, so they believe him and other "witnesses" over me, while Im talkin to the Para meds and really wanting to talk to the cops. The cops wont let me file charges because they said that the bartender said it was mutual and that I was fighting too (too defend myself from rednecks on some sort of crack!) Earlier in the tussle, Schwarz or someone else made sure to rip my Luther Elementary t-shirt, so the shirt is falling of of me when Im in the parking lot. My credibility must have been shot with me bloody and without a shirt, so they ask if I had been drinking and that I was in no shape to drive. I told them that I was fine and had two beers (Shiner bocks) but I didn't want to argue about that so I let an officer give me a ride home instead of the ambulance. I couldn't afford an ambulance since I didn't have a major medical. The older (about my age) policeman wouldn't take me to the hospital and that I could have used the ambulance so he drops me off at my house a few miles away and I wake up my roommate, Art to give me a ride and Ill knock 10$ off the rent that he's always late with paying.
After being dropped off back at the parking lot to pick up my car (fearing retribution to my car), I drive to Mercy's emergency ward and I'm worried about having to pay 3 or 400$ for X-rays and being looked at. I almost want to walk away but I know already how my back and neck are fucked up so I talk myself into it. But after laying down on the bed watching another angry redneck, Steven Segal, fighting Michael Caine (an evil Alaskan oil baron) on TV, the doctor tells me he wants a cat scan. That would be an extra thousand bucks or so and how would I get Humpy's or Bubba to pay for it?? So I have to wait another hour before they decide I'm ok without the cat scan and having to suffer watching Segal being an asshole kickin Caine's ass. It would almost have made my evening just to see Segal or some of these other assholes that only fight and cant act get their asses kicked in a movie!
Now its the next day wondering what action to take as far as getting my emergency bill paid for and suing Bubba for getting away with his redneck violence!

Thursday, August 05, 2004

Kansas city pub swim verses swimmin in OKC

Muffy is too embarrassed to let her friends know that Ive started this crazy website! Im learning as I progress with this site. Ive been thinking that I need to get a laptop, camcorder, and travel around the states instead of going back to teaching. But then I wont have major medical and its 5x as much to get Adderall 111$ verses 25$ with the major medical. We call Adderall "Addaboy) cuz Muffy sees the difference in my eyes and my energy level. When I don't take it, I just wanna sit around watching TV and writing. But I'm getting down to a few pills that I've left in different bottles, in case I misplace them (losing things is very common with ADD). In order to make it last I break open the pill and get some of these micro grains to give me a burst of energy and motivation! These micro grains are time released. Some would judge a teacher for doing something like this as wrong but it works!

Now that Ive had that I decided to devote some of this site to pubs and restaurants that I like to visit for the atmosphere, good beer and food. The other day, I visited the 75th Street Brewery. They have good beer, excellent pizza and Ok service. The atmosphere of the place seems to be of above average intellect being close to that college and medical school. For 20$ you can get a discount on the membership and get beer served to you in your favorite liter mug that they keep in shelves high above you. You pay only 2.50$ for what can be a very large beer that will put you at the saturation point as far as Kansas City's finest making you walk the line without impunity.
I had a Kolsch beer brewed almost as well as they do in Germany and then an "American Beauty" beer. Both were very tasty full bodied beers along with the most delicious pizza I've had in years! Its only 5.00$ if you get it before 6. I ordered the mushroom pizza and I asked for some tomato slices put on top. It was orgasmic! Shitake mushrooms, Crimini mushrooms, wild mushrooms (almost wish they were the magic kind), Portobello and domestic mushrooms! The only negative I noticed was that the bartenders and waitresses don't seem to like to smile. Maybe they hate customers like me ? :( The hostess was very sweet however. :)
I went on to the Buzzard Beach which has the cheapest draft in Westport for only .75$ for happy hour 4-8pm. I heard that a lot of heroin addicts visit the place but it has the most eclectic group of people and one can find intellectual conversation with out difficulty. Generally, they have positive vibes and bums like me can feel comfortable. There are two floors with a deck where you can observe beautiful sunsets over the parking lot. If you want to breathe don't stay downstairs too long. You'll constantly bump your head if you are over 6 foot and have ADD because of the low ceilings.
My last visit was the weekly Tuesday night chess club at the Westport Flea Market where you can get 2 big burgers and 2 orders of fries for only 7.50$. The charismatic cooks will announce "YOUR BURGER IS READY'! Protein helps your brain think better but I still made major blunders against Jeff and I knew that I could have had won games :(. The intellectual conversation was the best there because we are all nerds. Some high school seniors were having an incredible discussion on economics. I was also amazed that one really good chess player that runs the club will still vote for Bush despite the poor deluded man's intelligence!

The next day I decided to check on my house and tenant in Okc. (cont)