Sunday, June 23, 2019

Well I decided to try a new theme for this blog…
Sometimes I’m amazed at all the posts that I’ve written over the years and comes up 2000s so I need to just ask help take those baby steps john garvald and figure out how we can put it all together maybe Leanne and crowmac@live.com help me with the steps and I think I’m going to go ahead to summer now that I’m without employment and get it published…

 Guilt and fear are our biggest enemies… I fear my interview tomorrow to teach emotionally disturbed children at a high school… I worry about how I will handle it instead of just thinking of the interview and being positive of how I can help these children better than anybody else… I have to show the principal interviewing me my assets, my experiences, my steadfastness and my stubborn desire to help these kids
 Yes guilt hinders me so much… I was so worried about my older brother coming to visit me on Friday… And showing him my messy home and just reading his mind knowing what he’s thinking how can my son live in such a messy home?…
 And then I get angry at people who judge me when I can do so many things better than any one else but they won’t except my little idiosyncrasies such as being dissed organized I like that dissed organized,,,!!
Dissed organized could be added now Mr. crowmac@live.com  to the lexicon of garvald… But this weekend taught me so much… I was so worried about my brother having to see me and how would I show him my messy home ?.
but after we pick him up at the airport ,
I decided for us to take a right turn and head downtown for Bricktown
this was a great impulsive move  getting to start off the day with positive vibes… Ron was really impressed with Bricktown and I was actually proud of it thinking how it was just 30 years ago with empty warehouses and how this is kind of spread to recycling of decaying inner cities and serves as a model for other cities in this revitalization just from one petty sales tax
this has helped the city in so many ways..
 So we had a wonderful day until my aversions for lecture
At  home overwhelmingly ... I can’t handle the question about My major challenges in life…
after he stayed the night I was to the point of telling him that I don’t want to be pushed just like it was finally hard to tell the neighbor to somehow get the point about leaving me alone about my wild front lawn…
Maybe it was good that he only stayed one night because I have a feeling he was bossy enough
an older brother would only continue it  and be increased tenfold if he hung around another day… And I was very reluctant to let them come to help me clean up the home even though that’s the best thing because it’s overwhelming just like Boot Camp per se…
Steve you know what I mean it’s backseat driving but about your life!!
But it was wonderful seeing the product of our visit in my sons backstroke
Colin murray kicked freaking ass,,, !!
Beating out those twins that beat him in the previous race…
I think the competition of those other boys being so close to him in time has also increased his  remarkable improvement with only three weeks of swim practice

( I hope Mr. Chromac might look at these essays?? and give me give me his “unprofessional “
review or critique of which parts of my writing are the best and suggestions and perhaps from 1000 of my pose which one could be the diamond nugget and which ones perhaps could be the copper nuggets so to speak which ones are the most humorous… Which are the most sad… I hope compilation maybe put 100 to 200 pages together and then even make cheaper paperback copies that everyone goodbye )
To figure all this out I’ve got so many ideas so little time so much that I have to convey to you…

Wednesday, June 19, 2019

 Hey Mr. crowmac@live.com !!
realizing my audience could be you...
Should I write in your blog perhaps??
Recently as I’ve been just kind of vegetating and enjoying my blessings to be able to hang out with my son while of course I let him play all the Minecraft and fortnight he wants to play as long as he’s swimming at least for five times a week with our swim summer.
have you tried this text to speech?.

 I just like to conserve energy… Conserve money… But enjoy the moment with the least carbon output that I can use…
 Limit my use of AC until the temperature gets above 80°…
 Then I turn on the one window unit… Feed my dog and feed my cat…
 So you understand my voice and I need to read your voice… Perhaps if we ever get our act together ??...
 My brother is coming over on Friday and I’m very embarrassed to see my older brother because I’ve developed a severe battered xhusband syndrome and my reaction to nagging…
Lends to hours of blogging y I prefer a green lush lawn with Occasional wildflowers...
I was actually feeling guilty wondering how long the one gets before I’ll get a note on my door just like the note I got on my mailbox…

So I’m here talking to you whenever you have a chance to see my blog… Both together we could have that kind of weekend with Leigh and crowmac@live.com and any muses that might be available Since we are very sensitive to others’ backseat driving…
nudge nudge Mr. crowmac@live.com
 I think back of the times when we were driving to and from Tohatchi wraps with one designated driver I remember how anxious my pal Mr. crowmac@live.com would be when somebody suggested that he might be driving too fast into grab slow it down… And intent of puff pass so in the meantime I’ve had a lot of adventures throughout the world and I’m afraid to say it for fear of judgment but I remember this wonderful hippie lady that invited me and my son to her school bus and a wonderful three months in paradise … Another paragraph so I’m watching this and obsessed with Trump oh no in my writing is being interrupted by his Texas number so it’s probably just a sales goal…

So I like the fact that this text to speech can put it all down and then I can edit it all…
 Before perhaps we all have this wild weekend of what shall I say creative asspiring  souls and perhaps Leah This is 200 years ago before people were worried about global warming and Darwin was maybe just born…
Hey new word to add to our lexicon “ Ass piring “
as you mentioned crowmac@live.com

So I have a job interviewMonday early!😎 ,Steve , { Trying again to reach  emotionally disturbed adolescents minds for learning (??)
And I think if I were to just look into a crystal ball I would just be so happy to see that working at McDonald’s even if they were out of jail that’s a plus!ðŸ‘ĻðŸ―‍ðŸģ…
Or I could be a standby and treated like an assistant like this other math co teacher With her long experience of backstabbing others that would get into her pathway…
 So I’m watching YouTube right now… I’m thinking of things to say… Prograstinating ...
You want to be creative with your stories Steven with ghosts and goblins and all sorts of spirits of the past…
 I think of Julius Caesar… Alexander the great Genghis Khan…
Or people that good or evil changed the course of the human race significantly… All of us being born start from minor ripples to huge ripple in the eventual Evolution or devolution of the human race...
 Dad” I’m hungry”
My 10-year-old boy screams out at me as he takes a little momentary break from his very addictive Fortnite… So I got milk 2%, a little bit  with his frosted flakes ,
my son Collin

daddy let’s have some diabetes cereal…
Dad you were being very annoying…!

As I tolerate disrespect from my son just as I  tolerate disrespect from these special needs children…

Crowmac says I have a voice. I need to find out when I’m using that voice. And emulate it more.
If you’re reading that this stream maybe you can tell me which ones are the best prose??
 And I want to publish this and I want to put it into a book and I’d be willing to even give you a commission for some of it...
Finding that voice is what I’m finding that audience or I know who specifically I’m talking to you whether it’s the wedge or the lady on the school bus on that beautiful island paradise created by Volcanoes 🌋 recently on the evolving earths timeline
… Or just connecting with another woman , it’s  a wonderful momentary mind melding orgasm…
I’m going to Nimbin
It is been a very long time garvald,
and trying to find another magical hippie girl… Will it ever happen one last love of my life?? 
 I really do have the urges especially during a full moon…
I really love these evenings when the storms are coming in and suddenly I’m romantic with a few times in my life that I’ve been passionately in love… And there is a true connection when we both feel each other‘s hearts but unfortunately it just seems momentary at least in my life… 

Sunday, June 16, 2019

 So as Scrooge would say,,,
 Ebeneezer Scrooge
let’s say he was living right now in the Oklahoma zone.??
 What would Scrooge do just before Christmas and he’s only got 1000 days to get it done??
Or perhaps it’s the bloke from my fair lady back here in the Okie’zone and he says,

“ good drinks and girls all over London and I just got a few more hours to track them down. “”
Happy Father’s Day John Garvald,

I worry about  the Duration of need contract is over and
I suppose I’ve only got three more minutes before the next commercial is over of Meet the Press.??

Many things to do so many things to write about so little time to put it all out there.
 My actions on the cave wall.?.

this can be turned into a song I take a photo or take a photo of Buffy to take a photo of my son:
Do
 I take a photo of me ???

with the biggest fear is taking the photo of
our inevitability...
Again I’m on the verge of two roads take down, a poem from Robert frost. I feel very poetic today

and to be
heard on this beautiful day
 in fear of what’s not neighborly
or just the inevitability
 of our eminent domain
Turbayne
 and the alarm clock goes off
You ask yourself
 how many units of time we have left to put our actions on the cave wall?
I know I have lots of paranoid thoughts and then I want to put them into reality. Just like Donald Trump I’m sure he gets paranoid about his fake news but he masterfully like a true criminal gets away with crap but no other president has gotten away with history.

Well I decided to try a new theme for this blog… Sometimes I’m amazed at all the posts that I’ve written over the years and comes up 2000s...