life passes by so quickly to grab the few moments of happiness… you feel good sometimes,,, and other times you missed the party while the human race devolves and heads towards Armageddon….
  1. perhaps you thought life
    would get better… waiting for a higher high… while thinking are you ever going to be young again on the beach…
    I felt with you that you could read my mind…
    that twin souls happened once in the cycle of life when you were riding on the horse bareback as your ancestors did…


    your mind connects with the dolphins and the whale… you hear their concert in the seas…. your cousins decided to descend into the waters…..
    I felt this connection… this Vulcan mind meld… dealing with the pain , accepting the love of my life passed away in my arm, drastically trying to pump life in her..
    i couldn’t save her, so do  I go into your childlike safe zone???
    , where I  can feel safe like in a womb, in the okie zone…  I had ventured out and our beautiful son was born, another life conceived, in my life with the Navajo


    and then met his mother on the evening while the sun went behind the mountains surrounding silverton…
    I thought what a curse??!  and we take a trip west to California
    and she decides to live with me and the Indians of the Rez,,,
    where colin Murray was conceived,,, in the teacher ridge of Tohatchi   ,,,our little cabin… but perhaps thinking of you sharing this adventure.
    and then we were off to Oz!!!
    a first class water birth all paid for by blue cross blue shield…


    now we are hanging out here…in the okie zone…. thanking our creator each day….the energy I feel sometimes,,, when a thought happens and its echoed on tv…
    as far as echoes, when I wrote, I wrote to you,,, I thought I could save you when I couldn’t save my alene…buried in the cold earth.. sorry we never married…
    but my common law wife…. she would always forgive…did I stray and then she would stray… but with my friend and coworker from met life…
    how do I forgive, but then I want you to forgive me.. but I don’t think you will
    I am so sad that you are hurting so much every day,,,
    I wish and pray that I could give you some happiness

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