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PTSD.  Post traumatic divorced syndrome..
  ... My son has become my friend although the feeling s not mutual... But when we go swimming, I know he loves me.
 I just don't enjoy talking to my ... But should be happy to see him every day.. looking for to pickup from school and have a few more swim lessons before school starts

Wow!!! Amazing how Trump Les and tears up our country!  So so much to do and I'm overwhelmed    summer I have been binge-watching obsessed with what Trump is doing to this country... Trying to relax but so overwhelmed with the Herculean (my corresponding by cave pool) tasks to save our families' bed on the beach... Need some serious legal advice about the best way to help my financial issues..... Oh yes... 500 Russian s have checked out my story last month!
Wow... Amazing how psychic...  My son just says  I'm just psycho... Still prefer to be anonymous but the neighbors we ve never enjoyed always appear to be  be curious about my behavior or activities besides talking crap to all my tenants for decades or going to court to be embarrassed by the judgr.. .    I lost Buffy for 2 days.. I went into "next door neighbor"... The retired couple immediately joined within an hour... After I found my blessed walkabout bitch... I wash her , feed her ...she has a great night. Sleeping at foot of my Bed great night sleep... Take her for very. Long bike ride.. she's exhaust ed... take her to my wading pool in overgrown semi tropical backyard.. ask her to stay...she takes off through  the fence she previous ly put a whole thru... I yell out and bike through ,hood... Give up...sit down to the history of Putin took over and his affairs with trump and other America s leader s ... while watching , see latest on" next door neighbor&qu…
Found a chair and I sit there... Had issues with sitting on a chair on a beach.. there are a lot more ugly things than chairs... Like all the plastic bottles taking up thousands of square miles.. or huge pickup trucks... Or trailer s parked in driveways...I'd like to write more but intimidated because I worry about the audience... Mowed the lawn... And happy to see my son everyday.. I wish we could be looking at the ocean instead of a trailer with a nosy neighbor sleeping in it..
where are you LA? I need your help...we are still planning on going to OZ, but as usual there are Herculean tasks ahead of us...

happy that Im with my son everyday and taking him to swim lessons! 

Im hoping the lessons will help him be able to swim in the ocean!

I still want to write a best seller or even publish this blog...

Can you help?
beautiful weekend with my son.   Still very weird about seeing Showalter
wow.... so many things I d love to discuss... but fears... I felt the interview was good yesterday... It was nice that invited my coach
I made good eye contact... I need to get a regular computer or laptop

Friday the 13th... taking 2 personal days...it appears the strike is over.. watching Netflix hanging out with son...
every time, I walk outside, nosy neighbor working on his eyesores, that block his rebuilt driveway, an  avid trump supporter, but that makes sense as he s friends with the conman builder, who still is in this town and owes me several thousand...
I need to talk to my lawyer... he reads this blog, so he'll whine about it to my other neighbors and call up the crook



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I still haven't forgotten you.
it was enjoyable going on a field trip with my old friends government class to visit the capitol and ask questions of legislators.... one very angry secretary came out to confront the students who were asking how suspicious it is that few of these lawmakers are out...
she thought they had an attitude...
I knew she was angry and tried to placate her....talking to her only her gave her ammunition, some folks enjoy bullying..
maybe she has a need to piss like some females do to mark their territory
my  female dog urinates to mark her territory
 she must have been having issues to be so defensive and angry
regardless, she call the principal to complain about the students...
  I heard them and they were not rude... amazing
no worries
my friend visited her later and placated the angry lady


and we wonder why folks laugh at this state??

another road to visit again... groundhog year,,,
vacation of slumming and taking it easy... first half with my son and second half without,,, a gorgeous,,, will watch and coach my sons soccer team sans my son.. cant wait to see him again...
I worry now as a parent , but have eternal optimism
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suddenly.... you are in the zone... for at least getting old... u have a weekend with your son before u worry that she'll keep him in whillockville...
when she takes him away for the 2nd half of vacation and wont come back


and then fall prey to  grandma shelob's web on main street the foothills of the Ozarks,,,


excommunicated .... but then a passage is given from the bible  to forgive, when you find out shelob made a duplicate of the key for her daughter


I don't know whom I love to hate more , shelob or the game of thrones incestual queen mother,, ive never met governor mary fallon (perhaps she could be on my miss ogeny list)..... seeing the fakeness come through in her plastic face




I am just letting myself be lazy this weekend after having hard few weeks at school, relishing the snow days with my son....in limbo as to our future and the endless challenges to live in oz...

I am again challenged to type on this puter without touching the annoying mouse bar that will erase …
hes watching  steven Colbert.... and thinking he could ve been up there...
sad that heure wished .... he could have had more lives to do so many things...
phases of his life...
healing...
and then slowly reaching getting back into the cruise... he could feel sad...
but he figures he could plug along, being patient until he can take his family back to t Oz,,,






good day... except he x, whom I am obliged to take care of so that  can see my son.. I  worry about talking about teaching...
this laptop frustrates me.. haven't figured out how to avoid the mouse bar.
Another wonderful weekend with my son
. Debating about whether to answer and talk to an old flame
Life is so short and time goes by so quickly. Is it worth it to reconnect with Old Flames.  will it hurt just more.. Life is About the connections u make..  regardless of the neighbors and whomever the audience is I need to really write my feelings down every single day.  I really enjoy weekend's especially lazy weekends when  I just get to   hang around with my son my dog and my beautiful black cat
another great week with my son




great weeks with him...
seeing him grow,
jealous that  the teacher spends more time on the growth of his  mind


I want to do so much, excited that we gave great lesson,,,,,
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I loved her encouragement and support....
thinking I could be married to woman who believes in me and pushes me to be my best


now im feeling tired finally, so I need to go to sleep








I love you

amazing how your mood changes e when it is a gorgeous sunny day... funny how many of my audience are from Russia


I really need to get in the habit of writing a little more each day but it is so frustrating from a laptop
computer

Well I can do some  writing now without actually having to write
already sights on spring with this gorgeous day!

time is flying by... what a week

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wow.. time is flying by... feeling happy after having cabin fever after frigid weather... liked it when I use the point and speak... as usual so many things to write to you about... an old friend from KC wants to friends again.. im hoping with this year back to teaching will help me to mature as a person.. learing to forgive and having hope we can have a future with the crazy folks running our government.. thank for reading and I will write more again! even with nosy neighbors and BA reading this f