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"the lunatic ravings of some seriously addled shortbus from down undah"

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wow!! thanks!.. I guess my notoriety precedes me!



the older I get, the more amusing the human race is and how warped we might become in our aging minds!


I have so many challenges in life and i realize that humans are the biggest obstacle to one's pursuit of happiness...





and the older I get, I realize that the best revenge is to find happiness and success..


i've found that the biggest obstacles are egos that rarely admit that they are wrong... and how misunderstandings can rationalize the way people behave...
in my later adult life, I've read few books...



I've read "Driven to Distraction" and "48 Laws Of Power" before being seduced and entranced by someone that has kept me under a spell...


recently, I read a brief synopis of "48 laws of seduction" and then realized how many of these techniques were used...





and I actually regret not using some of those techniques instead of them being used on me in the ultimate con...






Now, I have more obtacles in my …

Reaching the 8th Rank!

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wow.,..it's really great finally taking care of   business and finally standing up for me and my family..
desiring to become a good father and a more   caring patient husband..
it's easy to become tempted , but you just   don't let it happen...

 it's nice to know that you still have it  though..and you smile just a little flirtatiously, but you just don't go there...
it will be nice to have our place back    again and  we can celebrate out little home
as if she is still part of our family and has been held hostage for too long...
 and we can have her back at least for a little while for our little family before we find some good people who will take care   of her with love 
before we finally give her away instead of almost being taken or destroyed...

Today I had to go to  the downtown Okczone for the dreaded IRS!
I did the forms one step at a time, having the benefit of a tiny bit of adderall, when I know that I have to take care of business!
It was great mee…
I could get upset about dealing with some people...
i try to accept it as part of human nature...
if people can take advantage of you, they generally will...
it is rare to find folks that you can trust

when you find someone that you can trust,
Rejoice!
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so tornados came within a few miles of my home in the Okie Zone
and then I think ive got insurance this time
and think what is the point of investing all this $
when  a tornado could take it away
and they put the home up for demolition unless its fixed...
this is how the Okies handle disasters I guess
where does the govt actually help and all of our tax money
that I owe...
instead the powers that be
just want the tax money go to big oil companies
and to fight wars so that they can the last oil in the ground~!
and ignorant folks keep voting for the Neocon way... which is bankrupt our govt and
then we will have to pay for everything just to park ourselves and live
and these big companies will just be taking our serf wages in taxes since they will own our govts when we have the new world order!!
pp pass...

"A plantation economy is an economy which is based on agricultural mass production, usually of a few staple products grown on large farms called plantations. Plantation economies rely on…
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wow...first the tornado comes comes close to us in the ozarks, then i could have been driving through Joplin to check on my home in the Okie zone... now tornados have been reported there!! what is going on with the weather??
but at least I put on my new car tags and they no longer say Oklahoma!
happy when Im taking care of business...
so many things to do...
and then u think , whats the point if a tornado sucks you up and takes you miles away!!
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(I wrote this in the middle of the night after arriving on this hemisphere stayin at the Microtel)
I suppose the best listener is myself when I read all of this a few years later...

( i read the prophetic essay with Lillian the other night and im sure hoping she'll be my manager)
and I wish that I could go back in time and try to teach myself the patience

and nurture the seed that grows inside of me...

and now I have to slowly but surely have patience with my son and especially my relationship...
(and so as i help my son and treasure the little moments I have with him
when he hugs me and I love him back ..and how hes becoming my world)

that has been the most difficult challenging problem to overcome...
(and so i learn to fall in love again as i become happier the person that i sense i could become!)
I will learn how to play this game of life like a chess game...

already I'm way past the opening and all the pieces are piling up on the king and
 he looks for his pieces to come to …
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I suppose when this becomes a bestseller...... and we make l   little movies at least some on the utube...
i could easily get down but then I think who can have the lifestyle that we have...
ive got so many things to do...namely become Ozian !!

(I realized later that while I was writing this while the tornado was whistling through Joplin!)
another rainy day on our parade... as I think about this anchor block in the Okie Zone...
what is the most effective way for our president to handle the wars that the Bush family started to control of the oil in the middle east??
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so I have to decide on what kind of shed to build or not build...
frustrated that it's taken so long... and I  have to make sure that I have the input and not get pushed around!
I could get frustrated with human nature... and then I see what I could have and sad about things... or could I go on and perhaps finally learn from the mistakes... especially in badly wanting to trust people...

'THE GREAT DUDE"

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 The only place of refuge is the bathroom… that’s why its so nice to have your man/woman cave (to all the female readers..) so..im back in the Ozarks for all enquiring minds…
Deciding what to do about the situation… how much time have I invested in all this…more than half of my life in the worst(? so far)

While I have to decide this perhaps this weekend…
And I have to face the demons and go through with it…
Need to tell the squatter that ill be back there somtime and hopefully take  care of business…
Tie up as many loose ends….and have no worries that my home is well taken care of..

While the rug rats in law keep knocking on the door of the lavatory…at least the door is locked before I watch a recording of the Great Lebowski...(ill tell u about meeting a double of Sam Elliot in this pub in an old building of a neighboring suburb and how I thought that I might be in a remake of the funny movie... i had to go back there to pick up my coffee cup given to Tohatchi teachers that I left t…

Road Trip to taking care of business!!

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  great friends, great people.... sometimes help you play it forward to better places!!

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i was reading an old post from sept 2004.. and I realized how prophetic the post was...when u get the chance go back and look at the archives!After Alene passed away December 31st, 94 its been hard for Garvald to have relationships, often showing his needy side having been spoiled by her and sleeping with her most of those 13 x 365 days. That comes out to at least 4 of those years sleeping, making love and cuddling. Someone that knew him and cared about him was suddenly taken away without any warning. How could he survive other than putting his efforts into the children of his freshman biology class. Their bright faces took his mind off of her. He started writing to organize his own feelings and often would talk to her and his mother feeling that they were his match makers in heaven.
He was angry at the fundamentalist preacher at the funeral for telling him where she was in heaven and not an angel. Occasionally, he would feel her presence wanting him to be taken care of for this one t…
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phew...thought i couldnt chat with u... its sure cool hanging with LA , Buffy and family....
it's nice to just crash with friends with folks that have read my blog
and I feel comfortable
ok,,,i shuldnt feel guilty about visiting old haunts!
its like Deja vu...
how bizarre it is for all the weird signs/coincidences, serendipities...
and the ideas that have come around..

Crow Mac has helped me with this epiphany in life... and think how wonderful it would be celebrate our writers club..
holding onto my place for a little bit longer stuck in the Okie Zone
as folks come and go trying to take posession of her...
and then I see us in our little cottage by the patio in our garden with hopefully high fences... how can we set this all up?? how can we all be out there celebrating life?? Crow Mac, Charles,Buffy's family, and our little family all running around in our little home away from home... while we sit around enjoying the evening... and then waking up to shine into our little place and mayb…
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IT is great HANGIN OUT WITH OLD FRIENDS... IVE MISSED THEM SO MUCH!

i figured i ought to show a pic of me before i gained the 8lbs piggin out at the Chinese Buffet near Arrowhead Middle School.. one of those places where I hated the principal and she hated me..but I survived the lady...it seems like there are controlling women no matter where u go... and they just get fat from finding a place to squat...and they often end up in the heart of the Midwest...
is that why there arent any beaches here...it would be scary seeing these folks in the midwest on the beach!!
I think i need to buy a wt scale  so I dont all the 10 kilos ive lost... those buffets look so inviting!
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if i can do at least one thing productive each day, and encourage my wife to do the same, we can go somewhere...slowly but surely we can make it!
Colin is still recovering from jet lag, going to sleep past midnight...
and his dad's hours are the same..
but the best thing is to take a road trip!

and get my bike before I get too fat!
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Boy, I wish I was in Byron Bay for the swim race! I already miss Oz!
Toronto Globe and Mail February 26, 2005:

Hunter telephoned me on Feb. 19, the night before his death. He sounded scared. It wasn't always easy to understand what he said, particularly over the phone, he mumbled, yet when there was something he really wanted you to understand, you did. He'd been working on a story about the World Trade Center attacks and had stumbled across what he felt was hard evidence showing the towers had been brought down not by the airplanes that flew into them but by explosive charges set off in their foundations. Now he thought someone was out to stop him publishing it: "They're gonna make it look like suicide," he said. "I know how these bastards think . . ."

somebody did a search today for "
hunter thompson was working on wtc collapse story before mysterious sudden death, warned he'd be 'suicided'"
from Okc (the heart of the Okie Zone) and they were on my site for 79 seconds...
pulling up the article I c…
its been 2 weeks and we still have jet lag!...
im already missing Oz...
it sometimes seems that the more you give people something, the less they apreciate it...
...I wonder how we can get out of the Arky zone...
or at least the inlaw zone...
before I get bugged for paying more for groceries...
the more that you give, the more they want...
and Im miserably bored and getting out of shape...
when I could be swimming in the ocean!
watched a good movie called "Fair Game" with Naomi Watts and Sean Penn during


our very corrupt Bush administration. It was just the way I thought when we

suddenly invaded Iraq based on a lie (WMDS) in 2003! it is scary if these

republicans get into office again! our country could be in perpetual war (for

oil)
I thought that this would be a good day... and it was ... well, at least above average if not to be turned around by the inlaws...
and then learning to cope and make peace with the ice queen...
and then let myself be understood.
i guess none of my better half's family understand what we are trying to get through
jet lag......
today I make the meal with rice with baked beans, celery, and it was a big hit..
at least with the compliments...
but then understanding why a to whom it may concern: letter...
about making a meal...
so I do that...
but i guess the artic temperature vibes ... that start off  with reading the letter..
i suppose instigated with the noise that we were making...
going down hill sunday morning when I have to sleep on the fold out Poppa in law's den...
and wake up to them both staring at me when i sleep in till 930...
ok.,,  i guess that its tough for anyone to have guests...
but the sooner the better we find our own place
and before u know it...
we'll be o…

forgive my brainstorming, but Im filled with thoughts, and it all needs editing...

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May 3, 2011, 9:52 AM

… as if my parents (guardian angels were speaking to me)..
Fantastic ideas came to me … but yesterday I found some herb hidden away in my car for a rainy day... and maybe that was the catalyst for all of this...and the sun was beaming into my inlaws house
giving us all a respite from this deluge of rain that has been following us to both hemispheres of the globe... there was flooding in Oz and now there's flooding in the Ozarks...
 and then when I was talking to angela after playing with Colin....she said that I have lots of great ideas but what comes to fruition?.. I told her that I've  always had this dream/vision of living on the beach
and bringing up a family (if I were to have one of my own) in our little Shangri La (could be Mermaid Beach)...and so now I shouldnt feel guilty about just devoting the next couple of years to being good parents for our son until the $ runs out..
I realize that folks with ADD can often be dreamers... they have visions but m…

like Bay of Pigs!

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what president would play the best game of chess??... and finally to have the strength and ability to make the right decision in the heat of the moment... when u have the moment to checkmate your opponent and not lose on the chance to have victory

watching the Kennedy's , seeing JFK making decisions in the same way that Obama has called on his ghosts of past prezs to help him...

Ding Dong! Bin Laden is dead! Now let's get out of the middle east!

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I just heard it could have been an unmanned plane! I found out it was a group of commandos and there were no American deaths! only lost a helicopter...its nice to finally feel something good about our country... Fox  news (the right wing corporate controlled news station) misspelled his name Usama Bin Laden...
 Now lets give peace a chance!
 
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