Showing posts from March, 2011
another morning as i come to the reality that im in another perhaps stronger (?) life and it could be more fullfilling than the last half...perhaps it could be an enlightenment/renaissance...
getting over the little things in life that hinder me from enjoying life...

yeh im weird or a nice more flattering term could be eccentric as I have my own little world...and my own philosophy of how best to live love....
the reality of the earth from my conciousness ...(as i watch another good movie on Oz TV.. they have the best almost uninterupted movies at night  ...) with Gerard Depardieu and Katherine Deneuve
i slept from about 5 till 10pm!! my hours are weird but then i can relate to the hours that Winston Churchill had. He wrote his most inspiring speeches
  to the British when they were invaded by the Nazis after having long naps in the evening..and wake up to do his best writing...
more and more I realize how it is so important to spend time with my son as i prepare him to live in this …
"Why does every man of any age post a pic of themselves standing half naked in the mirror admiring whatever kind of crazy body they own?"  quote from fat and crazy exgf... I suppose it's better than getting fat, outta shape and sick in the head like most middle aged crazies!


it cost me 60 mbs to publish these pics to the cyberworld....
its about 930 and perhaps the powers that be above us(?) wanted us to share
the bed and angela was actually trying to kid around....
we were making the best out a blackout happening around 730...a blackout only for our apartment...
and it was kinda like an adventure...with the only power in the laptop and the mobile phone flashlight!!
so much has happened over the weekend...
with us all competing for Mermaid Beach... feeling part of a team...more so than I have since college and high school...
letting my body get into the best shape swimming wise that it has been in a long while..
at the party last night we all had an awards ceremony where the medals were given out.. I wasnt expecting to get any and was so happy when everyone cheered for us getting the bronze medal (3rd) in the surf swim relay ( for a combined of 0ver 150 for 3 people!)

the vibes at the ceremony in our downstairs club were so positive and supportive... I…

Cheers to Kipling!

 Thanks, Rudyard, for capturing the spirit of a champion so well with your eloquence!... for  showing what we humans have inside of us and then carrying this instinct from millions of our ancestors as we were coming down from the trees learning/evolving  to survive against all odds..
"If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

( i had done so much writing in a creative way only for it to be erased when the blog of writing freezes... knowing that I have the strength, heart, endurance and cunning to go the distance winning my race along my rip that I claim for myself on saturday!!!
visualizing swimming out the rip... figuring the general outlay of the rips and the banks...
wondering if Greg and I could scout it all out before the big races on saturday and figure on the strength of the waves...(the waves were extra large and ch…
today, i actually thought that i would do poorly and then was pleasantly surprised when i finished hard in the tube rescue race to come in 5th.. and then 8th in the surf race in the Queensland titles!

  these event were at Kurrawa (Broadbeach) just down a km. on the beach!
  I guess, sometimes the best moments are visiting with good friends... doing a good body surf into the break visiting them both while out in the rip on the most gorgeous day in a long while..
it was hot and so the perfect place on this day was out on my beach with our tent...
and visiting with great mate and chat about yarns... as our lives intertwine... other good friends his age as we come to terms with our mortality....
and seeing other come and go, but I see the familiar faces of this little community by the sea... where the center of activity is the surf club...
we all go for a race sunday morning with coffee laterupstairs in the club seeing the sun and shimmer over the warm25 deg. sea

opened up the barbecue this avo and invited a professional tennis coach over from Ocean st.
after chatting out on the tent... had tasty chicken with chinese sauce, dim sims, fries and vegetable all grilled with we chatted and drank a couple of beers... it was the nicest atmosphere...
So you think the child-men of today will grow up one day?

Yes. Absolutely. I think most child-men will grow up. And they are growing up. I hear stories all the time of the Maxim-reading-beer-pong-playing-frat-boy who turns out by thirty to be a mensch of a guy. But the danger is this: that guy, if he's waiting until his early thirties to become a mensch, the women who are his age are in a different place than he is. Also, to get back to the biology, it is simply a fact that men have an increasing pool of available women as they get older, and women have a diminishing pool. And that's just math. On average, men are more interested in younger women, but not older women.

Another bit of math affecting preadulthood: 58 percent of our college grads are women, which means a great deal of women are going to have a hard time finding a college-educated spouse. And many women don't want to marry "down." Will they do so in the future? I suspect that a lot of them will decid…
Sometimes, u are struggling against the waves… and u just have to shift over to find where the currents will take u to where u wanna go…

Go with the flow, honey… and ull see our home with sun shining down on her!!
colin kept us both up last night, insisting on sleeping between us... so continually waking up to his little feet kicking me in the back didnt help me get the needed rest to assure victory...
and we didnt get the early morning warmup to test the conditions with Stu and the crew as they swam out...
but even so I came in 3rd 12 secs behind an early starter who started 3 minutes ahead of my handicap...
I  could have swum a little bit farther over back towards the flags, so that I could have caught the winning wave and not be stuck in the hole!
a free coffee at the club was my prize!
I have patrol this avo and hopefully  will stay awake on this overcast day!
Happy wife, happy life

Watching the surf swim race..

Wishing my teammate was with me enjoying the struggles, vicissitude,

And triumphs…

Seeing and treating both of these impostors the same (thanks to Rudyard)..

The race will be on at 820

Ill have a 3:30 handicapp

And I will need to be up 2 hours early doing my home work , scouting the possible 2 or 3 rips that could take us to 25 to 50 meter row of buoys…

Figuring out which spot is the best to take our winning wave together…

The shallowest sandbank to help the wave take us to victory!!
"Take Your Time

I have a friend who rushes out to the mailbox to retrieve her mail and then rips it open impatiently. We laughed the other day about this and thought maybe she could walk slowly to the mailbox, breathe while getting there, maybe look at the trees and sky, too. It's not like the contents of the mail are going to change before she gets there! There is always reason to rush through things, always something to tend to in life, and we could work until the wee hours of the morning and still never get it all done. It took me years to understand that, but my life has changed profoundly since I have."
from Huffpo

In the end, is anyone going to say, "I wish I'd worked more"? I honestly don't think so. Take time to breath  to enjoy a laugh or a moment with friends and family and take in the beauty of nature and the richness of slowing down. Your body will thank you.
March 18, 2011, 2:41 PM
 probably the biggest thing that ive been thinking about is how to help my family the most ,…. At this point, I just want us to be safe, well fed and happy… the last challenge is of course the most difficult… I can swim in the most gorgeous blue ocean and then come home my better half crying… I get frustrated that time is passing us by without really enjoying life without all the drama…

In my many relationships of the past, when I love someone I would feel their pain…because I loved them so much… especially with Alene and I tried to save her… and couldn’t…

Im often just in a state of denial with so much pain in my life… when I face it and write about it, it helps me get past or underneath this painful wave…

To where the water is warm and clean clear blue and im looking at sun shine on my beach with such warmth…

And then just let myself be deluded (?) into thinking we have purpose on this life…

Maybe we can do something fantastic that we can be proud of…
 and t…
spent a large part of today body surfing putting off all the things I have to to do... just to live on the paying them 3000 just for council rates to live here!! never a free lunch... well at least we dont have to deal with tsunamis, ....yet.
aah to be a kid again!... discovering new experiences everyday...i want to give everything to my son that I missed out... namely living on the beach would have been the best present my parents could have given me...nothing matches this in my life... anxious each morning to run out and check out the surf...just body surfing the waves and then have brekkie with my family out in the morning sun before my older bro and I walked or skipped to school... singin Puff the magic dragon lived by the sea... this little boy of yesteryear had no clue that a middle aged man would be longing to play by the sea... he wakes up 45 years later RIP VAN BEACH BUM how long can this go on... sell the house in okiehoma and hang out for a little while longer renewing our holiday visa.. get off my ass and become Aussie by descent (100% Queenland Aussie parents)
this would make me the happiest old man on the beach..if not the fastest on the beach..

catching that rip with my teamates...
I knew that I had the best spot…
March 13, 2011, 1:46 AM, I went to sleep thoughtlessly thinking I’ll just nod off for a few minutes while colin naps on me before I take him to the cot, but alas , I fall asleep for a few hours and now can t get back to sleep in anticipation of our surf swim race at 820 this morning! Low tide will be at 930 so the course might not be as tough as it is when its closer to high tide… so maybe I
Might have a chance, if take the power play that u can do once a season…so ill take 45 secs off my handicap and then?? Free brekkie for 2nd time in a season?? With anticipation of the state titles in 2 weeks!!

another way of destroying anything good for the common people!

stumble WASHINGTON — House Republicans will "lead with our chin" and offer politically explosive cost curbs this spring on programs like Medicare, Medicaid and perhaps Social Security, the party's point man for curbing crippling budget deficits said Thursday.

Even then, Rep. Paul Ryan acknowledged, the government's budget still won't balance for quite some time.
In a wide-ranging interview with The Associated Press, the Wisconsin lawmaker and chairman of the House Budget Committee said the House Republicans' budget proposal for the 2012 fiscal year that begins Oct. 1 will propose fundamental changes to Medicare and Medicaid, the giant health care programs that cover 100 million Americans and whose combined costs rival the defense budget.
Ryan offered no specifics, saying details are still being hashed out.

Ryan, 41, a rising figure in the GOP, has been tasked with both schooling the 87 new Republican freshmen on the brain-numbing intricacies of the budget and…
Court Attention at all Cost

Everything is judged by its appearance; what is unseen counts for nothing. Never let yourself get lost in the crowd, then, or buried in oblivion. Stand out. Be conspicuous, at all cost. Make yourself a magnet of attention by appearing larger, more colorful, more mysterious, than the bland and timid masses.

I was looking at the 48 laws of Power, and I thought the only one that I use when Im at my peak is this one….

Yes, M, Im a little narcissistic... I love the game...the race...the passion and just being the best I can be... and fight off old age..
If you can dream - and not make dreams your master,

If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same; If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken, And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings And never breath a word about your loss; If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew To serve your turn long after they are gone, And so hold on when there is nothing in you Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch, If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you, If all men count with you, but none too much; If you can fill the unforgiving minute With …
meanwhile in the fast failing & falling empire
far across the angry seas..
pushed on by greedy power hungry republicons taking the "starve the beast" method of destroying the middle class and profiting the very rich and powerful corporations!:

WASHINGTON -- In a bold gambit to put an end to the weeks-long budget standoff in Wisconsin, Gov. Scott Walker (R) split his controversial budget-repair bill in two on Wednesday, allowing the Senate to pass the most hotly contested provisions while their 14 Democratic colleagues remained out of state.

The parliamentary maneuver, first reported by local press, allowed the anti-collective bargaining measure to pass with just Republican support. Under Wisconsin law a 3/5s quorum is needed for a statute that is fiscal in nature. No such quorum is needed for non-fiscal matters.

It was also a 180-degree reversal by Walker and state Senate Republicans, who have insisted for the past three weeks that the collective bargaining provision was d…

sounds like walker and Karl Rove should get together if they havent already in following the 10 steps to "starving the beast" and bankrupting america, so we will be at the mercy of the corporations when we become the banana republic, that the think tanks of the rich and powers that be have decided as the stategy... and then??

are we heading for a world govt owned by big business and the military industrial complex (as eisenhower prophetically predicted and warned Americans about)??
often I dont want to think about the very scary world my son is inheriting... so i like to escape those overwhelming thoughts of what we can do and just focus on the surf handicap swim race tomorrow morning at 820!