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I can't help thinking about the tremendous debt that we are creating with this war..
How does this government whether it 's Republican or Democrat justify building such a debt for these wars!!
(it's just giving me chest pains thinking of all this tension and debt that I feel like paying for and letting my son take over this debt!!
I need to speed up the process for us becoming dual citizens or my druthers
I would want to just let Colin growing up Australian!!
It makes me feel good that he was born in Oz (that's half the battle for him becoming an Aussie)!
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(picture from a very similar topography from Nimbin, NSW!)
still wakin' up to hillbillitis as winter approaches...
all I can dream about is our family in Oz in summer!!
enjoying the beach before the inevitable tsunami takes
most of the beach away...
as our once and future president causes Colin's other country to sink
further into our modern Vietnam...
I have to get away from this right wing fundamentalist thinking that voted for the idiot that got us into 2 wars and has held this country hostage for almost a decade
we are not just in one war but two!!
and the media never approaches the real reason behind these wars!!
to profit Cheney and Bush's oil rich buddies and families!!
the Mafia of politics!! 30 thousand more troops will go there ! that is 30k x a million $
Don't get me started...
I just want our family to escape the Arkie Zone and have our own peaceful low carbon imprint from this mess!
I had an argument this morning with my Christian mother in law...
she believes in Jesus b…
each time I have a lot of things that I want to say,
there is no puter near by...
time to get another puter...
after my disaster..
now the choice of our destiny
and our family's future
is in limbo...
my honey wants to have xmas with her family...
I just down want my birthday
in Hillbillville
I see me in the surf two weeks from now!!
It's Sunday with my mates of Ocean street
celebrating my 54th in our little Paradise..
the icing on the cake would be Colin and my honey cheering me on along with my mates!! what a day that would be!!
I would be the one happiest men over 50
at least out of the Okie and Arkie Zones!
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the weather is beautiful at least here in hillbilly country
while I sneak off to relieve myself and have a little buzz
I'm as usual in a decision limbol...
well for me the choice is obvious..
to deal with the possibility of living with this extended family..
cousin Sally suggests I rent
but that makes me almost blow a stack
and perhaps say things that I'll regret
that bitter side of my mouth has hurt more folks than any other part of my physical apperture...
I try to imagine when I was happiest...
was it when I had a variety of beautiful personalities in and out of my life ?
until our living habits, behavior and ultimately our personalities
got on each others' nerves??
and I would need my current cave/closet to hide away from the reality that I did not enjoy...
I had to escape....
we might become bored
or just plain tired of the situation..
bring up these children not related to me would not be an inevitability
but often when I was with my new found families of my ex-gfs
..well I need to go…
It's really scary that Bush's former press secretary really believed this!!

"CommentsDana Perino, recently nominated by President Obama to the Broadcasting Board of Governors, made an odd claim Tuesday night.
"We did not have a terrorist attack on our country during President Bush's term," she told Sean Hannity. "I hope they're not looking at this politically. I do think that we owe it to the American people to call it what it is."

It frightens me that these right wing lunatic can hold this country hostage for another decade!

Black (dog) Friday

whenever I visit with my good mate(oz lingo) and muse, Charles, I seem to be at a crossroads with plenty of herbal epiphanies...
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I checked out my tenants' home
and felt like the 3 ghosts of xmas past had possibly visited me the night before without my knowledge...
Cannabized dreams are the best after a long hiatus from good bud...
It was great to visit the street that I habitated half my life...
It would be so nice to do a documentary (time lapsed photography) with interludes into the lives of my closet cannabizing neighbors of 83rd street..
This forbidden formosa tree is still surviving after being cut in hald..
it still gives my old abode an appearance of being semi sub tropical...
I feel like I experienced relationships and friendships coming and going like a movie/documentary flashing before my eyes...
well, my son, Colin has just run over to me, so I'll talk to u in a while..

"Overcoming Creative Anxiety
by Eric Maisel Already enrolled?


(I thought that I might do a cut and pas…
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I was browsing or getting my daily fix of Huffpo and saw Katie Kouric (50) gettin it on the dance floor... I remember goin middle age crazy at Danny's Blues Saloon (where midnight manic motorbike maniacs love to hang out, dance and fight)... I'd be the male version of her...
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all I can say is I miss the beach and the Ocean street gang! ... getting pumped up for the morning surf swim race!!
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walkabout in misory....
my infiniti went off a little track...
1-44 instead of 71N.... so why not check out the beaches is this state of mizory along the many man made lakes of the Ozarks!!




Buffy and me
on another little adventure...
wonderful to meet LA and Muffy again Butterfly effect:this wouldn't have happened maybe I would be a different person and this blog wouldn't never have been created?? Maybe I would never have become a father...' and I would be miserable and alone... Instead I am often miserable but don't we love company?? It's wonderful not to be alone!! sharing moments with friends and family are the best moments... I lost all the sentences about Buffy being so happy..dancing the way Snoopy does in his comics when he is the happiest dog lying on top of his dog house with his circle of friends.. his little bird chick family!!
and see Buffy re bond with the family again!!

Maybe eventually my ole friends can meet Colin waking up to a new dawn of civilization and peacefu…

"'Zombie Buildings': Are They The Next Economic Calamity? "

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"While the overall U.S. financial system is showing signs of stability, a rapidly rising tide of troubled loans for commercial real estate threatens the survival of hundreds of the nation's small and medium-sized banks.

Financial reports this month from federal regulators and industry analysts detail a new cycle of uncertainty that they fear could cripple the economic recovery. Billions of dollars in commercial debt will have to be paid back or refinanced at a time when property values have plummeted. About $500 billion will come due in 2010 alone and an equal amount every year through at least 2012, according to the Federal Reserve.



Many banks that cater to regional and community developments were largely unscathed by the residential mortgage meltdown. But now they are facing huge numbers of possible defaults by builders who erected thousands of office towers, condominiums and shopping centers with the easy credit available five years ago. With few tenants, those developments …

"im growing old at the sea"

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I was listening to these songs and they all seemed to relate to me...

I get so frustrated with myself more than anybody...

It's my own fault and ODD (organizational deficit disorder)

that it takes me forever to get out of a place....

leaving a trail of disgust and contempt....

so why worry??

I'll just go for a swim in the beautiful Pacific!!

and hopefully Colin and company will come with me...

ASS BACKWARDS

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Hooray for the military!! It's about time these right wing nuts were put in their place... this nasty, crazy , lying lady actually believes she has a chance to become president! ...well I never thought that that idiot, Dubya, had any chance whatso ever, so who knows?? Notice in the pictures and clips that she has an all white audience!

"RALEIGH, N.C. — The U.S. Army plans to prevent media from covering Sarah Palin's appearance at Fort Bragg, fearing the event will turn into political grandstanding against President Barack Obama, officials said Thursday.

Fort Bragg spokesman Tom McCollum told The Associated Press that the military post's garrison commander and other Army officials had decided to keep media away from Palin's book signing, which will not include a speech.

The AP and The Fayetteville Observer were protesting the decision to ban media.

McCollum said the Army did not want the Monday event to become a platform to express political opinions "directed aga…

FOX (FAKE) NEWS

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Last week, Jon Stewart and The Daily Show caught Fox News' Sean Hannity running old footage of September Tea Party crowds in an attempt to make Michele Bachmann's smaller November Tea Party shindig appear to be more well-attended than it was. Is Fox up to the same tricks today? Faiz Shakir at ThinkProgress thinks so, and he pulls a segment that seems to tout the crowds that greeted Sarah Palin on the stump during the 2008 campaign as throngs that are gathering to purchase Sarah Palin's book, Going Rogue.

In the clip below, watch as Fox anchor Gregg Jarrett describes "pictures just coming into us" as "huge crowds" that have amassed while Palin is "promoting her new book." The pictures that are supposedly "just coming in" are actually year-old video from the presidential campaign:


Last week, Jon Stewart and The Daily Show caught Fox News' Sean Hannity running old footage of September Tea Party crowds in an attempt to make Mich…
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I miss the land of Oz so much!
where our son Colin was born...
I just wish my wife felt the same way!!
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420 in Oz!!

Newsbusters.org as usual loves to give it out but cant take it!

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Jon Stewart Trashes Sean Hannity For Apologizing To Him
By Noel Sheppard November 13, 2009 - 15:20

Comedy Central's Jon Stewart absolutely trashed Sean Hannity on Thursday's "The Daily Show."

What was Hannity's crime this time?
( Comrade Sheppard runs Newsbuster like the Pravda was run under Stalin!)
Well, the Fox News personality actually apologized to Stewart for a mistake that was made in a "Hannity" segment aired last week and "reported" by "The Daily Show" host on his program Tuesday.

Rather than graciously accepting Hannity's apology, Stewart attacked him with a segment that included a "young," 22-year old producer -- having aged 50 to 60 years watching "Hannity" the last five months -- asking Stewart to kill him so he wouldn't have to watch any more (video embedded below the fold with transcript):

so of course, it's perfectly alright for fox to rig the news or more like propaganda to fit their agenda …
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showing this pic probably exhibits my licentious animal desires.. yeh... don't we all wish we could be that age again partying in college like there is no tomorrow
an innocent adolesence missing out on all the depravity and sin... missing out on all the fun... so you fantasize about being Benjamin Button!
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I guess so many of us deal with depression, sadness or deep brooding at some point in our lives..
I think we need to just figure out daily rituals to deal with this
"Black Dog"!
if you are just laying there brooding(perseverating)...
about this heavy dog on your soul at 32o or 420 in the morning I would more likely call this dog gray!....
instead of laying there with this heavy bitch on your sould, go outside and grab the natural high of endorphins
run in the grass or if you are lucky enough to be living on the beach feel the sand and surf cool your feet... watch the sunrise on a new day!!


let the fresh air cool your heated body as you coast down that hill on your mountain bike...
or better yet body surf that big wave...
as the new sun reaches over the horizon!!

yep.....
I wonder why so many of friends and ex friends have to deal with this black/gray canine.??.. either with alcohol, sedatives, man made pharmaceuticals... or the healthier alternative
a cannabis cookie with some mocha at the…
Sure would be nice to have this cafe in town!! Have a cappucino and some bud...hmmm...maybe a game of chess and some intellectual conversation...
Maybe discuss how Obama can loosen up the rules for cannabizing in the US...
I'm sure Oz would be soon to follow!




First U.S. marijuana cafe opens in Portland
Sat Nov 14, 2009 7:36am EST
By Dan Cook
PORTLAND, Oregon (Reuters) - The United States' first marijuana cafe opened on Friday, posing an early test of the Obama administration's move to relax policing of medical use of the drug.

The Cannabis Cafe in Portland, Oregon, is the first to give certified medical marijuana users a place to get hold of the drug and smoke it -- as long as they are out of public view -- despite a federal ban.

"This club represents personal freedom, finally, for our members," said Madeline Martinez, Oregon's executive director of NORML, a group pushing for marijuana legalization.

"Our plans go beyond serving food and marijuana," said Mart…

FRIDAY THE 13TH!! another beautiful day in autumn!

We have to look at things positively
I saw "Point Break" last night. I think it was the best surfing movie...
of course there haven't been many...
among them,
the worst in the world, "Surfer Dude!"
All it did was make me miss Mermaid Beach even more!
I think it was Patrick Swayze's best movie...
but how prophetic of this actor to die at such a young age, loving life!
I can't do the cut and pastes with the in laws' puter...
these lazy cloudy depressed days..
as the days get shorter
and the more depressing nightfall arrives sooner
drinking my mocha mixture and then some warm chai tea...
trying to get a tiny buzz
while I look for my reading glasses
in my attention deficit disorganized state..
Colin has woken up from our nap
but he's whining for his freedom and pursuit of freedom and happiness
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i wonder if Homer would be happier all alone
with no responsibilities...
or tied up with all of his friends and families??
which is better??
Originally my only worry was Buffy and who could I share my life with??.



I wonder how many middle aged men are happy or at least feel fulfilled...
Homer is not alone...
but is he happy
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aye, that is the question
would Homer feel happier with no worries ??
or in the constant companionship of all of his worries, resposibilites and judgements??
yep... the curse continues...
from loneliness to living with the in laws...
which hell is worse??
I have a feeling that somewhere out there, I might have a couple readers/ friends who can laugh with me rather than at me...
why do I put myself through this...
just yesterday , I was feeling pretty good

and then I wake up debating about sneaking outside to take a leak
and there is Daddy in law
walking outside on such a beautiful day with Colin "Joe" (as he affectionately calls him)
I'm waiting for this old ex world triathlete to kick my butt in cycling...
today , I'm staying way ahead of him coming down the hill...
I think that I can take the 90 degree turn to the left...
I lose my confidence and run off into the grass on the other side...
wondering if I'm gonna crash....
I manage not to but my ass takes the majority of the beating..
Now as I type in frustration,
my ass is hurting...

he's a cunning competitive old coot
eager for vindication the next morning
" we are leaving …
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Last night I dreamed that I came in 2nd in the surf swim handicap race...
all I can think about is heading back there to where my son was born...
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I suppose this blog has been semi anonymous, but still I fear exposing my innermost thoughts...
fears that my relatives, in laws or friends will see what I worry about...
my pleasures, my carnal desires...
eventually, these thoughts will come out of the closet ..
with this delusional desire of writing a book...
a collection at this point of my in the various stages of my mid life

Wanna picture?

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It'll last longer, mate!
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all I know is that life is too short..
and even shorter if y0u have an eternity to think about your short time on this minute speck of earth's geologic era...
scientifically thinking, this is it...
but just in case our conciousness goes on in either heaven or hell..
wouldn't we want to enjoy every short moment on this earth??

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He's walking and talking!!
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Colin Murray Garvald is walking soon he will be talking at least in the language we understand.. (he communicates to us talking to as if we should already understand him!)