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I love a sunburnt country,
A land of sweeping plains,
Of ragged mountain ranges,
Of droughts and flooding rains.
I love her far horizons,
I love her jewel-sea
Her beauty and her terror—
The wide brown land for me

yep.... this is where it's at.... Michael Jackson died of heart failure at 50...a few years younger than me... I need to enjoy it... while I'm here and still not too old!!
love a sunburnt country, A land of sweeping plains, Of ragged mountain ranges, Of droughts and flooding rains. I love her far horizons, I love her jewel-sea Her beauty and her terror— The wide brown land for me love a sunburnt country, A land of sweeping plains, Of ragged mountain ranges, Of droughts and flooding rains. I love her far horizons, I love her jewel-sea Her beauty and her terror— The wide brown land for me
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I know that I get into these shades of limbo...
same ole shit...
cept Im spending $45 a day, because of my laziness and inability to take care of business
staying at a little town (I cant say the town since crazy lady has threatened to send her hitman dad after me).... her whole family is crazy ...
so I actually believe that she and her criminal father are nuts enough to put a contract on me...
for what??
I made the mistake of visiting her once thinking for some crazy reason that we had a child together..
she refused to talk to me ...
I have never seen a woman turn so nasty with time...
she was an angel...
shows what bartendressing can do for a woman...
I believe it often turns women into raging hostile monsters!
Everything seemed cool when my family escaped to Oz,
but then I made the mistake of looking her up on twitter..
this made her nuts and decided to sick her whole family on me (she does a wonderful job of manipulating her friends and family) she has hacked into my email and (talk about stalk…
another day in the Rockies without getting published...
I dunno why Im writing...looking for myreading glasses...since laser surger several years ago, I cant see as well close up..
but now I can see far away but better with glasses...so they didnt make the eyes perfect for either way...
I wonder if I should have just had one eye done...
and then a pair of glasses for driving...
hmmm, oh well...
then I blog out of my hypochondria for floaters in my eye...
is it old age or the bump on the head while body surfing..
ok...Im gonna see if this gets published...and then Ill try one more time to reach LA!!
I might as well write a post...while listening to songs in this little town on top of the world...
I guess, it's not getting published for now...
so I've had to resort to twitter to get my thoughts.... good/evil ...out there
while I could be the potential victim of a hitman,
the father of a witch I once dated??
does curiosity kill??
just wanting to know whats up with 1 of my many exes....
unfortunately, there could be COSA NOSTRA connections!!
I guess I have to be careful about what pictures I put on the net...
some crazy person has put my picture on the net
with her hitman daddy coming after me...
did i say something wrong...
amazing how some folks are sensitive to being greeted on twitter...
nothing worse than a woman scorned..
oh well
pax ubiscum
Fantastic!! I made it to the Hostel...
Pancho is the caretaker of the nice warm place...it is the warmest spot in this high altitude village in the Rockies....
it is a such a strong difference to this town and Utopachi... a renamed village in the high desert (about 6500 feet) nestled next to Narbonne mountains...
I've had some nice comments from some of my animated readers..
I checked out twitter and sometimes some folks don't want you to read their daily sentences on twitter......
twitter is a government changing process, however, with the bloke that was running for president was ripped off in the election...
kinda the way , Gore was rightfully elected with the most popular vote...but that doesn't matter in our potential Banana Republic!!

wow...that's a coctail of ADD and herb...I even tried some addaboy today ...but that increases my blood pressure....it was up to 150/90's....yesterday without the coffee...it was as low as 110/70's!! I had no coffee yesterday
It was great to see Eliazar and Monica!!
That is the wonderful thing about friends!!
It was great to see the continuing saga go on here in Utopachi!!
June 18, 2009 Like Rasputin, the unhinged "Mad Monk" whom they sometimes seem to have adopted as an intellectual role model, the neoconservatives who brought us the Iraq war refuse to die. Although they have been figuratively stabbed, poisoned, shot, garroted and drowned, they somehow keep standing, still insisting that history will vindicate George W. Bush's glorious crusade. In a world governed by the Victorian moral code conservatives claim to uphold, they would be shunned, shamed and forbidden to appear on television or write Op-Ed columns. But because Beltway decorum apparently requires that disgraced pundits be given a permanent platform to bray their discredited theories, the rest of us are condemned to listen to their ravings.What caused the neocons and their fellow travelers on the right to sit up in their coffins this time is the almost certainly rigged Iran election and the massive unrest that has roiled the country in its aftermath. Outraged that Obama has n…
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Chatting with Mark, the bartender and senior at Ft. Lewis, working at the Strather Hotel est. 1887


G goes on the elevator that is still the same one since Otis invented them around the turn of the last century....he goes downstairs and then back
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I sometimes go through ups and downs too...
so does everybody./..
just some more than others..
whenever I suggest meds...
defensively my beautiful half says
"YOu need to see a psychologist!"

I am happy she is happier now with her family...
I probably won't be posting for a while to pick up my Dad's old infinity..
and drive it back to hillbilly country...take care of business in the okie zone and maybe pick up some paintings..
Life can be positive!!



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I learned some pretty hard lessons in life...
I could easily get down on myself, which I did this rainy afternoon...two weeks after arriving in this country...settling down into just bumming in the hills of the Ozarks...'
I was boo hooing into a hypoglygemic depressed state...I was in the Niagra falls of self pity..
her son must think I am totally goofy...
You wouldn't believe my stash ws picked out of my pocket and he took it with him to the cot...
and it was all over the bed..
the whole family heard...
I am too embarassed to even talk about it on this blog...but fuck it..Im not gonna teach this year and no employers would look at this...only maybe relatives ...who Im too embarassed for them to see my innermost secrets on this blog...
my inlaws would probably freak...but the Dad shows the herb but still wants to hide it from his son...
it sounds so familiar ...
closet cannabis smokers passing judgement on others...when they know it's safer that cigarettes and alcohol...
well I clean…
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Some days, I really feel there is light at the end of the tunnel...

Especially when I see the light in my son's eyes...

especially when he looks at me...all the relatives in America love him... I smile at him and he giggle with glee when he smiles at me..

when I speak and he listens to every word...never has someone listened so intently to what I often think are boring words... he loves me... I am so lucky!!

I want to spend my life being with him as a father.... I want to live his world and help him enjoy what is out there...

Carpe Diem, Colin Murray!
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I'm gonna pray to the universe that my laptop will working before I take my next walkabout!!

I suppose there is a down side to the verbal aspects of cannabizing...
the way I communicate might be hampered in one aspect of the relationship...
I just want someone to listen to me...
Maybe that's one of the biggest reasons for relationships to end...
It saddens me all the heartbreak in discovering myself...
the ADD mixed w/bipolar love...
she loves me.
she love me not..
I love her
I love her not..

Sometimes, while a little delusional, I could see how happy I could be...
"ou gotta love the one your with"..
but many times, I think that this is just too much possible BALL AND CHAIN LOVE THAT ANY SINGLE NON COMMITAL BACHELOR could tolerate??

It was nice of my new dad to able to help connect with some of the local family's homegrown veggies...
nothing like greens in the south to lift up your spirits...
and motivate my writing hoping that the regulars from Brisbane, Indepence Missouri and some of the other little towns that were my haunts of bachelorhood...
sometimes, I think that I&#…
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sometimes I just wanna say "fuck it" as gracefully as I can to the angry world... but then...

sometimes the gift of a little mojo magic
is the best spice for a relationship...
add it to your meal...
and it might not tempt you into tasting the most delicious moments...
Thanks...

What if God really loves Cannabis.....
It can really change your view of the world...
instead of just turning your ass to the world,

What if God told everyone (maybe just in their dreams) that it's the herb of peace, love and visions of a utopian ever after???

folks in power could have the most wonderfully beautiful and sometime erotic dreams... and maybe they could solve world peace, hunger, greed, etc... yep if we all just could grow a little...
couldn't people be happier and less angry??

just when I was thinking there was very little chance.... along comes a little magic!!

waddya think??
Isn't a picture sometimes worth at least a thousand words??
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I loved these images what mother nature can do to a beach...the fence was gonna go the next evening...'
I wish that I had seen the huge waves take away the fence to our backyard vegetation!!

Ill put in some pics of the cliff created by the storm Saturday evening, during high tide...




Maybe my wife will change her mind...maybe a little of the love machine might convince her how rough it might be without a little of the magic mojo I still have!!....;)

roll your eyes...
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We stayed at a beautiful little motel...
with our baby, I had to wake up early so I decided to check out the sun come up over the mountains very early in the morning...
Mt. Warning is on the left...It is the caldera of a very ancient caldera when Australia was part of the mass continet...
I took this sequence of photos...
It would be wonderful to live out here...
The place had a beautiful home for sale with verandas surrounding the house...
There is a beautiful outside dining area with this gorgeous view..
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I feel when my sweetheart and I get it together, we will be able to enjoy life even more... we will get the right help and the right meds for our minds to process more efficiently.. we will be more relaxed and get into the joie de vivre!!
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I will add some more pics of our trip soon...
This was the beautiful tent we stayed in the Nimbin Youth hostel...
It had a fantastic view...
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Again I'm at a crossroads in my life...
I have to make some big decisions now about me and our family...
I have to think what is best for the family but still be able to enjoy life while Im still young at heart
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"Taking a Time OutYou Are Not Crazy
Most of us feel a little crazy from time to time. Periods of high stress can make us feel like we’re losing it, as can being surrounded by people whose values are very different from our own. Losing a significant relationship and moving into a new life situation are other events that can cause us to feel off kilter. Circumstances like these recur in our lives, and they naturally affect our mental stability. The symptoms of our state of mind can range from having no recollection of putting our car keys where we eventually find them, to wondering if we’re seeing things clearly when everyone around us seems to be in denial of what’s going on right in front of their eyes. For most of us, the key to survival at times like these is to step back, take a deep breath, and regain our composure. Then we can decide what course of action to take. Sometimes a time-out does the trick. We take a day off from whatever is making us feel crazy and, like magic, we …