I thought that this passion flower could symbolize happiness!

The photo epiphenously became the symbol for happiness for me!



I looked at the passionate colors of the flower the image just oozed joy and love....



It symbolized enjoying life in the many different ways we play..

PLAY



helps our souls bloom, flower and self actualize...
I was feeling it so much being in the zone of the largest most beautiful wave...



my new mate caught it together...



it was so symbolic of my feelings...



I felt part of the ocean!







I was self actualizing with the just being in the zone of the wave...



It was like "Zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance""



This was even better...I was one with the nature ....using its power to carry me fast and fly through the waters....It was the best feeling this whole trip!"





the natural waves of the sea....



So many of these life guard veterans and experienced surfers have the knowledge and expertise about the variance of the daily surf!



It is a science!

It was so wonderful to share the same passion with other club members
body surfing in the Sea
we all do it with glea
and the body surface made Barrack the candidate for me...
aging men and women all remembering how to play as we all wait to catch the best waves
like kids on a playground at Water World...
this natural fun roller coaster ride is free
and we were all surfing close to King Tide and the Full Moon...
this is happiness...

learing how to play again and sharing the fun with new playmates in a new welcoming community....
I feel more at home here and in the surf than I have ever felt before!!
I can get down about the psychological trauma of parenting...
but then my wife and child join me in the play...
they see how much I am having and can't wait to go swimming...
(that reminds me about how we need to go swimming together while we keep Colin in the stroller..of course we'll alternate taking swims....)
later on, after my honey took her avo (afternoon) nap, a great new friend of ours, Martin, walked up the beach path while I was getting some fresh air from our backyard....
he was with his boogey board...
He is a very sage man , almost Merlin esque, several years older and many kilos lighter than moi... We chatted under the shade of the koolibah tree on the lawn by the Dudley street entrane to Mermaid Beach before I invited him upstairs to see young Colin Murray Garvald...
I chatted and and he gave sage advice helping put my new life into a new found perspective...
He's a very succesful business man running a graphics company...(I still don't understand graphics>>)
He also is a wonderful father to 8 children of he and his wife....
He told me that he could remember being born!!
He believes in past lives..
I'm looking forward to chatting with him again next Friday???
I gave him a copy of my father's book, "The Creative Mind and it's origins"

It is these serendipitous meeting that appear destined to happen
almost as if someone up there is holding the puppet strings...

Him to help me and me just giving M my Dad's book!!
it makes me believe so much in synchronicity...if I would have any kind of religion/philosopy???
The last 2 days have been happier in one respect than ever..
I am really realizing that I'm in better physical condition than I have been since I bicycled "the Hotter than Hell" 100 mile bike ride in Wichita Falls, Texas!!
Was that about 14 years ago??

It is scary to think how fast that time passed and in 14 years will be that much older...I don't want to even think about doing some addition...
... Was it the last summer before Alene passed away ??/
It's painful but bittersweet when I think of those much more innocent times in summer when I was still a tennis/bicycle bum... I was walking around so proud of myself that I could ride a 100 miles on bike in 4:45 hours! Averaging over 20 miles/hour over this hot arid part of Texas!
I felt that way after realizing that I had won this race...it was too easy...

Am I that good to compete with these veteran volunteer life guards!!

I have often sunk very low thinking about the inevitability of death
and that sometimes evolves into a deadly fear of growing old...
so I do everything I can to extend any delusions of immortality...

so I win the Handicap swim with our local Mermaid Beach SurfLifesavings Club....I set off on the course after about 5 minutes from the start with a few others ...(they would determine my handicap from this race for next's weeks surf-swim
All of us would leave every minute with last strongest swimmers starting as late an 11:30 minute handicap!!

I surprised myself when I looked all around to see if there were any swimmers when I swam the tide in 3 minutes a head of the next competitor.
This lady is a school state swimming champion!
Then the others started surfing in...
I found out that I unofficially won the race but next week I would that the official handicap of 9:30!!
My wife and our child came to cheer me on....She saw me come in first and was so excited to see how fantastic shape her husband is!! The other racers all clapped with Angela, of course, cheering the loudest...I had not been in a competitive swim race in over 30 years...
I had butterflies again...but I was so relaxed...doing a little Michael Phelps behavior sure gave me delusions of becoming an age group champion!!
I had an evolving herbal induced epiphany after being reintroduce to our friendly Drag on ;)
Enjoying this natural herbal medication after the very tumultous bipolar week!!
My honey was so excited and of course had to jump my bones last night!!

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