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Ole man swim in the surf contest...I was tenth with a 9:15 handicap....Dale won with a 6 minute handicap...
He had a power play to gain the extra few minutes handicap!...(term I might explain lata)


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"So, how could you change your focus when everything seems to be going wrong, or when life gets really hard, or when you are discouraged, disgruntled, dissatisfied, or just plain scared? Any ideas?What suggestions do you have that might be helpful to those of us who are challenged with keeping a positive attitude?"




Hmmm, How can I change focus??....I go for a swim and a race with the volunteer life club team... I focus on getting in the zone of the wave...




when Im in the surf, I'm not scared....maybe just a little of a very big wave crashing me down and tumbling me all the place....and ummm, sharks!! ...I prefer this feeling of being free in the water to the thoughts that dwell in my beach abode!




I am scared when my wife needs meds...but they fuck with her body and her mind...so she goes back to her self medication of cigarettes and any alcohol laying around...I get upset and catch myself nagging her...




this only gets back into the teenage child still rebelling against her p…
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both of us must like the color, blue...
I love the Pacific and the blue sky...
I guess we must love blue
It's so much easier for the both of us when the meds start...
The sharp edge and the anxious irritability are gone..
when you polish off 4 beers in a row..(my last beers!)...it's easier to forgive you!!


This blog has been an open book for the people in my life of the past, the present and the future...
and for wayward bored surfers of the blogosphere
Will this ever turn into a book??
Where am I going with this other than just documenting my life and tying to figure out my own pursuit of happiness???...
but it's easier and more fun to share this crazy pursuit...
gotta make sure to wear our helmets...it could be a very bumpy ride!!

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It's cool seeing my blog over the years....I had no clue 5 years ago that I would be here starting a family in this Oz paradise!

Today, we went bike riding down to Little Burleigh for a swim and a beer...

Thank you, Annette, for baby sitting Colin so my soulmate could see how gorgeous this coast is by following the coast with our cycles!



Love is the irresistable desire to keep your loved ones happy!
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I love to start off my blogs under the influence of the epiphenous herb and pick a pic from the expanding collection of moments in time)...I suddenly notice in the pics how red the hair is appearing on his head...he's developing a personality...I love to see the traits of our ancestors come out in his features...we are trying to figure out his red hair...
Ang thinks it's from my krimmer side since there are no redheads in her family...
she saw how red our cousin, Sam's hair is!!

ok.....so I think sometimes we are blessed...it just depends on one's view of reality....isnt it nice to think of the "fantasy(?)" that there could be a heaven with angels actually looking down on us (don't say that in front of a shrink or she might put you away as Nurse Ratched Roberts chaufered my wife to the Robina Loony bin...sleep deprivation could maker her think
"she's an angel with powers!"...)

....how long can we be happy or is it easier to just be in the pursuit…

Escape to Nimbin Valley!

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It was so cool seeing my wife, the mother of our love child, happy again! My cousin, Sally, came to visit with her family..It was such a touch of warmth feeling the warmth of our extended family...we had been through so much...I was happy that Ang was discharged from the psych ward ...
This is a lesson to us and all readers out there to be careful what you say to shrinks when you're sleep deprived!!

Nimbin was fantastic! I met Benny Zabel, the famous resident artist of this town... He has painted the beautiful murals all over this little hippy haven in the hills of OZ!


http://www.nimbinaustralia.com/bennyzable/benny-zable-story.html













This wonderful lady helped my wife with some herbs for mood swings and focus.....it's amazing about vibes and the way good often comes out of challenging experiences!

This wonderful family invited us to stay with them in their wonderful Queenslander house that had been reerected in Nimbin with this added veranda giving the image of a much larger house..…

SINGLE FATHERHOOD!

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Boy's night out!
Ok...so I am forced to become a good father...often a good thing comes out of bad...

The fact that a trigger happy shrink, Dr. Roberts, who freaks out and decides to commit my post natally depressed wife without any regards to the trauma to her family??


My wife freaks out also just thinking that she'll have a night of r and r...(the way the shrink puts it...) she goes for a ride with the doctor to the ER room with no clue that she would be an involuntary patient committed to a coastal loony bin!!!




So Daddy and son just try to make the best of it...






I have just had some very serious intensive training into the domestic engineering of being a parent to a growing baby!! Thankyou, to my cousins, Jane and Louise to help me with the shopping and how to get a schedule going, how to wash, how to organize the house ,





just in case one of the N ozzie SSocial workers threatens to take our Colin to a foster home!

We have to show them that we are organized and overcoming our issue…

One Flew over the kookaburra's nest!

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Hey Dude, don't be afraid, "Take a sad song and make it better" Remember to let her into your heart"




What a traumatic weekend...maybe some day I will chat about it... You think the American mental health system is incompetent?? Check out Oz!! My warning to all people.. Be careful of what you say to any shrink... They can put you away under "recomendation for recovery" They will let my wife who is going through post natal depression out tomorrow!!
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I figure this photo I found surfing the net symbolized my feelings on Friday the 13th...All the previous failures in my life came bombarding down on me....It was wonderful waking up from this nightmare knowing that the Queensland government didn't take away our child....

It is amazing the power of a shrink combined with a social worker..They can sure fuck with a family's life!! When she went for help early that stormy morning for some counseling and some meds, Dr. Ratched Roberts decides she needs to be committed!! I tried to persuade the Doc on the phone while Colin was screaming to be fed, to ask for a second opinion or give us 48 hours to think about it and prepare for this...instead we get stuck in a crazy ER room at Southport hospital for 12 hours...one prisoner sitting in the bed was monitored by two cops...he goes to the restroom and attempts to escape through the ceiling. He falls inches away from an ER doctor...then Anette and I have to go through grilling of the socia…

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY SWEETHEART

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I'm not sure how to go about telling you about Friday the 13th in February....Over 13 years ago, the advministrators of Chickasha HS asked me to resign after I lost control of the science filled with bratty middle school kids....(it's hard to imagine those children of the Corn are grown up adults now...maybe even teachers dealing with the current batch of bratty kids...
It seems like tragedy or disaster brings families together....
when Angela was overcome with post partem depression, my extended came to our aid..
I want to thank them so much..
It was wonderful how cousin Louise helped me out so much....and Thank You, Anette for being with us in the hospitalll
It was the most emotional Friday the 13th of history...
How could I stay calm in a foreign country when the social worker is grilling my new friend who has done so much to help out us and the baby staying together as a family??
I was proud of the way we come through...
Angela told her story to the shrink and she was committed.…
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I decided to continue on with the essay of yesterday...Or start one from scratch about the most wonderful body surf of my life today!! and the 3-4 hour experience on the beach and in the surf...really romping and playing as a child...
Now I have epiphany of the whole experience...
the height of the day was the morning from sunrise at 5:30 to 10 am...
ending with a water fight with my feisty lady and playing on the backyard like children with the water hose....almost as if we were being naughty....
I took pics like crazy before and during the magnificent star coming right out of the Pacific....
I decided instead of just looking at the sea....I would become part of it and the sea and the king tide washing the water right to the edge of our dune vegetation fence...
the waves were higher and the tide was higher than I ever saw it here ....
even since body surfing as a child...
I met one of the volunteer life guards, George, who is a lawyer/accountant...
almost as if the universe knew that I neede…