Thursday, September 18, 2008
Wow…we have been here now since Tuesday the 2nd….now its 16 days….
A little contact with Jane, my cousine, they are preparing their flat next door for rental
next door as they prepare the flat next door for renters

not giving in to the desires that would never be consummated
I see the scenery on the beach,
I do not give into my id's desires…
I put my brain onto another level
I still have so much to do to prepare for our future and our family…(is it better when I know that I am writing this to someone ??)
…almost preferably an audience while time slips by from hours to days to weeks to months to years…
I wish that I had the internet for my connection to the rest of the universe
And the waves outside in my backyard keep crashing….
I need to write about Nimbin and the changes that are happening to this little formerly almost utopian hippy community and other places though out the world,
while concentrating on just this little hippy community nestled into the borders of the dwindling rainforests of Oz…
starting to get into my vacation mood especially when we are traveling…
But my costs go up significantly….182 bus, 240 for four nights of accommodation , 50 pizza, 70 for bud, beer 20$, 150 for food and 50 for misc….

but our honeymoon becomes an endless summer, as we leave the Indian summer of the Rez
for the warming waves of oz
and the increasing sunlight of oz…
then we come back again for the American summer…
what a rough life!
Might as well make our babymoon enjoyable...
we deserve the happiness and comfort of a beach environment...
and a water birth!!

September 25,2008
Okkk…..a little bored, feeling that there is the whole world out there that I very often feel like Im missing out on…
We walk hand in hand and then I know she will let out the string
knowing that I will not stray too far..

I write some poetry..
She is my copilot to the stars and
We are finally here ....
only A buzz away ,
we were in UTohatchi,
and the previous month; the foothills of Akansas…
We imagine and finally take all the necessary steps to get out of here
It will be expensive to live together , bringing up a child, while I need to take the necessary steps to get a job, loosen our strings to the Northern Hemisphere
and eventually migrate out family to Oz!!….
We have begun something and I need so badly to follow through with our dreams
…both of our inherent desires are to stay lazy
while giving into our id urges for food and comfort…
It would be just as easy to take a nap…
and prograsstinate
Why fight the current?
let's go with the flow for a while…
and just swim along the shore
waiting for that beautiful wave to take us into
our beautiful sandy
Mermaid Beach!

I am upset that I cannot talk to you , my audience,
I want to know that my words will be out there in the cyber space immediately!!
I think about that and then feel the rush of the Pacific Ocean blowing into my upstairs windows…and look across the sea
knowing that is where I just arrived from less than a month ago…
Time is flying by so fast…we sleep in till 9 am and then get around to getting milk and pastries for 10$
I could have bought all that for only a buck 30 years ago while hitching around New Zealand…
$2 was the cost of a hostel…You could buy milk and butter for 20 cents, and a loaf for 10cents…
Aahh , those were such sweet innocent times…
My older brother, Ron and I were just about to enter the workforce…
Both of us had this innocent Naivette…
It was a world long gone in another time….
it was almost another existence
even animal life going on was 99 percent different!!
The whole energy of the world was different feeling it as a child of the sixties with no clue of what our future…
We just had an innocent feeling of immortality….that old age would never happen….

September 26, 2008, 8:52 AM
Wow..still hard to believe we are here in Oz…good day, especially after we got through talking to Telstra and the frustration I had to go through in order to get the internet as cheaply as we could…
Frustrated that my new mother in law, Diane, immediately wanted to chat with her daughter not wanting to see how her son in law was doing...oh well
Happy about finally doing it and hearing Angel take care of business with John Flynn..I will have to probably pay up front out of Pinnacle money…
Happy that I walked down to pacific fair and picked up microwave…walked it back with some staring and wondering my own lifestyle almost proud not to be dependent on a car and petrol!! That evil black gold that has caused so much death..
Happy that I went for a good swim and saw all the beautiful sight from my backyard playground…

September 26, 2008, 8:52 AM
Before I pass out from narcolepsy, I need to chat with you and share a bowl while reflecting on the thoughts of today and how good forces won out despite the horrendous up front medical costs…
I was almost wishing to be independent thinking of the headaches about arranging the medical coverage for our family…
I had to realize that I was going to pay for everything up front…
about 4k for the 3 day hospital stay and wonder where the feelings of labor would happen
Angel wants the epidural to deal with the pain but I hope she will go ahead with the water birth and see how wonderful it will be with the baby born into the water surfacing for air
The water feels like the womb and the feeling for him is much more natural
I am getting darker than I have in a long time…
I am finally here…I look out and feel like I am at the top of the earth instead of down unda…It has been what I have been waiting for all my life…

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