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Ok.. I know that I need to chat with you at least a few minutes a day….
Sometimes…it is just the task of starting that is the most difficult for me all my life…Once I get going and understand the problem or task, I can take the steps to get it done…
Right now , my biggest tasks are tying up loose ends.., getting the Australian visas for Angel and me!,
Taking the time to get the paintings, move our shit, tie up the financial ends for both of us, file taxes in Okc….at the IRS blding…
I know that all of this stuff bores you and might think that this blog is all about me??
My reality??? It’s a pic of my life currently at the moment and it is for me and for all that care to understand my perspective on life…maybe you might have some of the same feelings??
I’m realizing now that it is easier to write on the word perfect first because that is slightly less judgmental than just putting it out here on a blog with an unknown audience??
I realize now had how I channeled my anger with Koresha and his Lady Mcbeth (the old Instructional support lady) sitting in with the Leadership group...many of whom were in my Drama club...so I waited patiently,

"May I help you...?" asks Koreshka..
"no, just waiting" I respond...

McB asks if she can help...
No, just waiting...

at this point I was determined to put on the show....the odds were against us..but I love to prove them wrong...

The kids were motivated after my best pep talk...and we did it!!
Im still riding on cloud 9 ....I wont be pushed around by Koreshka anymore...

finally the rest of the sped dept knows him for what he is...
wow...we finally did the play....our utopachi version of Across the Pond Scum...
this morning I did not think we would actually be able to pull it off...
sometimes I am so proud of myself..all year i have been waiting for them to put on a great show and we amazingly did...
when the students that wanted to be a part of the play finally were motivated to learn their parts and rehearse
I told them that they didnt have to follow the script....just do the gist of the story and act it out...

We were serendipitously given the band room for our performance because the cafeteria had to be used by Mr. Faylor...

I realized when they werent held back by someone else's lines...they could create their own spontaneously....we were all hilarious..I played the cool principal and Angel played a teacher...
we created all these last minute scenes...finally rehearsing intensively from 2 till about 6..
We started off with Shawn doing some guitar an
d singing...I asked another teacher to read some of the…
sorry that I haven't chatted with you in a long while...maybe Im intimidated from exposing my thoughts to anonymous and not so anonymous readers...

Im ready to jump to the next orbit around the okie zone...Can we both make it now to the Land Of Oz...we will see the ultrasound next Tuesday in Albaquerky,,,,

If I can just get over the negative vibes of this school and the community easily influenced by young peace corp veterans ready start new native cults after indoctinating tribes overseas(they were hyperactive missionaries a century ago!)......I could realize that it has been a good year...if one forgets abouts the Young Teach for Assholes of America who suddenly get on their own little power trips...it would be a good year...and forget about Timothy Koreshka ( I think that name is more appropriate than Jesus) and his continual sabotage of any connection with some of the emotionally disturbed families that thrive on blame, anger and negativitiy rather than self-responsibility...
oh …
wow...so many things to do and see...only a few weeks left in Utopachi...we will be putting on our play come hell or high water!!
putting on closing touches to the last impressions for the last two weeks
May 16, 2008, 11:50 PM
Ok….wow…so many things happening rapidly….kinda happy with the magic…
He gives her a kick to know her he’s alive… this is while my angel is laughing hilariously in the movie theater ...she loves to laugh!!
“What happened in Vegas”(Cameron Diaz looks like she's had some surgery or her face has just been in the sun too long..she lost the beautiful freshness she had in "Something about Mary"...but she's funny for a female but especially in the scene where she thinks ejaculated cum is hair gel..Never laughed so hard!:)

1146 saturday...Maybe we can make it out of here by 1or2...my angel is taking a nap and hoping that ole Vesuvius has enough lava and circulation undergound to cause a nice little eruption...it was enough to create new life...

Maybe we can make it out of here by 1 or 2..with the prograstination of me and her need for lots of sleep...Canyon de Chelly is so beautiful..Im wondering about the most direct or the most scenic route...should we g…
I need to call my old friend, LA to help get my paintings from KC, get a long term Australian visa...of course it's prograsstination that prevents me from doing what I need to do...

Our drama club will finally be giving their performance of "Across the Pond Scum" next Thursday and hopefully we will have enough actors show up for the rehearsals. Some still haven't memorized their lines!! seniors have their last week

it's kinda sad realizing that it will be the last time I'll probably see these kids that I have a love/hate feeling towards...but thats what unconditional love is about it...isn't it??

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ok...so much has happened since I chatted with you but I dont know where to begin...
Im back in the middle of bs with Jesus getting into my business with my students that I have worked for...
It is so nice not being alone like I was being a bachelor...
I realize more and more each day all the responsibilities that we both have as parents and all the petiness of the sped department will soon be gone...

I feel supported into taking a long term leave of absence and have grown stronger this year...
Ill be having to pay for all the insurance while we are in Australia...
Im so overwhelmed with so many things to do...I decided to prioritize them...
Of course the biggest concern is making sure my angel is well covered and taken care of...
second concern is how my crazy manager decides to remove a student that Ive been working with...she is so pigheaded and its so much easier to deal with the calm principal'''
Jesus is up to his usual antics for power...