Showing posts from November, 2007
I need to discipline myself to chat on here for at least 5 minutes a dream come true about finally connecting the internet universe has come into the comfort and safety of my own home in my village ...I feel that slowly things are happening in the right way finan, cially and in my career...Like I said to someone in the past, I will self actualize by the time Im 54!
This week was the best week of my teaching career and confidence..Finally having my own two half hour math classes instead of just assisting teachers and students ,,although I enjoy teaching math to all the students. Im talking to more students everyday now than any other teacher from having only a couple of students in a self contained classroom.. I am walking tall knowing now how I am connecting with so many children especially in my after school clubs I've created!
Im so excited about creating the drama club and how the students are taking ownership in the program..
Im excited about seeing how a student in spe…
November 18, 2007, 6:47
Driving to Amadillo by morning…the fate of my paintings and our family heirlooms worry me while we are heading again towards Arkansas to see A’s parents; again! I am frustrated at our own prograsstination to finally take off on our trips… now she is smiling at me, asking me
“Are you gonna sell a billion copies of your book?“
I guess I’m having to pay her truck payment….she’s not making enough substituting to pay for the outrageous rates also!

I set down the lap top almost at the state of limbo where one drifts off to other realities and we are shocked into vigilance when the mulitcolored lights flash behind us... She drives her jeep into the middle grassy median while trucks zoom by in their high 70 almost swiping us into oblivion...the highway patrolman runs up to our vehicle while I take the last swig of any evidence of brew overly paranoid over the previous incident. Of course I had been smokin ...The worst thoughts run through my mind... another night in the sl…
I often think of how easy it could have happened…I need to start writing to you at least everyday for a few minutes…then I can transfer it
Watching Nicole kidman going into the soul of an emotionally disturbed and vulnerable woman..then I see the parallels with my muse…how she was so depressed and then I brought her out of it..and sensing her on the upward swing..she sees the vision of what I am going through…I feel is another chance to have a child…I make love to her innocence and naïve vulnerability …but then a few drinks sometimes seems to unleash her demons~
I get excited about seeing all of the talent and visions that we could have in our future~!
I then wonder about our future together…
She sees all of what he see!
I then wonder about the soul of the witch…what issues are going over in her mind??
She’s taking care of her kids…and struggling with her health…she seems to reach me now in this moment…more so with an energy…
Now Im watching this the man denying his black ancestry!!
The suspe…