The witch's curse!
At that point I really believed I was cursed by an angry old "flame" (pun intended) ...then later sitting in the hot tub with storm all around us only reinforced this weird feeling......you think of the curse of Tutankaman and then a curse from a bipolar pagan witch ...( I know...you think Garvald has left the Okie Zone and has entered the twilight zone!) I'm glad I took my mothers hand woven sweater with me for protection from evil (including cops that might stop me, I've been lucky). I always take "her" with me in the Infinity. She knitted that sweater for me about 20 years ago,probably in OZ. Every time I put on that sweater, especially when I'm down, I immediately feel better almost like Mom is hugging me .. I feel warm fuzzies all over and I smile as if she right there with me..uh oh, all verklempt again,the tears fill my eyes, but that helps me see better and I have that epipheny!
I cleaned up my room so I could teach algebra to my favorite two ED boys. These boys and chess are the reason I left paradise. I wanted to see it all out. I want to do something fantastic this year since I've only been at best a very mediocre teacher...
I'm just getting so excited about everything falling into place. I have a male principal that has several cancer surgeries and been near death so every sunrise to him is fantastic. He and the principal from Wewoka have impressed me the most as administrators. Coincidentally, the other principal from another time made the biggest impression on me with his philosophy for being a "dead man walking" (which is the theme of approaching every day as a blessing! especially if you were already dead but were able to come back and experience life again just one day at a time!)
The teachers impress so much here in the village of Utopachi. There are so many peace corp workers especially on my cul de sac!
A Phillipine lady and I are the only the ones in the cul de sac that weren't in the Peace Corp. Two couples worked in Uzbekistan, the man sharing the sped and ED responsibilities with me worked in Bangaladesh and the new lady that arrived today worked two years in West Africa! These young folks want another experience of working again in a totally different culture.
These Indians are Americans but in a way, it's like being in a different country. We are so lonely and isolated from the rest of civilization. You especially feel it when you look up and see those infinite amount of stars with no city lights to interfere!
"The ring represents infiniti and you are not it"
and she wanted gone from her reality and that you never existed in her world that she so wanted to control, ...
this witch from another life cursed you with that ever present thought!
"I've moved on. I'm happily married now!"
She lies in written and spoken words as most women he encountered in his life with the exception of Alene.
She still can barely make ends meet bringing up her fatherless children with another drive by boyfriend, but
she says it so effectively with that cold frigid look that haunts you in your dreams..
she has put on weight and is still beautiful after her devolution into an ice witch!..
she is busy helping her current transient boyfriend, in his business...
she momentarily meets your eyes sensing your presence ...
she is angry that she still sometimes sees your face in her dreams
she freezes your soul with her gaze...
No worries,Mate! Wake up and smell your pinon nut coffee brewing in your automatic coffee machine!