You could call this a personal creative fiction journal about a world traveler and his evolving life.
He saw the warmth of Americans vanish with the once large friendly middle class. Was there a Camelot, when we thought of ourselves as a good nation?
The powers that be have been holding our country hostage since Reagan took away the power of the unions and Neoconservatives took over the Republican Party!
Will we ever stop our declining ways?
(sorry for typos!)
She comes in from the south to warm you for a few hours she settles down and cuddles you to give you a small pleasure then this warmth from her is taken away so suddenly when the frigid air from the north chills you to the bones she wants to show you that she can be one cold cold bitch
Lord, or the universal energies that give you periodic signs , sometimes more and more frequently, ie. I said Baby,,, the tv says baby girl...
there's a word I just say and the tv says it almost synchronistical...
I have so many things to do... and I wake up and I don't say wanna see all these bills , esp. gold coast rates! 1200 per month.. my tenant, Jesus, does not pay enough in rent to cover half of the bills, yet I am so poor...
aaa..... but I finally get to be with my son today, since my x bought her car and has a sales job coming up... she has been taking everywhere along with long walkabouts in the huge expanse of Okc and its white flight suburbs...
to be continued.. I really need to get a cheap wifi.. so that I know Im at least writing to you and my muse/benefactor, Leigh Anne...
hoping we will get some of this published , if whatever funds that she has helped me find like a "TREASURE HUNT" but the old man is too lazy to get off his ass and start filling o…
i went downstairs to admire the almost full waning moon...
realizing my own mortality...
i think of a friend who had his wake up call at a much younger age
and then i get a glimmer of what my own mortality could be
when i walk across Hedges ave.
and suddenly see double with much better acuity...
it was bizarre
i closed either eye and didnt see double
but then I could walk just shutting one eye
to a chair
to see my beloved ocean one more time
and eat a halloween mini candy bar
the uneasy feeling wondering when the double image
fades away with each bite
a mini stroke....
and I hug my son that evening
and play frisbee with my son more than i ever have
having discovered my son's new toy hidden among
the seaweed about a 100 meters out from shore...
the feelings run across my mind that night,
with frustration at my own body's fragile shell
and the necessary need to establish the bucket list....
. September 8th happy that my family is together just trying to live one day at a time one moment at a time life is short I love my son so much I'm at a Crossroads in my life to decide to become a teacher I write my book it's a matter of putting several pages together and then figuring out which stories all the best and I need to get Help from My Friends even perhaps my neighbors but the judgmentalism of the human nature intimidates me more than anything I had another beautiful day with my son we went to some family therapy with a good counselor who has played a couple of family games the Dynamics would help us appreciate my ex coming back today for the sake of our beautiful son! I have to pinch myself and I'm blessed to be his father and I shouldn't be last I'm doing everything that I can with him I have to overcome that often disability of laziness....tomorrow... domani!n
the story of my life,,, sad i cant even borrow some fold up chairs for the evening :( s…