I was able to get a hold of him that afternoon. I was so happy that he was ok. Since that time, I have often gone into depression realizing how quickly life can end. I don't know how I could have handled it if the plane hit his building instead already having dealt with the deaths of my mother and my girlfriend of 13 years (yes, Muffy, she was my common law wife so that judgemental people wouldn't throw stones!)
We are survivors and the hardest thing to do sometimes is to go on with our lives. So much trauma takes an effect on our psyche! Then very often we feel guilty about surviving, about doing things differently with the ones we loved. We are sorry that we didn't do more fun things with our best friends, best buddies, best parents, best lovers and we can never talk to them again except when we pray or feel that they might still with us!
As survivors, we are left with a big hole and emptiness. I am very scared of all the repercussions from us "paying them back" with all the innocent lives we are taking for a needless war in Iraq. All these survivors could grow up to be very angry continuing this needless violence. It is a shame that our president is acting as if God is on our side. This war-loving "Christian" chicken hawk is pitting fundamentalist against fundamentalist and yet we have the same god. Religion has caused so much bloodshed! Please God, let there not be another 4 years of this very scary administration!
(to be continued)