Escape the Okie Zone

This is a personal creative non-fiction journal about a traveler and his evolving life. He saw the waning warmth of humans through his puppy's eyes and now he see the world through his child's eyes. He thought much of our country's warmth went dormant when Bush held our country hostage! Some of my hostile readers suffering from overinflated egos might actually think that I might be writing about them on this blog! Get a life please ;)

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

 
I guess absence makes the heart grow fonder...
I have to take care of business in the land of enchantment!!
..It's so wonderful to be back with the whole
family and Buffy!!

Im so happy that my friend, Carlos and Gwen are letting me stay with them while my Infinity has it's cv joints worked on...
It pays, I think sometimes, to negotiate...
gradually, bit by bit, I see light at the end of the tunnel...


gradually step by baby step, we will reach our destination

Sunday, June 14, 2009

 
I sometimes go through ups and downs too...
so does everybody./..
just some more than others..
whenever I suggest meds...
defensively my beautiful half says
"YOu need to see a psychologist!"

I am happy she is happier now with her family...
I probably won't be posting for a while to pick up my Dad's old infinity..
and drive it back to hillbilly country...take care of business in the okie zone and maybe pick up some paintings..
Life can be positive!!




Saturday, June 13, 2009

 

I learned some pretty hard lessons in life...
I could easily get down on myself, which I did this rainy afternoon...two weeks after arriving in this country...settling down into just bumming in the hills of the Ozarks...'
I was boo hooing into a hypoglygemic depressed state...I was in the Niagra falls of self pity..
her son must think I am totally goofy...
You wouldn't believe my stash ws picked out of my pocket and he took it with him to the cot...
and it was all over the bed..
the whole family heard...
I am too embarassed to even talk about it on this blog...but fuck it..Im not gonna teach this year and no employers would look at this...only maybe relatives ...who Im too embarassed for them to see my innermost secrets on this blog...
my inlaws would probably freak...but the Dad shows the herb but still wants to hide it from his son...
it sounds so familiar ...
closet cannabis smokers passing judgement on others...when they know it's safer that cigarettes and alcohol...
well I cleaned it out of the cot...but not after my brother in law pointed it out to the whole family..
It reminds me of another episode when a gf's daughter found my large stash hidden with the recently developed walgreen photos...
I stupidly left that in the lavoratory for her and her teenage friend to smoke at kiddy parties...amazing...
how embarassing...
this is why I just wanna be incognito away from others ...
but there has to be a place..outside of Nimbin New South Wales...where closet cannbis youths and grownups don't pass judgment...
yep my step-dad is a stoner...
oh well

Friday, June 12, 2009

 

"SEATTLE — A dog that ran off from its owner in Seattle's Seward Park found and ate some marijuana and got high. Owner Jen Nestor Waddell told KING-TV the 11-year-old black Lab mix named Jack was "just stoned" May 12 after they returned home from the park. The dog's eyes glossed over and he had trouble walking.
The vet said Jack had swallowed a large amount of dried, harvested marijuana. After some medication to induce vomiting and a night of rest Jack was back to normal.
Waddell told police about the drugs and joked they could borrow Jack to find them if they paid the $1,500 vet bill."

 

I think that a lot of the time, my life has been a continual comedy of errors...
I resign myself to be just the weird bloke at the end of the bar...
folks often look at me as soon as they get to know me as either goofy or one string missing in a tennis racquet...
I have to just be that more careful now that I have a son to take care of..
I have to take responsibility and not let myself fall into the roll of goofy as so many expect me to be...

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

 
Some days, I really feel there is light at the end of the tunnel...

Especially when I see the light in my son's eyes...


especially when he looks at me...all the relatives in America love him...
I smile at him and he giggle with glee when he smiles at me..


when I speak and he listens to every word...never has someone listened so intently to what I often think are boring words...
he loves me...
I am so lucky!!


I want to spend my life being with him as a father.... I want to live his world and help him enjoy what is out there...


Carpe Diem, Colin Murray!

=

Saturday, June 06, 2009

 

I'm gonna pray to the universe that my laptop will working before I take my next walkabout!!

I suppose there is a down side to the verbal aspects of cannabizing...
the way I communicate might be hampered in one aspect of the relationship...
I just want someone to listen to me...
Maybe that's one of the biggest reasons for relationships to end...
It saddens me all the heartbreak in discovering myself...
the ADD mixed w/bipolar love...
she loves me.
she love me not..
I love her
I love her not..

Sometimes, while a little delusional, I could see how happy I could be...
"ou gotta love the one your with"..
but many times, I think that this is just too much possible BALL AND CHAIN LOVE THAT ANY SINGLE NON COMMITAL BACHELOR could tolerate??

It was nice of my new dad to able to help connect with some of the local family's homegrown veggies...
nothing like greens in the south to lift up your spirits...
and motivate my writing hoping that the regulars from Brisbane, Indepence Missouri and some of the other little towns that were my haunts of bachelorhood...
sometimes, I think that I'm missing the connections and parties that I would love to create and invite...\
these are parties in time with lost friends that will never have that chance again...
I love to be around folks that are openminded to have civil discourse...
how many multiple moods in an hour do I have to experience with women that I am in love with??
how can you talk to her without her exploding..
why do I bring out the best in women??
"It's not the ADD or my own hypoglycemia>>.
It's you!!
now pass the mashed potatoes and gravy.. before I bite your head off!"
as a praying mantis would after making love to her victim...
knowing that he would be food the loving couple's children...

I'm almost even more bummed out that my puter that I lugged over from Oz is on the blink...
How do I clean it all out??
an anti virus has invaded ( I guess..but I don't know??)
It's almost that I would give so much just to have a clean computer again...
everthing gets outdated as soon as I get...
this laptop has probably worn out it's warranty??
for some reason this pet puter needs a throughough antivirus shampoo...

speaking of pets, I need to put in a pic of my dog, Buffy...
My wonderful in-laws have taken such fantastic care of her...
thanks Joe!
Thank you, Diane, for taking care of everything else...
my honey's jeep is working still and it looks good..
but sounds a little shakey??
from some of the rough back wood roads of the Ozark hills??

so where am I going with all of this??
I dunno??
I just wish that I could have a party with all of ex's invited...
(and it really pisses me off again that Mathew Mcdorkle is again in one of the type movies that I had already envisioned the screenplay of...the other play I want to write is about Mermaid Beach and the whole surfing crowd, that I eventually want to fully dive back into their culture..I suppose that it would be a lot easier to do that without my better half...but who knows...If it comes hell and high water, I need to be back there next month!!)
I can maybe just be there for a month and then have Angela and the bub come out?? ...so many things to do and yet there's so little time in this life....to enjoy as much of life's gusto as we possibly can!!)

but seriously, ladies, germs, and mates, who ever drops by for a little chat with come over and enjoy a bowl at my humble abode, adobe beach shack...
(no it's really a tiny two bedroom apartment with the most gorgeous view that I've ever had to live with for an extended period of time...Dad was so lucky, but he knew how time was flying by in an even more accelerated fashion meet his maker )
well , tonite, forgive my ramblings...
if ever I find focus in life or at least someone contracting me to write out a script...
to include her own crazy person's blog..

I'm really bummed out about a lot of things,
but just mainly overwhelmed...
addaboy sure helps us....

so maybe I will go walkabout in the next few days while I pick up the Infinity (if it still works)...well at least the car seems to be a lot more faithful than most of the past ex's that I dated since driving that "luxury " car...
through happy towns'
some sad towns...
mainly just angry places...
where I don't feel comfortable to ever to habitate there...
mostly angry towns...

 
sometimes I just wanna say "fuck it" as gracefully as I can to the angry world... but then...

sometimes the gift of a little mojo magic
is the best spice for a relationship...
add it to your meal...
and it might not tempt you into tasting the most delicious moments...
Thanks...

What if God really loves Cannabis.....
It can really change your view of the world...
instead of just turning your ass to the world,

What if God told everyone (maybe just in their dreams) that it's the herb of peace,
love and visions of a utopian ever after???

folks in power could have the most wonderfully beautiful and sometime erotic dreams... and maybe they could solve world peace, hunger, greed, etc... yep if we all just could grow a little...
couldn't people be happier and less angry??

just when I was thinking there was very little chance.... along comes a little magic!!

waddya think??
Isn't a picture sometimes worth at least a thousand words??

 

I loved these images what mother nature can do to a beach...the fence was gonna go the next evening...'
I wish that I had seen the huge waves take away the fence to our backyard vegetation!!

Ill put in some pics of the cliff created by the storm Saturday evening, during high tide...




Maybe my wife will change her mind...maybe a little of the love machine might convince her how rough it might be without a little of the magic mojo I still have!!....;)

roll your eyes...

 

Friday, June 05, 2009

 

We stayed at a beautiful little motel...
with our baby, I had to wake up early so I decided to check out the sun come up over the mountains very early in the morning...
Mt. Warning is on the left...It is the caldera of a very ancient caldera when Australia was part of the mass continet...
I took this sequence of photos...
It would be wonderful to live out here...
The place had a beautiful home for sale with verandas surrounding the house...
There is a beautiful outside dining area with this gorgeous view..

Thursday, June 04, 2009

 



I feel when my sweetheart and I get it together, we will be able to enjoy life even more...
we will get the right help and the right meds for our minds to process more efficiently..
we will be more relaxed and get into the joie de vivre!!

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

 




I will add some more pics of our trip soon...
This was the beautiful tent we stayed in the Nimbin Youth hostel...
It had a fantastic view...

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

 

Again I'm at a crossroads in my life...
I have to make some big decisions now about me and our family...
I have to think what is best for the family but still be able to enjoy life while Im still young at heart

Monday, June 01, 2009

 


 
"Taking a Time OutYou Are Not Crazy
Most of us feel a little crazy from time to time. Periods of high stress can make us feel like we’re losing it, as can being surrounded by people whose values are very different from our own. Losing a significant relationship and moving into a new life situation are other events that can cause us to feel off kilter. Circumstances like these recur in our lives, and they naturally affect our mental stability. The symptoms of our state of mind can range from having no recollection of putting our car keys where we eventually find them, to wondering if we’re seeing things clearly when everyone around us seems to be in denial of what’s going on right in front of their eyes. For most of us, the key to survival at times like these is to step back, take a deep breath, and regain our composure. Then we can decide what course of action to take. Sometimes a time-out does the trick. We take a day off from whatever is making us feel crazy and, like magic, we feel in our right mind again. Talking to an objective friend can also help. We begin to see what it is about the situation that destabilizes us, and we can make changes from there. At other times, if the situation is particularly sticky, we may need to seek professional help. Meeting with someone who understands the way the human mind reacts to stress, loss, and difficulty can make us feel less alone and more supported. A therapist or a spiritual counselor can give us techniques that help bring us back to a sane state of mind so that we can affect useful changes. They can also mirror our basic goodness, helping us to see that we are actually okay. The main purpose of the wake-up call that feeling crazy provides is to let us know that something in our lives is out of balance. Confirm for yourself that you are capable of creating a sane and peaceful reality for yourself. Try to remember that most people have felt, at one time or another, that they are losing it. You deserve a life that helps you thrive. Try and take some steps today to help you achieve more balance and a little less crazy.
from the Daily OM
It's nice to go from winter to summer and see it light out till late at night again... we have alot of issues to take care of but sometimes I think there is light at the end of the tunnel...
It's gorgeous here in the foothills of the Ozarks!

Sunday, May 31, 2009

 

I don't know how it's going to work out....but...

my honey's parents are more supportive of me as the father of the new family than ever especially after falling in love with Colin as everyone that spends time with our very jovial jolly child!

we have the most beautiful baby...I never saw a pretty baby until I saw him...Until then I always thought babies were ugly
Dad in law and I spent some bonding time driving up into the foothills of the Ozark mountains having a few beers and talking about getting a little acreage with the most gorgeous unobstructed view of the country from an unimproved dirt road...
and I'd have all the green I wanted for the rest of my life!!
Maybe we could find happiness with the best of both worlds, Down Unda and Up ova!!
With Colin Murray having passports for both cultures!!
What a lucky bloke he could be!!



Thursday, May 28, 2009

 

Up, Up and Away....
My honey is homesick...
so we have to go back to hillbilly country!!

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

 

Right wing rednecks hate folks that want to help the environment!

"New Animated Series on ABC to Lampoon Environmentalists from Newsbusters.org
by Brent Baker
May 25, 2009

With television hosts unwilling to joke about President Barack Obama as those comedians regularly ridicule conservatives, there’s a bright spot coming up this week in a new TV show set to debut on ABC which will mock leftist environmentalism. The Wall Street Journal reported Friday:

The new animated television series ‘The Goode Family’ is a send-up of a clan of environmentalists who live by the words ‘What would Al Gore do?’ Gerald and Helen Goode want nothing more than to minimize their carbon footprint. They feed their dog, Che, only veggies (much to the pet's dismay) and Mr. Goode dutifully separates sheets of toilet paper when his wife accidentally buys two-ply. And, of course, the family drives a hybrid.

The series, from Mike Judge who created Beavis and Butt-Head for MTV and King of the Hill for Fox, will debut Wednesday night at 9 PM EDT/PDT, 8 PM CDT/MDT. The May 22 Journal article, “Making a Mockery of Being Green -- The creator of ‘Beavis and Butt-Head' and ‘King of the Hill' has a new target: environmentalists,” observed: “Much as Mr. Judge's series King of the Hill finds humor in the dramas of a working-class Texas family, Goode lampoons a liberal Midwestern household. In Goode, the characters are often mocked for being green just to fit in with their friends and neighbors.”

ABC.com has a preview video with commentary from Judge and his collaborators.

DebbieSchlussel.com, “Can't Wait for This: New Animated ABC Mike Judge Series Mocks Liberal Enviro-Crazies,” has gathered in one post three YouTube clips from the show."

This is from Newsbusters.org ( a right wing site that winges continually about the liberal media, but they won't be happy until there are only right wing shows and right wing radio shows like Rush Limblob~)

they banned access to my IP several times and couldn't handle left/liberal comments to their site...It is typical of the kind of crap they show on Fox News..

It is a shame that there is a large contingent of Americans who shun environmentalists as wackos when it is not that difficult to think of ways to conserve energy,,,

Australia is very environmental and they don't get made fun of they way they are by rednecks in the US!


Here are some pics of my beach after one of the mightiest storms since about 67...


Monday, May 25, 2009

 


Sunday, May 24, 2009

 
we almost made it to the top of Mt. Warning!!



Friday, May 22, 2009

 
wow...what a bummer...I just wrote a whole bunch and it disappeared into blogger heaven...'

I was so proud of what a trooper Colin Murray Garvald was!!
I had a bottle of water with me and I gave him the water as we reached the top...
I asked some nice people..(there were only nice folks all complimenting me on such a well behaved child!!) he was wide awake through most of the trip..taking in the whole mountain
together..it was exhilarating!!



This was our view ...it would have been even more exhilarating to have seen it from the top!!
Maybe in a few years when he can walk up it himself!!
You can see the Byron Bay Lighthouse in the distance..It is the most eastern point of the Oz Coast!!

Thursday, May 21, 2009

 

sometimes, it's good to escape the ball and chain of marriage

with all of it's ups and downs...

often I think there have been more downs on this holiday


as the holiday turns into
Helladay

or a helleachday??

 




Wednesday, May 20, 2009

 

I wonder if this roller coaster ride of my life could be documented and the crazy's names changed to protect the guilty...
It's weird how the screen appears to be almost following my life...
Or I have these wonderful ideas for screenplays...
and lately they've been put into movies...
Is somebody in Hollywood reading this blog??

I wanna escape to Byron Bay again...
meet other travellers who also want to escape and just enjoy life...
Mateo travels from Venezia, Italy working hard in the factories for 4-6 months and then he takes the other half year off.....
He was checking out Indonesia and Bali...those were his favorite spots!!
right now Angela and Emma are having Girl's night out watching Angelas and Demons....
Life is so short!!
So I'm gonna escape again to
BYRON BAY!!

I have been
missing out on so much for so long...
I realized that the other night in Nimbin...

I saw a Dutch couple that were having a wonderful time together...
they were soulmates enjoying each other's company for seven years...
soulmates....

So many times I have fallen in love hoping that there was some magic
and it always dissipates ...
except for Alene...
who always loved me....and I still feel her protective energy....
but then my true soulmate passed away
while I just took her for granted...
she was so wonderful to me..


Monday, May 18, 2009

 




 

BIPOLAR DAYS AND BIPOLAR NIGHTS!


Thursday, May 14, 2009

 

Monday, May 11, 2009

 



St. Mary's in Sydney...
on a cold bipolar day after registering Colin Murray with the
U.S. consulate...
a birth abroad costs $250!!

Sunday, May 10, 2009

 

Happy Mother's Day, Mom!!






the years are melting by like months....as I've been writing this blog...
It's just a chance to take a picture of this tumultous wave of life....




one moment, our families are all on the beach....



in our little family house of the Parthenon!!



an old two story boarding house that was converted into a family vacation for 2- weeks in Xmas of '65
I suppose that was the Camelot of our two families having holidays on Mermaid Beach...




I still want to capture that Utopia again....




I have now new found worries that never entered my mind as I seek
the worries and responsibilities of parenthood....
I have to enter these thoughts and transfer this accelerating conciousness to the next generation...
I'm realizing the finity of this conciousness
compared to the infinity of the universe...
or of the belief of many, that this awareness and conciousness will go on in spirit...




I'm currently wearing the safety security blanket of my mother's light blue hand nit woolen
sweater that barely fits...
but always warms up my soul...
I always conciously feel a warm hug from the energy of Ailsa, my mother..
Happy Mother's Day, Mom!

I had a dream a few years ago....
of sitting by a lake like this on a green lawn
by a nice big beatiful farmhouse...
this image of the billabong/ oxbow lake
captured my heart because I
felt their presence in my dream...
they don't have the worries of this physical earth....
Mom's reading a book and Dad is waving at me
while he smokes his pipe...

when I visited my cousin, Sally, and her husband, Peter
I loved their home

and it the was first time we were invited into the home of my extended family on this visit to Oz...
I haven't felt this warmth in a long time
since maybe Mom passed away....
and when I put on Mom's sweater
I felt the presence of my mom's side of the family
that I haven't felt in a very long time...











 


Friday, May 08, 2009

 



"Instead of thinking about what you're missing, try thinking about what you have that everyone else is missing"
Who knows??

Maybe, if I could just lighten up a little, I might actually enjoy myself.... ;)

If only Mom could have seen little Colin Murray...

Wednesday, May 06, 2009

 



 



Monday, May 04, 2009

 



It is so wonderful visiting family in the bush (no similarity to our past El Doofus, president...)
and now I'm looking at the sun peek through the clouds....

 




Wednesday, April 29, 2009

 


so I figure, maybe I might have a few good decades left or not....
we might be swimming in the surf together, while I live vicariously in his surf lifesaving competions as the nuances of the sea never bore me...

will he inherit the beach and have this luxury every day before school...
running home from a hard day at school through the cooling waves to your hot feet....
running to school on a brisk early morning feeling the warmth of the Pacific on your feet...

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

 
I like to think of each new day.... a new beginning... a realization and acceptance of our reality ...and going from there to seize each moment as she comes over the horizon to warm us up and give us her warmth...
Today will be a clean slate and maybe we can make it right the way Bill Murray had a perfect day...and then lived happily ever after with Angie McDowell

There is that elusive feeling of happiness that we might achieve when we have no worries and can start each day with the freshness of a young child... I have had a lot of bonding time lately with our son, Colin Murray Garvald... walking to the beach...and having his first times out to experience the sun... his cheeks were so rosy... and seeing him smile and laugh this morning... He is so happy..
He has no worries...

Monday, April 27, 2009

 

Today was in the top 10 or even 5 for the most gorgeous days...
where it's not extremely hot and the water is still very warm...
the water is so calm that it's easy to swim past the 2nd mild break...
you see some of the Ocean st. gang playing hookie from work...
aah, the luxuries of working on the coast...
just enjoy the beach ...
instead doing that 4 letter word....

Sunday, April 26, 2009

 


Saturday, April 25, 2009

 


My neck and my back are hurting now...but I still badly wanna compete in the clubchampionships at the end of the season...
Just to compete and hopefully not to come in last...
so it will be a point to work from in regards to competing next year in the Australian championships..
but my luck, I will break my neck ....(I wonder if a few exs would want that to happen>>>)
I'm feeling my mortality more than ever , especially the fragility of the shell we contain our soul in...
I guess I could say that I was lucky...
that I didn't break my neck
and not enjoy growing up with my son

that was a reality check...
I need to be careful when I am swimming and
be careful of this powerful Goddess of the Sea just waiting to take you...
just for this foolhardy sport...
but I love it!!

Friday, April 24, 2009

 
I tried her again...
I misjudged the wave
the wave went over the top of the one before it...
I was going over the waterfalls
headfirst into the sand..

I'm still concious
but now I have to get over this morbid fear of paralysis
and then the worry of how my family would survive...

My wife and I both feel overwhelmed with parenthood...and so I bang my head really hard in the sand!!
what an escape!
Now I can't even turn my head sideways...I thought about visiting the doctor and then thought that I would be allright...
but I'm still crazy enough to want to compete in the club championships on Sunday!!....

Then we will be hopefully driving into Sydney
to get our son's passport!
...we have to be really careful of the roads!!

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

 

wow....the holiday is almost over...
I find that one doesn't appreciate a holiday near as much when you haven't been experiencing work...
you appreciate a holiday so much more...
It's weird how I should be looking forward to summer in the states..
but I'm just worried and overwhelmed with all the things we have to do..
I have enough saved, hopefully, where our family can take it easy...
but I think
if there is some structure to our lives...
we would enjoy our trips with the family down unda that much more...
we just have to get into a more organized life...
that is what we need to have for little Colin Murray..
a peaceful home on the beach,
with a system each day...
where we enjoy experiencing life as much as we can...

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

 









But I couldn't keep away from Her, this fearsome Goddess of the sea
waking up at 6 am just to workout with the lifeguards
....
yesterday, when being smacked against the water and twisted around, I realized more my mortality...
and to enjoy life as much as we can , the short time, we consciously rent out this shell we look at ...seeing it's aging appearance...


This realization, epiphany, could have helped me enjoy swimming each day in this huge body of water and energy....the current was flowing so fast that i would pass others walking fast.... I was faster than Phelps without swimming a stroke...going with the flow of this powerful southerly...

 

I caught a really tough wave...it was the scariest...
I thought that I had her
I had on a fin
she was giving me the headstart to stay ahead of her...
but insead I looked below me and there was a 3 foot drop
she smacked my body against the water...
then tumbled me around
now my neck is sore....

you can't underestimate the power of the sea!

Monday, April 20, 2009

 





















Sunday, April 19, 2009

 


another day in paradise...lazitis has taken over...

 




 

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

 

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

 




"The ninth insight says that we can direct primal energy through the power of attention and intention. As we've seen, whatever we put our attention on (and thereby make the focus of this energy) blossoms. Whatever we withdraw our attention from starts to wither away. Attention and intention are the keys to transformation, whether it is of a situation, circumstance, person, or thing. The sutras are codes for triggering and activating intention and attention"




interestingly a love has blossomed...or an obsession with a game or sport...my love for the sea and surf...I obsess each morning on the nuance of the rip...entering the deepest part next to the eroding beach... i swim with it while I float through the waves in the deepest parts...soon I am out there and I race with the wave...catching her early and kicking furiously with the flipper...I feel invincible...churning my arms as fast as I can before having to take a breath...each day I am with the wave just a little bit longer, better and more in love...
I cannot get enough of her...all hours of the day, I have to be close to her..
I open my windows and take away the screen so there won't be any obstructions from seeing and hearing her in the moonlight...
waiting for the moon sneak up past the clouds of the horizon...






Monday, April 13, 2009

 

I guess there is something very magical and seducing about the sea....
each day she looks longingly for you...
you are drawn to where you came from
when you were primordial microbes surfing the endless oceans of the primeval earth...

you are always tempted to take a swim...and feel where the rip will take you ...
out past the last breaker and then bide your time for the right one to take you in...

You wake up and are drawn to her from dawn to dusk...
you see the deep part of the rip just next to shore
and decide to get in there
put on your fin and swim out...
a little animal takes a nibble around your ankle...and lets go...
you take the next ticket wave to shore...
chat with the lifguards who ride out to you and they give you strategies about how to take the rip out....


I never thought that I would be writing love poetry about body surfing with the Goddess of the Sea..

Sunday, April 12, 2009

 

ya know,,,,...
what are the things in life that trigger the most feeling for me??..
Murch of all the painter's captured my heart as far as this heavenly maternal
feeling....that would be almost dreamlike....when you had heart warming dreams of youth and no worries...

His image of the mother and child in many of his paintings
I remember so vividly the shade of the umbrella
it was shading the
sun from the mother and child on a hot summer day on the coast..
in days of yore...
the image of the little baby girl was heavenly....
I remember seeing her and the warm
feelings of youth ...
a mother's love for her child.
..
ahh, che sera, sera....

 
I think
what me worry??

Isn't that what Alfred E Newman ....The personification of Mad Magazine,,, asks??
a prayer was said yesterday or the
day before...(days melt into one) more we realize good often comes out of bad_(?)
once, long time ago, a spell was cast on me..., a curse,

and I asked for it to be lifted...even though I don't believe in Jesus the way "Christians" might??
I let this friend of Angel's give it to me to say...
I said it and now I feel the spirits have been lifted or
(maybe its just cuz my downstairs
neighbors have left for Easter vacation...so the whole backyard is to ourselves...
we can enjoy our daily homage to the Goddess of the sea....
without worrying about intruding on others'
space!! (this finite property on this
spaceship , earth)
without the negative vibes seaping upwards... we feel free!!!
when some neighbors leave ..even for a little while...

ones who don't give out good vibes...
More have I felt a camaraderie with the folks who give out
good vibes and a se
I freely get into my speedos and race to the morning race...nse of home...
in out little flat above the sea.
..

I was in 14th place early this morning the weekly swim in the surf race...my handicap has increased to 12 minutes...now the top swimmer passes me before the first buoy and then the top ladies pass by me...
ok...I'll just let this one go and catch a wave into the beach....
Next week is the last week and they'll add another 15 secs to my time...maybe I can do it next Sunday~~
Amazing how this weekly race has motivated me to bring back my ole competitive instincts...

Saturday, April 11, 2009

 


Mother and Child
Murch

Friday, April 10, 2009

 

Ok.... what makes a person wise?? living through life's tough knocks?? do we become life smart after finally becoming street smart?....
(smart enough to know you don't belong on some street in Bumfuck, Okiehoma)
Learning how to survive each day with the least amount of pain that you just love to avoid...
you are afraid to go beyond the paradigm stretch....
the first step out of the orbit of mundane electrons??
but once you get off your ass long enough to get into an excited state long enough to get out of the Okie Orbit, and the Yank orbit....and finally realizing that Oz is your home!!

 
the ultimate moment is to be in the zone of the wave...
when you are taking that wave as best as you can!!

When you are dealing with the forces of kinetic energy as best as you can....
Each day, I would like to find that wave
I swim out past the last break to find her...
I wait in the calm of the water
waiting for her to arrive
catching her just right...
trying to find the curl of the wave...
I catch her and hold my breath for as long as I can...
breathing out slowly
then taking in small breaths from the bubbles of air beneath me...
finally lifting my head as I reach out for the sand beneath me...
push up and I am on land as the ocean retreats
leaving me safely on land!!

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

 
cool....we go through the misadventure of having our bike snitched...another one bites the dust....she loved that bike so much
.
by local youths walking and riding their bikes home from school.... being on the prowl for stolen bikes...

there goes your views of some utopian paradise...
I hope that Angela and her Aussie mate, Emma, find her bike after going after something that my honey wants so bad....and really enjoys...Transportation!!
I'm always impressed seeing a woman go after something she wants so badly!!

I wonder If I will be looking out our our family window seeing our son frolic and surf in the water!! And I go down to the beach to join him!!


 


My wife's bike was stolen out of our really good friends' driveway by some students from Merrimack High School...
they were wearing the school uniforms when our neighbor's kids saw them checking out their bikes that were locked up!!
some other neighbors down the street saw some adolescents in the school uniforms

but believe it or not, we came together again after we were almost resigned to getting divorced!!!
it's so sad that moments can be so traumatic...
and maybe we just wait and things will get better...is our moods are belligerent!

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

 
I could be all overwhelmed with all the bloody things that I need to have planned for our lives...



whether to go back to teaching or stay a beach bum/father/ philosopher/journalist??...prograsstinating more a little while on coming to terms with my mortality...How do we enjoy life as much as possible because tomorrow,

we will die....




but knowing that we've lived it to the fullest...hopefully makes us feel a little better when we are on that journey to that white light! ;(




It's nice to know I can go workout with the lifeguards early tomorrow morning!
Oh, Lord, or whatever force is out there, help me get up to go workout with them in the early morning....

Maybe we can have a wonderful anniversary....Please Lord, no fights and any impatience with our ADD! Thankyou, Lord!





Monday, April 06, 2009

 


aah...learning how to relax!!

and enjoy the moment.....thats the hardest thing to do when she is staring you in the face everyday!!


What a gorgeous Goddess, the sea is!!
It sure helps the ADD blues!!...

 


Friday, April 03, 2009

 

OceanStreet Perch!



Somewhere over the rainbow you will find your Gold ...





your little spot on the Gold Coast!














Ocean street Perch lookout onto Mermaid Beach!


Thursday, April 02, 2009

 

Storm blows shark net to shore!



I love these stormy days! I was watching a lifeguard trying to pull in this shark net blown in by this monster storm that started last night...It never let up until late in the morning..
.One wave was reported to be 11 meters! That is about 3 stories high! Imagine body surfing that wave... I decided to go for a swim this avo... It beats White Water Bay or any theme park anyday...
I decided to go swimming even though the beaches were closed...I figure it's still a lot safer than driving on the opposite side of the road down unda!!




 

"dumb redneck right wingers"

When this bloke searched the above title my site comes up first again!!
That and a couple bucks might get me a cheap cappucino!!
http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&ei=VufTSe6zK5uktAPjtYmtCg&sa=X&oi=spell&resnum=0&ct=result&cd=1&q=dumb+redneck+right+wingers&spell=1

I suppose when I first started writing this blog I hated intentional ignorance....
almost as if it was cool to talk with poor English...

I suppose that I was one of them intellectual weirdo pinkos at the end of the bar...
Americans have an inversion to intelligence and folks that are different...
when a redneck asshole or beyatch calls you that, how can you defend yourself??
I differ from the norm...I don't speak with a redneck or even a normal American accent...
Aussies always guess that I'm Canadian...
I suppose my accent isn't so strong because of my Aussie parents??

Ok,,,I diverge...
Palin is a dumb redneck and so is Bush or at least they do a wonderful job pretending to be dumb and countrified.. They imagine that if Jesus , their favorite philosopher, came back to visit, he would go hunting and killing wild animals...yeh ...and then drink a few Buds in the process.. hopefully without maiming each other as our illustrious vp almost shot that rich Texan.... Then they stumble into church believing that they have a seat reserved for themselves on their plane to heaven!!

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

 

HAPPY APRIL FIRST DAY!






















Tuesday, March 31, 2009

 

Norm Stamper
Retired Seattle police chief, member of Law Enforcement Against Prohibition
Posted March 28, 2009 05:57 PM (EST)

Comments
(from Huffington Post)
The president's busy. He's got important things to do, like rescuing the economy, saving jobs and mortgages and industries. But we ought not to let him off the hook for his frivolous dismissal of a widely popular question he faced in Thursday's Online Town Hall.
At the top of the televised event, the president announced that of the 3.5 million votes on the thousands of questions received in advance, one topic "ranked fairly high." It was whether legalizing marijuana would improve the economy and encourage job creation. He responded: "The answer is no, I don't think that is a good strategy to grow our economy." He then asked rhetorically what the question says about "the online audience."
Get it? His in-the-flesh audience got it, chuckling politely at the allusion to a Stoner Nation plugged in to the "internets." The problem for Mr. Obama is that marijuana reform was at or near the top of the list of all questions in three major categories: budget, health care reform, green jobs and energy. Our leader doesn't seem to understand that millions of his interlocutor-constituents are actually quite serious about the issue.
Which is not to say that drugs, particularly pot, doesn't offer up a rich if predictable vein of humor. Cheech and Chong's vintage "Dave's not here!" routine is still a side-splitter. As Larry the Cable Guy would say, "I don't care who you are, that's funny right there."But there's nothing comical about tens of millions of Americans being busted, frightened out of their wits, losing their jobs, their student loans, their public housing, their families, their freedom...
And show me the humor in a dying cancer patient who's denied legal access to a drug known to relieve pain and suffering.
Having just returned from Minnesota whose state lawmakers are entertaining a conservative, highly restrictive medical marijuana law, I can tell you what's not funny to Joni Whiting.
Ms. Whiting told the House's Public Safety Policy and Oversight Committee of her 26-year-old daughter Stephanie's two-year battle with facial melanoma that surfaced during the young woman's third pregnancy. The packed hearing room was dead quiet as Ms. Whiting spoke of Stephanie's face being cut off "one inch at a time, until there was nothing left to cut." She spoke of her daughter's severe nausea, her "continuous and uncontrollable pain."Stephanie moved back to her family's home and "bravely began to make plans for the ending of her life." The tumors continued to grow, invading the inside and outside of her mouth, as well as her throat and chest. Nausea was a constant companion. Zofran and (significantly) Marinol, the synthetic pill version of THC, did nothing to abate the symptoms. Stephanie began wasting away. She lost all hope of relief.
Joni's other children approached their mother, begged her to let their sister use marijuana. But Ms. Whiting, a Vietnam veteran whose youngest son recently returned from 18 months in Iraq, was a law-abiding woman. And she was afraid of the authorities. There was no way she would allow the illicit substance in her house. As she held her ground, her grownup kids removed Stephanie from the family home. Three days later, wracked by guilt, Joni welcomed her daughter back. "I called a number of family members and friends...and asked if they knew of anywhere we could purchase marijuana. The next morning someone had placed a package of it on our doorstep. I have never known whom to thank for it but I remain grateful beyond belief." The marijuana restored Stephanie's appetite. It allowed her to eat three meals a day, and to keep the food down. She regained energy and, in the words of her mother, "looked better than I had seen her in months."
Stephanie survived another 89 days, celebrating both Thanksgiving and Christmas with her family.
Shortly after the holidays, Stephanie's pain became "so severe that when she asked my husband and me to lie down on both sides of her and hold her, she couldn't stand the pain of us touching her body."Stephanie died on January 14, 2003 in the room she grew up in, holding her mother's hand. A mother who, as she told the legislative committee, would "have no problem going to jail for acquiring medical marijuana for my suffering child."
Following Joni Whiting's presentation, it was all I could do to hold it together during my own testimony. Such was the power of this one woman's story. And of the sadness and rage roiling inside me as I reflected on the countless other Stephanies who are made to suffer not only the ravages of terminal illness and intractable pain but the callousness and narrow-mindedness of their leaders.
When I finished my testimony, a local police chief, a member of the committee, angrily accused me of disrespecting the police officers in the room--who'd shown up in force, in uniform, to oppose medical marijuana. Wearing a bright yellow tie with the lettering "Police Line, Do Not Cross," the chief charged me with placing more stock in the opinions of doctors than of Minnesota's cops. Guilty, as charged. Who are we, I asked him, to substitute our judgment for that of medical professionals and their patients? Who are we, for that matter, to deny the will of the people.
There's much value in humor, even during times of pain and tragedy. So long as the joke is not at the expense of the suffering.
It's been a bad couple of weeks for the president. His Leno comment about the Special Olympics while self-deprecating and not malicious was certainly tone deaf, followed soon after by his casting gratuitous aspersions at serious advocates of marijuana reform. But Barack Obama is a decent and honorable man, compassionate and wise. I can't believe he would do anything other than what Joni Whiting did if, God forbid, he faced similar choices within his own family. I can't believe he doesn't realize the political value of taking a more reasoned, courageous stand on drug policy reform in general. Or of at least providing honest, thoughtful answers on the issue.Perhaps we should show him what's in it for him? Perhaps we should make certain that in every future "town hall" the president is reassured of the seriousness of the legions of voters working to end cruel and ineffective drug laws.


Git-er-done!

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/norm-stamper/marijuana-no-laughing-mat_b_180378.html

Sunday, March 29, 2009

 


Moonlight on Mermaid Beach!

Saturday, March 28, 2009

 
Jim Gilliam
Founder, WhiteHouse2.org
Posted March 26, 2009 12:51 PM (EST)
Pot Saved My Life, Mr. President

Today, in the historic first online town hall, President Obama fielded questions from nearly a hundred thousand people online. One of the most popular questions, and indeed, one of the most popular questions in any forum that lets people vote on what matters to them, was about whether legalizing marijuana would help improve the economy and job creation.
Chuckling, the President said: "I don't know what this says about the online audience, but [laughing] this was a fairly popular question, we want to make sure it was answered. The answer is no, I don't think that is a good strategy to grow our economy."
I've never smoked pot in my life, indeed I've never smoked anything at all. Despite that, a couple years ago, I needed a double lung transplant. My lungs were scarred beyond repair due to side effects from radiation treatments I'd had nearly a decade earlier in my two battles with cancer.
I lost a lot of weight in this process, to the point where it was life-threatening. My lung doctor suggested "marinol," the synthetic (and legal) version of THC, the active ingredient in marijuana. I laughed at him, and asked "Was this going to make me stupid? I don't want to be a pothead!" He said one of his patients put on 40 pounds with it. I didn't have any other option.
It worked. Marinol allowed me to put on enough weight to get me out of the danger zone until we figured out the underlying problem was a bleeding ulcer in my stomach, a reaction to one of the anti-rejection drugs I was taking for the transplant.
Pot saved my life. It's a miracle drug, even the crappy non-organic kind made in a lab.
The President will be asked this question again, and maybe next time he won't laugh at us.


http://blog.norml.org/2009/03/26/president-obama-what-is-so-funny-about-taxing-and-regulating-marijuana/


"UPDATE!!! UPDATE!!! UPDATE!!!

Since many of you are writing President Obama on your own, NORML would like to assist the process by providing you with a link for contacting the White House directly. Please log on and send your e-mails by going here.

Also, please check The Hill.com (Read and comment here) and HuffingtonPost.com (Read and comment here) on Friday for updated versions of this commentary, and please post your feedback to those forums as well.

Speaking live moments ago President Barack Obama pledged “to open up the White House to the American people.”

Well, to some of the American people that is.

As for those tens of millions of you who believe that cannabis should be legally regulated like alcohol — and the tens of thousands of you who voted to make this subject the most popular question in today’s online Presidential Town Hall — well, your voice doesn’t really matter.

Asked this morning whether he “would … support the bill currently going through the California legislation to legalize and tax marijuana, boosting the economy and reducing drug cartel related violence,” the President responded with derision.

“There was one question that was voted on that ranked fairly high and that was whether legalizing marijuana would improve the economy and job creation, and I don’t know what this says about the online audience,” he laughed.

“The answer is no, I don’t think that [is] a good strategy.”

Obama’s cynical rebuff was short-sighted and disrespectful to a large percentage of his supporters. After all, was it not this very same “online audience” that donated heavily to Obama’s Presidential campaign and ultimately carried him to the White House?

Second, as I’ve written previously in The Hill and elsewhere, the overwhelming popularity of the marijuana law reform issue — as manifested in this and in similar forums — illustrates that there is a significant, vocal, and identifiable segment of our society that wants to see an end to America’s archaic and overly punitive marijuana laws.

The Obama administration should be embracing this constituency, not mocking it.

Third, will somebody please ask the President: “What is it that you think is so funny about the subject of marijuana law reform?”

Since 1965, police have arrested over 20 million Americans for violating marijuana laws, yet nearly 90 percent of teenagers say that pot is “very easy” or “fairly easy” to obtain. That’s funny?

According to this very administration, there is an unprecedented level of violence occurring at the Mexico/US border — much of which is allegedly caused by the trafficking of marijuana to the United States by drug cartels. America’s stringent enforcement of pot prohibition, which artificially inflates black market pot prices and ensures that only criminal enterprises will be involved in the production and sale of this commodity, is helping to fuel this violence. Wow, funny stuff!

Finally, two recent polls indicate that a strong majority of regional voters support ending marijuana prohibition and treating the drug’s sale, use, and distribution like alcohol. A February 2009 Zogby telephone poll reported that nearly six out of ten of voters on the west coast think that cannabis should be “taxed and legally regulated like alcohol and cigarettes.” A just-released California Field Poll reports similar results, finding that 58 percent of statewide voters believe that regulations for cannabis should be the same or less strict than those for alcohol.

Does the President really think that all of these voters are worthy of his ridicule?

Let the White House laugh for now, but the public knows that this issue is no laughing matter. This week alone, legislators in Illinois, Minnesota, and New Hampshire voted to legalize the use of marijuana for authorized individuals. Politicians in three additional states heard testimony this week in favor of eliminating criminal penalties for all adults who possess and use cannabis. And lawmakers in Massachusetts and California are now debating legally regulating marijuana outright.

The American public is ready and willing to engage in a serious and objective political debate regarding the merits of legalizing the use of cannabis by adults. And all over this nation, whether Capitol Hill wants to acknowledge it or not, they are engaging in this debate as we speak.

Sorry Obama, this time the joke’s on you."

Friday, March 27, 2009

 


Wednesday, March 25, 2009

 

I think he needs a shave and needs to clean out his ears!

 

Letter to Garvald

I think many of us humans go through this feeling of depression or melacholy, depending on the lunar cycle (?) perhaps...
when I herbalize and realize my anger sometimes when "i'm on a budget and what you thought was a few drinks turns into an expensive outing...you worry...you show high anxiety, not the go lucky playboy lifestyle that perhaps you envisioned??
How can you handle all the pressures of fatherhood??
I have bills to take care of , taxes to pay, insurance to pay over in America, calls to the immigration lawyer, calls to find an accountant...
4 years ago, it was a lot less worries, depression...
all you seek maybe is a no worries sort of bliss bringing up Colin Murray Garvald and having an essentially low impact and carbon imprint lifestyle...
I want to enjoy it for as long as possible...
I don't no how long it can last...

I feel overwhelmed, especially opening the mail to find all these financial complications overseas and the health care being canceled because my bank went inactive!!

Life is not a box of chocolates...
but it sure is nice to go out and check the waves to get away from the kind of funk your mind is going into!

but then at least for a little while, you can escape to the ocean and swim past the last breaker..
just before the sun sets behind the Mermaid Beach homes of some very rich Aussies!
you watch the sun sneak behind these palaces...
you are floating in the higher gravity salt water, biding your time to catch that beautiful wave, you watch the sun set while on the peaks of the waves.. when that beautiful and dangerous wave beckons you to
ride her for as long as you can...
before you have to lift your head for a breath!

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

 
More and more, I am so happy that I am father to such a beautiful old soul as
my son..
He smiles at me and laughs with joy every time he sees me in his waking conscious!
I sing a song with him listening intently to my every word...
I play with him in front of the large bedroom mirror...understanding the mirror is a whole new event...he sees a reflection of himself and then of his father at the same time...How does this make sense...He takes it all in!...and gives a little laugh of glee...
I dress him up in his mermaid beach surf lifesaving shirt and speedos!
I can't wait to show him off to our favorite staff at the club!

when I look at him, he seems to be all knowing ....almost as if he's had a whole 'nother life in another world...He comes into to this world with 2 parents clueless about parenting...both of us focused on your happiness and well being!


Sunday, March 22, 2009

 

Instant waves of thought surfing the cyberocean!

Someone just did a search and found my site:

"Escape the Okie Zone - 19 visits - 12/27/08
I just had a cool chat with a regular lifeguard, Dave White yesteday. He was the bloke that pulled the great white shark from the ocean. ...www.escapetheokiezone.com/ - 977k - Cached - Similar pages -"

Just few minutes ago, I checked the cities of the world that visit my site from Feedjit...
a surfer from Brisbane did a search for "Dave White Lifeguard"

He seems to be a kind of celebrity here on Mermaid Beach...He is a very relaxed cool gentleman that would be an asset in any surf rescue....
I'd like to go into more detail sometime...
I mentioned this site to him so if Dave,
I hope that I'm right about your pulling in the Great White???
Please feel free to comment?
http://www.google.com/search?sourceid=navclient&ie=UTF-8&rlz=1T4HPAB_enAU311AU287&q=dave+white+lifeguard

 

HOW DO WE DEFINE HAPPINESS??

OR CRAZINESS??


















IF U ARE CRAZY, U MIGHT AS WELL BE HAPPY!




So DON'T WORRY!!


Be Happy!


WE GET OVERWHELMED WITH WORRY AND THEN YOU THINK WHAT WILL IT MATTER 50 YEARS FROM NOW??

but now there is someone who might be around 50 years from now?? you being here is the reason he is here and will be here!!.... Perhaps a continuation of your consciousness

Remember (?))
sneaking into the old haunted fibro made boarding house over 43 years ago in the summer/Xmas of '65 looking for those big green coke bottles that could be turned in for threepence each!!
With that many bottles , you could buy your favorite rubber soldiers and a tasty icecream from the local store down Hedges ave... when it was not "Millionaire's beach"...

You had no clue that finding this place would pique the curiosity of my father and Uncle Ron....

A Xmas vacation in Oz with my Aussie family!!




I was so happy playing with all of our cousins from my Mother's and father's sides from the variety of cities of this beautiful country I called home!!




....being cuddled by this loving family that were extensions of myself and my culture...I escape back this wonderful warm cozy feeling...when there were no worries...I kept a diary and was proud of myself and my future...
with actually no worries of the future....puff, puff, pass...

Your self image should not depend on what others believe about you
and the image that you might create??

It is ultimately your own belief in yourself and the way you surf those waves of life...
from the very tiny waves that you don't notice on a very calm sea to the large ominous waves coming in from the remnants of storms out at sea...

it's up to you to catch that large gorgeous wave just at the right moment to be in that zone just ahead of the frothy turbulence for as long as you can hold your breath....

kick like crazy with the help of your magical extension of your foot, the flipper...
you are swimming (??) faster than you ever have before as the water rushes against your body....

you know that as soon as you catch your breath...
you'll lose that gorgeous wave !!

"We have chosen to be on earth because there is something we want to learn that can only happen by inhabiting a body. Some of us are here to repay a debt, learn about love, or teach forgiveness. Most of us are here for a combination of reasons, we carry this information in our souls, all we have to do is remember. As you go through your journey, try not to forget how brave you are, being here now. Honor yourself." from the Daily OM

 

I look forward to the surf/swim handicap race with the Mermaid Beach Surf Club!
We go off about every 30 secs with some swimmers starting as early as 2 to 5 minutes....we swim out past the last breaker....there are often several sets of waves that we have to swim past unless we able to catch the rip current that escalates us out to the sea past the waves and calmer waters...I stay calm in the middle of the race while passing each of the buoys...I see others along with me in the waters and then past the second buoy floating in the waves...I mistakenly swim a little further down the current while I see a lady pass me on the left about 10 meters while I wait for some good waves. I don't stay calm ... a wave overtakes me and churns me around in the turbulence while I struggle to reach for a breath....then I am fighting against the current until I finally catch a wave sometimes swimming on my back to keep an eye on the ever coming waves... I stumble in at 11 minutes with a couple veteran ladies
coming in a few seconds ahead of me!






Friday, March 20, 2009

 
wow...I just love these epiphanies!!
I realize more and more that this is the place for my Queenslander, Aussie son...
it would have been so wonderful to just get him the Aussie passport...
the passport to life on the beach!
It will be so cool to bring up Colin Murray Garvald on the beach swimming everyday!
wouldn't it be wonderful to finally have it all together as our paradise on earth??




I see ourselves living vicariously through his eyes!

 
it was so cool visiting with Stevo's Ocean street surf club...all of these cool blokes love to surf and drink beer...they are the local neighborhood of surfing mates...they represent what is one of the wonderful things about the "fraternities and sorororities" of matedom...
the quintessential (?) essence of the Aussie spirit...
folks here care about their friends and other aussies!

on a slightly americanized tangent, I watched this DVD,""Surfer Dude" with Willie Nelson as the "dude's" mentor/muse/spirit/cannabizer/wizard (playing a small role giving him the magical grass and goats to eat his lawn's grass....I always had the same idea ever since I bought a home in Okiehoma City! ...many a lazy, cannabized summer, I regretted having the simple low carbon imprint of goats...maybe a male and female...so we could have kids and milk...maybe even make some goat cheese...yeh ...I had dreams of this magical hippy commune in the early 80's...will this ever happen??....puff, puff, pass?please? ;)
wow....thanks to the epipephenous herb, I adding a few colors of the rainbow....
I had delusions of writing this Aussie?american novel/ documentary and movie of my life and adventure!! anyway the movie would have better with better acting from Mathew Mcdorkil...I don't know why chicks go crazy over this dude?? gag me with a mangrove seed!
I love Willie and Woody Harrelson with (his documentary on weed..so he played the stoner mate well, but they could have picked a more enigmatic/ charismatic character like Val Kilmer with Bill Murray's sense of humor!>..other than that the movie was flat!
But these dudes love the movie...I am guessing because of the way the movie did capture the surfer's obsession with the waves...I wish they could have had an actor that captured the sufer's philosophy...he could have been more laid back and basically more charm!
Stevo is a charmer/philosopher/guru of the surf.... he is a leader/minister of this philosophy/church(??)...
each day, religiously, they come to the Ocean st. perch...along with Dano, Shano, Richo, and a few other regular mates of the Ocean St. club...
he imparts many bits of wisdom about the ocean and the Gold Coast joie de vivre ...
I love chatting with these blokes of the coast... They all have adopted the philosophy of loving the beach/surf and all of her varying nuances... We all want to pay our omage to the Godess of the Sea...
My son was born on the coast...He will be immersed in this wonderful culture!



Wednesday, March 18, 2009

 
Wowww!!!
All I can say is ,
Follow your dream!!
Don't let anybody stop you!!

My older brother just gave the same ole, same ole...
I don't hear from him at all except when he thinks he's been the good older brother ...
apparently word got out from my cousin's mother...(who I love dearly)
that we need help and shouldn't be hanging out in oz???
at least that's the general opinion of most of the relatives...
so what do I say ???
Fuck it!
Let's take a road trip and enjoy ourselves!
It's vacation!

Should I cave in and let ourselves fly back to the states with our tail between our legs??
Fuck No...I have been talked out of of this paradise for too long!! Lets workout, take care of business and have a kick ass beautiful family that knows how to have fun on the beach!! It's our future!
Go team Garvald!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

 
overwhelmed as usual because of my fault...prograsstination!!
need to call immigration authorities about visas...our future!

need to call about making sure my land tax will be exempt next year!

Sunday, March 15, 2009

 




Friday, March 13, 2009

 



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The cyclone is over...the full moon is over...and hopefully we all can recuperate and stabilize...
Looks like the oil spill that hit a reef further north has not reached the gorgeous Gold Coast...
always everything seems to better on a sunny day , especially out here with our gorgeous view...
why worry?, be happy!

l

Thursday, March 12, 2009

 

KHATMANDU!


Khatmandu visited my blog!! wow...for what reason could a famous town in Nepal pull up my site??




"On the way through the desert between Herat and Kandahar in Afghanistan
Several young backpackers in the late sixties and the early seventies travelled the long way by land from Europe to Kathmandu through Turkey, Iran, Afghanistan, Pakistan and India to Nepal. The majority spent a few months or half an year out there, and a few of them settled in Nepal or India for years, living on a low budget with hash and other drugs. It became a trend, unmistakable connected to the hippie generation, founding the backpacker's massive conquer of the world several years later. But why did they do it? There are several answers to that question. The romance of the road, the attraction of drugs, the need of breaking the daily, monotonous way of living, the search for direct experience, the desire to explore what's on the other side of the desert or the mountains, the curiosity to foreign, exotic cultures. And to quite a few, a search for their own identity. However, no matter which reasons took them on the trail, they have one thing in common: Few of them remained the same persons after their return, and it's no exaggeration to say, that the trip became decisive for their behaviour and points of view for the rest of their life. Several Danish backpackers from that period, who came home after a long stay in India or Nepal, were unable to do very much during the next half year after their arrival - apart from gazing at a wall, trying to digest their great experience! Frontiers of many kinds were crossed by the hippies and the backpackers of the past. In the late sixties and early seventies, travelling to the third world was much more complicated and unusual than today, and for the same reason, places like Kathmandu and most of the sites along The Hippie Trail were much more exotic than now. In the sixties and early seventies, individual travels to The Middle East and The Far East was an exotic experience, which had the capability to change you forever. Backpackers from the sixties and seventies didn't have today's security at all. E-mail, credit cards and mobile phones didn't exist, and a phone call to your home country was a rare emergency action. On the other hand, travellers still had the feeling of being true pioneers and explorers. Those who had never been outside Europe or the other western countries - which was by far the major part - got the cultural shock of their life. The first really exotic country on the route was Turkey, but the biggest challenge of them all was the confrontation with India. India still has a vast diversity of religions, culture, languages and nature to offer, but to many - especially if you are not used to travelling as an individual - the country can be a real challenge for you! The best things to bring with you are a relaxed mind, patience and a good sense of humour. However, if you don't like curiosity, crowds of people, bureaucracy and a certain amount of insanity, you shouldn't go there, not even today!"
http://www.ponty.dk/gallery9.htm
I wondered what the fascination of hippies and old classic songs had for Khatmandu?? So I did a search and found this other site...

 

Beautiful Burleigh

Coincidentally, the Burleigh ranger, stopped by the Ocean St. perch while Daniel and I were chatting about all the nuances and science of the surf... we were chatting about the diminishing forests along the coast and he said that the bloke that with the ranger uniform is the Burleigh ranger!....the kinda job that everyone wants including my wife...like working on Hamilton Island!!
maybe not as nice as that place...(they had a contest paid by the Queensland tourist bureau for the best ranger of Hamilton Island?)



This pic was taken from Burleigh of Little Burleigh,,,, I took this photo while riding my bike to this little island of what is left of the subtropical rainforest...There are many endangered plant species that grow here and in only a few other place...It is a cool place to ride your mountain bike around..(bikes aren't allowed but just be careful of pedestrians ;)

I just had a cool chat with a regular lifeguard, Dave White yesteday. He was the bloke that pulled the great white shark from the ocean. The shark had pulled the orange bu0y which was attached to the baitline close to the swimming area while I was swimming on October 18th.. I had been swimming along shore from the magic mountain area down the beach when I had seen him paddle out to check what was causing the buoy to move so much. He had pulled it up and saw the shark hooked to the baitline at the end. He had thought it was dead but when he had pulled it into shore the waves revived him. It was alive when it was brought to shore.





I'd like to go into more detail about this story sometime. There are a lot of stories of the Gold Coast and it's history... Dave mentioned to me about a gentleman named Roger who knows a lot about the history of the coast. I would like to add the pics and movies that my father, Colin , had taken. It would be a shame to not help document the history of our family.

By coincidence, Dave, had worked for my uncle's meat factory in Towoomba, the birthplace of my mother!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

 

WHY WORRY? BE HAPPY!

Things were so simple...
when I had no worries...
I was a tennis bum who evolved into a middle aged
beach bum/stoner/philosopher/volunteer lifeguard-body surfing/father/husband.....
the last two titles come with the most responsibilities... I deeply want to be a good father and I guess it would help to please the mama so the whole family can be happy ( =without worries and free??)....would we be happy without worries and free??? My better half is taking a bike ride to escape from me...
it's a full moon and she is in one of her manic moods ....king and queen tides are happening as the stormy weather and varying degrees of cyclones hit the Coast of Oz....the waves knock up to the fence of our backyard of dune vegetation...


(I guess....I'm no shrink and I have never trusted the profession or philosophy of diagnosing and making judgements that someone is mildly or seriously fucked up)
my angel b is very angry about not including her on the checking account while I was on the phone with the New Mexico bank wondering why my account was put on inactive status...
but maybe it's a good thing before somebody uses my account ....

I'm sorry honey, I love you
but....financial trust and love most often appear to be separate entities... I fear losing financial control of this little nest egg that I've saved and waited for all my life
along with the financial safety and coziness...
we are in store for some very wild times with little trust in banks or any kind of investment...
except that
the safest place to save is land...


except what will happen if a tidal wave takes away all of the beach??
or a tornado blows away my house in the Okie Zone??

che sera sera...the future's not ours to see...
happiness is living in the now...
to err and sin is human
to forgive is divine (?) (if there is a God or a place for angels and good people??)
money is the root of all evil
and it appears to be the main reason for many relationships souring over time...yep I'm a tight ass and so were my parents...
but thanks to them and my tight ass ways....
we can now live comfortably on the beach for a few more months
unless the Oz governments taxes away any cash that I have left...

my greedy banking brother of course took most of the cash bailing out on this little haven on the beach...oh well

we would have been comfortable for many years if we both kept it..
Ron is already extremely wealthy as are most bank CEOS at the extreme expense and detriment to their fellow brothers and human beings!
we both could have profited from this investment in land over the long term....bummer....
so many times I feel like a beach bummer....so why worry, be happy??
let's enjoy the benefit of the infamous herb ...while most of the past leaders of our country have denied enjoying it...
while here in Oz, the leader of the "liberal" opposition party, Malcolm Turnbull, admits to have actually inhaled the herb in carefree days of you...Liberal is conservative in Oz as most things are the opposite here down Unda!
Ie... cyclones, toilets and driving are all in the opposite direction from at least from the American perspective...
I chatted with Daniel just now...
He's obsessed with the surf ...it's a very healthy obsession with many of the folks here including myself
The sea has a way of drawing your attention everyday...
it's a daily source of entertainment
Everyday there is a daily stream of folks staring from our favorite Ocean St. lookout perch ...
I grew up for a few years in these two blocks between the Parthenon and 135 Hedges avenue...
We all religiously observe how Neptune, our God of the Sea,
is behaving
he has evolved into a Zen Master of travelling on the waves with boards and flippers

he and Steve are both resident masters of the beach

learning the science and nuances of the sea..
Daniel grew up on the surf learning to swim and surf with the Nippers, the young surf club class that is free to the public

coastal residents donate their time to their local surf life saving club....
each weekend there are classes on our beach with hundreds of young nippers learning how to swim , surf and rescue as early as age 5! That would be our dream for Colin Murray Garvald!

That is the perfect backyard playground for children!
Is it the money??

with many women it appears to always to be the bottom line of a relationship
for humans , it makes or breaks us...

this currency 0f coins and bills that we use as a tool of civilization to control us just the way religion is civilizations way to control the thinking of mankind

why can't folks realize that the best things in life are free??...folks teach our children how to be lifeguards for free...

wouldn't it be nice if we just donated our time and
quit being so greedy??
This beach bum lifestyle has certain limits and budgets....
Just to have this place in paradise is costing so much in taxes, rates and fees...I suppose to be without worries and stress would make a person much happier..Now I am doing my best to be an Aussie beach bum...without any worries..especially financial ...
we both now have bikes which cause very little carbon imprint...if only my other half could be happy without having to buy into the yank philosophy of spend now and paying later... I suppose that I might sound very selfish...and thoughtless?? I believe that I am being very thoughtful of our future

and how our child will have the choice to inherit this lifestyle!!
"Our relationship with our father will often affect our relationships with the other men who will come into our lives. You may have learned to behave and think in certain ways because those were the ways that your father acted and thought. Certain talents that you possess may have been passed down to you by your father.
There also may be personal issues that you inherited by virtue of who your father is. Understanding how your relationship with your father has influenced you can help you better understand yourself and the life that you have created. In a time when mothers, the sacred feminine, and female energy are being honored, it is important not to forget the importance of fathers. Father energy and mother energy are the two complementary energies necessary to bring a healthy human being to fruition in the world. Many of the ideas surrounding fathers are changing in the wake of more modern parenting styles and the more egalitarian roles that are evolving between the sexes. More men are embodying the mother energy these days, and a woman can provide father energy for her children. Either way, we can all benefit from thinking about our fathers and how they have influenced who we’ve become and the ways that we walk through this world. Let us remember to honor our fathers."
from the Daily OM

Monday, March 09, 2009

 



ya know....sometimes, it would be cool to really believe that there is an afterlife...
I guess I see some of the gung ho Christians dancing in almost mesmerizing trance...

I guess depending on the herb you smoked or who you were with....you could get into a woodstock type of communal thought....
you are with a bunch of other believers really getting into with the dancing and speaking of tongues.... you then vote because you believe the future president will believe the same way...
....You all wanna believe there has got to be a better place.!!.....
you see a new day!!...and you wonder if you could do something wonderful that would make you think life is fulfilling...
I suppose one of the major reasons some folks go into depression is that they might be missing out on the party...they have been seeing black, white and grey...
or they are missing sunshine and color in their lives!
you fall in love and everything is like a summer morning in paradise!

I have had so many relationships and lived in so many places...I love falling in love

I have seen enough dawns to sometimes wake up bitter...

I sure hope that I make the best of this place and this marriage...I love seeing the bright sun come in again after overcoming a long few days of sub tropical storms!!

I know my vulnerabilities and weaknesses as past women have found out...
so when will I ever get the day right.??..

I have seen so many dawns ...hoping that the next day would be better...Maybe I could strive one day to have the perfect day, the way Bill Murray did in "Ground Hog Day"....to perhpas know that I am evolving into the loving ,understanding father that I would have loved to have had!

....Would I like a day of great achievement so that Mom and Dad would be jumping up and down from up above the way they were watching me win the 200 yard freestyle swimming race in the swimming championships of Rochester New York!
( I sent the essays about Ground Hog Day to Dad in Australia...He loved it when I wrote him these long essays while he paid for my classes to become a teacher...I didnt seem a long time ago...almost like I could get on the phone and ask him about my latest essay...Perhaps he was reading them from his favorite chair of our Parthenon flat..It was a warmer feeling of our family being together only a year or 2 after Mom passed away)



Friday, March 06, 2009

 

I guess it's all about your perspective...your view...

Maybe this is the way you rationalize your thoughts...

You might view things as black and white and then see different shades of gray


then you might be able to see color


or

suddenly a branch from a neighbor's tree breaksand your view of the coast gets a little better!





you can see little bit of Burleigh 1o kms down the beach just through the opening of the trees..

I think we sometimes don't see the forest for the trees... our views can be blinded




Maybe we don't open our minds up to all the alternatives...

I realized very soon what I was missing out by not living here...
I felt myself getting into the rat race...
instead of really finding happiness...
Now I finally I feel like I am on my way to happiness...

but it's a roller coaster along the way!

but I have to learn how to live in the now and change my perspective on life just to open up the branches that are blocking my way...




It is a total mindset that we as a family need to get into...

the last few days have been so much better... I feel more of a purpose as a father...I have seen how I can get things done ...I see with the right nutrition, the right vitamins and herbs and the right amount of sleep my wife can be so much of a nicer , more effective and happier mother!




Angel is so pleasant and happy, especially after she eats a nice meal that I fixed for her :)



"You are unique. There is no one else like you in the entire universe. In honor of your unique self, it is good to acknowledge and embrace the special qualities that make you the person that you are. One way to do this is to not compare yourself with other people. ...

It is sometimes almost easier to look outside of ourselves and feel like we are deficient in comparison to other people rather than taking responsibility for our own progress in relation to the fulfillment of our life purpose. It actually takes more courage to be self-referential and look at ourselves to see whether we are measuring up to our standards or meeting our full potential. Each of us has very special gifts, and we are here for very specific reasons. We each have a life purpose to fulfill and with this come the lessons that we must learn and the circumstances that we must go through in order to evolve as spiritual beings. To compare our lives to other people’s lives when we have no idea of what they are here to learn or fulfill doesn’t benefit anyone – especially you. Instead, if we can accept ourselves, appreciate the special talents and qualities that we alone possess, and realize that each of us is going through certain kinds of experiences for a reason, we are less likely focus so much on what other people have or are doing. Realizing and valuing our uniqueness enables us to bring out the best in ourselves so we can get on with living rather than preoccupying ourselves with meaningless comparisons. Try to not compare yourself to others, and you will see how much you have and how special you are."

FROM THE DAILY OM"


Wednesday, March 04, 2009

 
Ang and I sure enjoyed "Pineapple Express"...she gets a kick out of seeing me laugh so hard....and then to connect elsewhere only added to a beautiful evening...
I was telling her how I might have 5 good years of being in really fantastic shape...
we have to learn how to enjoy everyday as if it is our last...
my honey was worried if there were any life insurance policies with double indemnity if I get eaten by a shark....it's cool swimming in the surf at dusk but then there's more risk of these large predators hanging around going for the bait fish...
I keep my eyes open so I can punch the nose of him if I see him first...

I can still see well underwater in the approaching darkness
then surf to the safety of shore to check out these palaces built sometimes on 3 or 4 block of the beach...one of these palaces looks like a doll house with all glass windows exposed to the publics' envious view from the beach...with some of these palaces they've gradually taken over the dune vegetation to make it as if the public beach has become the domain of this "castle"...
at night they have a huge lighthouse powerful beam on their beach
it's almost as if the beam tells everyone about their palace and the beach is theirs...
they've put a large trampoline for the children
of course, it's right in the middle of what is supposed to be dune vegetation

I guess, according to council, the wealthy owners can have landscapers extend their lawns into the public dune vegetation as they plant species indigenous to the area and which hold the sand better!

ok...what is happiness...I guess becoming Aussie will be my ultimate goal....
Imagine someone wanting to be American as much as I want to be Aussie...just look at that blue ocean beckoning for you put on your speedos and dive straight into the clean blue water...It feels like home...the place I frolicked in as a young child of the 60's..

I'm having my usual epiphenous herbs .... enjoying a few complimentary leaves from our gracious hosts from the gorgeous hinterland...
while I feel the finity of life more and more...I need to share as much as I can each day ...and also write a journal...
as we discover how to enjoy the next 2 decades of parenthood while still having lives for ourselves to enjoy..
little moments that we will cherish as we age together...
have some Cappucinos at the beach cafe near our favorite surf club...
watching each new moment of Colin Murray Garvald's life fold vicariously before us...

 





It's cool, when folks have obstacles and they overcome them...we both have been through a lot...

I have found this out more than ever..sleep and nutrition are in the top 5 list for a relationship to last...

when a couple is sleep deprived and hungry= anger and back seat driving

= driving on the wrong side of the road...

fortunately just outside Nimbin, I was going around the curve in the beautiful hill

this nice English lady was driving slow!

otherwise, we might not be telling you the story...from then on my other half kept insisting on driving until the next morning when

Ang started driving on the right hand side coming out of our sleep deprived night at a nice motel 10 kms outside of Nimbin!

after a tough experience it's best to keep a healthy positive mindset on what we learned!

Monday, March 02, 2009

 
a picture is a thousand words x 10 with ADD
x10 with certaiin herbs= 100 x the normal(??) bloke's perspective and perce
ption...
Do you watch one movie and focus only on your movie
of life or do you see several movies going on at once in your brain...
Living with another person with this disability(talent?) to encumber their brain only helps me realize my own condition combined with drastic mood swings.....How does one cope with this anchor on his/her brain and then feel overwhelmed with so many tasks that a multitasker could have finished long long long ago...
If I was more of a go getter, I would have moved heaven onto earth to live permanently in this gorgeous paradise of 36 straight kilometers of beautifully yellow sandy beaches!


 

When I was swimming this evening in the surf with my blue tinted goggles ,
I saw this mango seed floating in the surf...
I grabbed it thinking immediately of what the mangrove seed represents in my mind...


perhaps landing after the long ocean limbo on some island paradise


so I threw it towards the beach ...


thinking "if it lands on the beach...it's gotta be a sign" (the hopeless romantic taking hold of me after another challenging day of matrimony)
eventually, the surf took the fruit to it's metaphoric spot on the beach in front of my ole Mermaid Beach home from well over 4 decades ago...it was only a fibro beach shack compared to miniature ostentatious baroque palace with it's own personal hot tub took it's place


where we frolicked in the autumn mist skipping to school


no worries in the world mate!



...I had to pick this mangrove seed up from the receding tides' delivery!
just maybe it was a sign for me not to give up on my dreams


(in my hopeless romantic spiritually hopeful agnostic self)


.....this surf and all the new surf mates we are making friends with...


...all with different connections...


this little utopia can be so inviting and simple...


if you don't let the negatives vibes of jealousy and envy from those that hate or despise your freedom from that 4 letter word "work!"


why feel guilty about having to own a car and make a huge carbon impring everyday???


why not keep a simple lifestyle of us just being full time parents/beach/surflifesaving bums???



all the obstacles in life seem small compared to the waves this floating seed encountered after it was dropped by the parent plant from perhaps some distant island into the waiting ocean....


this limbo between lives....from some mangrove colony thousands of miles away...


about to sprout it's seed on another continent perhaps...


could it be a metaphor for my life...or the accent of the herb....
Robert the Bruce used the metaphor of the spider continuing to build spider webs after the spider's home was continually shattered...while he was hiding out from the English in the time of the Scottish William Wallace....she gave him the courage to never give up and he rallied the Scots to run the English out of his land! I think of the mango seed waiting for it's spot on the beach
I have our spot for our family to flourish...
Colin Murray will join the nippers and walk to school...He can have the luxury of walking back to our home with his feet being cooled by the waves the way they did when Ron and I walked back home from Broadbeach State School!
Lately our family has been challenged and we met them...
it's amazing when we faced our fears and made those phone calls to the Acute team just for Ang to hear the diagnosis...Post Natal Trauma..and she was now voluntary so they wouldn't take her back there...When she was in the ward, she was labeled involuntary ..
I was proud of standing behind her today and getting her out of the cuckoo's nest two weeks ago...
I rode my bike to the Oasis shopping center and bought her some Maca to help with her hormones, some herbal pills to help her relax and get the good rejuvenating sleep she needs, and some spirulina which has many trace elements from the sea...folks with emotional imbalance are lacking the essential elements...I will make sure she has seafood which gives her all trace elements needed by humans yet they are very lacking in the modern diet!
I also bought some brewers yeast to give both of the essential B vitamins that are good for stress!
we will live on the beach...I wondered when I would encounter that mango seed!
I remember how prophetic this little bit of poetry was written 4 and a half years ago!

" Will you find your Oz??In search of what ??....comfort, satisfaction, lost loves to be regained??...
how would it have been if you had been the father to a lost love's children??


....so many missed roads not taken
all these chances for you to take root as a lost mangrove seed waiting to come out of it's ocean limbo....
to sprout your roots and let the sands accumulate on your spot with other plants joining in on the sharing of the new accumulating sand of your mangrove island!
your island settlement in your favorite lattitude of the tropical waves...
the Mango fruit could gets lost in the winds of fate and destiny....
Maybe God or this Universal Energy created this ever evolving life cycle ...


happiness, love, family....


you could have landed on another beach and your mangrove colony would have been different
what love materialized?....


and to have never known love....


because you werent there and never had been born or dropped into the ocean of life,,,
Like Jimmy Stewart what would have happeed if he never existed in Pottersville...


how would the colony be different??
time with someone somewhere affects the whole community and mushrooms out in many waves to the whole human race....


what if you let your pursuit of happiness evolve the way u feel the spirits above want you to follow..
they want you to have a happy journey finding your colony of growing roots
so enjoy that jouney to happiness Garvald! you'll find your roots and the beginnings of your colony~


(ok...I edited the poem with its innumerable mistakes from a cannabized evening in 3004!)




HEY BABY! WASS YOUR MAJOR?

Saturday, February 28, 2009

 

Ole man swim in the surf contest...I was tenth with a 9:15 handicap....Dale won with a 6 minute handicap...
He had a power play to gain the extra few minutes handicap!...(term I might explain lata)



 




"So, how could you change your focus when everything seems to be going wrong, or when life gets really hard, or when you are discouraged, disgruntled, dissatisfied, or just plain scared? Any ideas?What suggestions do you have that might be helpful to those of us who are challenged with keeping a positive attitude?"





Hmmm, How can I change focus??....I go for a swim and a race with the volunteer life club team... I focus on getting in the zone of the wave...






when Im in the surf, I'm not scared....maybe just a little of a very big wave crashing me down and tumbling me all the place....and ummm, sharks!! ...I prefer this feeling of being free in the water to the thoughts that dwell in my beach abode!






I am scared when my wife needs meds...but they fuck with her body and her mind...so she goes back to her self medication of cigarettes and any alcohol laying around...I get upset and catch myself nagging her...






this only gets back into the teenage child still rebelling against her parents...






So what should we do??






I just enjoy a little herb and my wanders to lots of alternatives under it's influence...my own self medication...what a hippocritter!



Friday, February 27, 2009

 

both of us must like the color, blue...
I love the Pacific and the blue sky...

I guess we must love blue

It's so much easier for the both of us when the meds start...

The sharp edge and the anxious irritability are gone..

when you polish off 4 beers in a row..(my last beers!)...it's easier to forgive you!!



This blog has been an open book for the people in my life of the past, the present and the future...

and for wayward bored surfers of the blogosphere

Will this ever turn into a book??

Where am I going with this other than just documenting my life and tying to figure out my own pursuit of happiness???...

but it's easier and more fun to share this crazy pursuit...

gotta make sure to wear our helmets...it could be a very bumpy ride!!


Thursday, February 26, 2009

 


It's cool seeing my blog
over the years....I had no clue 5 years ago that I would be here starting a family in this Oz paradise!


Today, we went bike riding down to Little Burleigh for a swim and a beer...


Thank you, Annette, for baby sitting Colin so my soulmate could see how gorgeous this coast is by following the coast with our cycles!




Love is the irresistable desire to keep your loved ones happy!

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

 
I love to start off my blogs under the influence of the epiphenous herb and pick a pic from the expanding collection of moments in time)...I suddenly notice in the pics how red the hair is appearing on his head...he's developing a personality...I love to see the traits of our ancestors come out in his features...we are trying to figure out his red hair...
Ang thinks it's from my krimmer side since there are no redheads in her family...
she saw how red our cousin, Sam's hair is!!

ok.....so I think sometimes we are blessed...it just depends on one's view of reality....isnt it nice to think of the "fantasy(?)" that there could be a heaven with angels actually looking down on us (don't say that in front of a shrink or she might put you away as Nurse Ratched Roberts chaufered my wife to the Robina Loony bin...sleep deprivation could maker her think
"she's an angel with powers!"...)

....how long can we be happy or is it easier to just be in the pursuit of happiness??...

...I used to wonder what it would be like to be a father..now it dawns on me slowly...the permanence and long term commitment of the position.

esse est percipe= Latin for to be is to be percieved...

when I started writing this blog, I was very depressed...wondering why I wasn't in the land that I love, OZ!!!...I have been talked out of it over and over again by my father and brother together when Mom had just passed away... my cousins and husbands are trying to talk me out of staying...

am I not welcome here...or just that I need to think of the future,

My cousin in Law, Peter, was telling me that I need to get on the ball if I need to get help with the immigration lawyers...this 20k bill is overwhelming with the cost of staying in beautiful paradise...by living here permanently, I can avoid the costs...

I have to decide how to handle the future if I want our family to live on the beach and travel the way my father, Colin Murray, took us!!


Tuesday, February 24, 2009

 

Escape to Nimbin Valley!

It was so cool seeing my wife, the mother of our love child, happy again! My cousin, Sally, came to visit with her family..It was such a touch of warmth feeling the warmth of our extended family...we had been through so much...I was happy that Ang was discharged from the psych ward ...
This is a lesson to us and all readers out there to be careful what you say to shrinks when you're sleep deprived!!

Nimbin was fantastic! I met Benny Zabel, the famous resident artist of this town... He has painted the beautiful murals all over this little hippy haven in the hills of OZ!


http://www.nimbinaustralia.com/bennyzable/benny-zable-story.html













This wonderful lady helped my wife with some herbs for mood swings and focus.....it's amazing about vibes and the way good often comes out of challenging experiences!

This wonderful family invited us to stay with them in their wonderful Queenslander house that had been reerected in Nimbin with this added veranda giving the image of a much larger house...Aussie houses of old always had huge verandas surrounding the house to keep the family cooler in the hot days of the year!








This other bloke we met appeared to personify the happy go lucky image of Nimbin... He's a driver for the youth hostel...Friday's they have Karaoke...I had so much fun singing..it's nice to enjoy and be happy!


It would cool for us to bring up our love child, Colin, in a beautiful place like this !















































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Tuesday, February 17, 2009

 

SINGLE FATHERHOOD!

Boy's night out!
Ok...so I am forced to become a good father...often a good thing comes out of bad...


The fact that a trigger happy shrink, Dr. Roberts, who freaks out and decides to commit my post natally depressed wife without any regards to the trauma to her family??


My wife freaks out also just thinking that she'll have a night of r and r...(the way the shrink puts it...) she goes for a ride with the doctor to the ER room with no clue that she would be an involuntary patient committed to a coastal loony bin!!!





So Daddy and son just try to make the best of it...






I have just had some very serious intensive training into the domestic engineering of being a parent to a growing baby!! Thankyou, to my cousins, Jane and Louise to help me with the shopping and how to get a schedule going, how to wash, how to organize the house ,






just in case one of the N ozzie SSocial workers threatens to take our Colin to a foster home!

We have to show them that we are organized and overcoming our issues...Like a game of chess we have to become disciplined and not yell at each other...It is a science of discipline and just inner grit and intestinal fortitude!!






"Like a candle used to light another candle, the connection with spirit that results when one person joins hands with another is greater than if each person were to stand alone. People who take part in a circle find that their power increases exponentially while with the group. Like a drop of water rippling on the surface of a pond, the waves of energy produced in a circle radiate outward in circular motion. While one person may act like a single beacon that emanates light, a circle of people is like a satellite dish that sends out energy. There is power in numbers, and when the commitment is made by many to face one another, clasp hands, and focus on one intention, their circle emanates ripples of energy that can change the world. " from the Daily OM




My extended family and our new Aussie Godmother, Annette,came through!
She has been wonderful helping and helping cousins, Jane and Sally, get our family through this...It was emotionally traumatic putting your untidy habitat on the beach for full exposure to the family....I know, I know,, any ex's out there will be just shaking their heads wondering if I will ever get it together...

I swear my paradise abode is far cleaner than the others...(or maybe I just haven't spent long enough for the cobwebs and clutter to multiply like roaches...is that too reaslistic a metaphor???)






One good thing is that this country is all about helping our mates!!!



Losers who keep getting back up are heroes in Aussie folklore...
ie...


The unofficial national anthem, "Waltzing Matilida!"



the swagman = a homeless bum walking from one billabong and Koolibah tree to the next!
Ned Kelly= outlaw hero who kinda was a Robin Hood until he was finally shot dead..

I become teary eyed thinking of how our new friend helped us out so much...totally selflessly! We will ask her to be our godmother and take her and her husband out to dinner at the surf club!







 

One Flew over the kookaburra's nest!


Hey Dude, don't be afraid,
"Take a sad song and make it better"
Remember to let her into your heart"




What a traumatic weekend...maybe some day I will chat about it...
You think the American mental health system is incompetent??
Check out Oz!!
My warning to all people..
Be careful of what you say to any shrink...
They can put you away
under
"recomendation for recovery"
They will let my wife who is going through post natal depression out tomorrow!!

Sunday, February 15, 2009

 




I figure this photo I found surfing the net symbolized my feelings on Friday the 13th...All the previous failures in my life came bombarding down on me....

It was wonderful waking up from this nightmare knowing that the Queensland government didn't take away our child....



It is amazing the power of a shrink combined with a social worker..They can sure fuck with a family's life!! When she went for help early that stormy morning for some counseling and some meds, Dr. Ratched Roberts decides she needs to be committed!! I tried to persuade the Doc on the phone while Colin was screaming to be fed, to ask for a second opinion or give us 48 hours to think about it and prepare for this...instead we get stuck in a crazy ER room at Southport hospital for 12 hours...one prisoner sitting in the bed was monitored by two cops...he goes to the restroom and attempts to escape through the ceiling. He falls inches away from an ER doctor...then Anette and I have to go through grilling of the social worker... this lady on a power trip threatens to have the child taken to foster parents!




I saw how they could often determine the fate of families merely on their power to judge a family,,,,wow...and it finally hit home with us in a foreign country....




My honey was prescribed some generic form of zoloft ....




enough to help her magnify any delusions that have taken hold of her like demons...




she held me so tight from both places of involuntary confinement, the Southport center and the Robina center....we were both so happy that little Colin Murray could spend the night with his mother/my wife and soulmate... He was so happy to see us both after being in so many with no clue as to his possible fate in strange foster parent hands!!!




amazing that this can still happen in this day and age...




helping me see how families are often just help by a thread that can be so easily snipped with just one visit Dr. Ratchet....chief judge of the Cuckoo's Nest!




I could give the ladies name but the names have been changed to protect the guilty...she wouldnt budge an inch...no time for us to prepare for her committed stay in a mental prison with drug addicts and ocassionally very dangerous humans!!




The social worker sent the child to be with his mother in the Robina Center with 24 hour monitoring for the our baby's protection...the next day, the center worries about their legal liabilities so they tell me and Annette to take the baby home regardless of the serious error of a social worker...



an inmate of the wing had gone berserk earlier in the day and they worried that a violently disturbed person could easily hurt an innocent baby...



we took him out before they changed their minds and decided that the baby should go somewhere else...



Thank God for weekends where most Aussies fortunately for us take off...



The shit will probably hit the fan for many of these incompetent bureaucrats and professionals in the mental health field



Maybe this will give us another day's respite from these scary professionals in powerful positions...we realize the many mistakes they made while fucking with our lives...

Not only a president can fuck with Americans lives!...



God forbid the deadly one-two punch of a shrink and a social worker...especially when they make serious mistakes and fuck with a family's life!

and then get stuck with a $5000 bill!


Saturday, February 14, 2009

 

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY SWEETHEART

I'm not sure how to go about telling you about Friday the 13th in February....Over 13 years ago, the advministrators of Chickasha HS asked me to resign after I lost control of the science filled with bratty middle school kids....(it's hard to imagine those children of the Corn are grown up adults now...maybe even teachers dealing with the current batch of bratty kids...
It seems like tragedy or disaster brings families together....
when Angela was overcome with post partem depression, my extended came to our aid..
I want to thank them so much..
It was wonderful how cousin Louise helped me out so much....and Thank You, Anette for being with us in the hospitalll
It was the most emotional Friday the 13th of history...
How could I stay calm in a foreign country when the social worker is grilling my new friend who has done so much to help out us and the baby staying together as a family??
I was proud of the way we come through...
Angela told her story to the shrink and she was committed...
Then they were saying that " I couldn't cope as a father""
All I said was that I would like a little assistance while she was involuntarily committed...
At least we won't have to pay for the services
since it was not our choice..
Maybe meds will calm her down and help her become a better Mom..
She wants to do better and just one day and night there with the extra unworried sleep of a mom helped her so much with a little of the right meds....
She does not feel overwhelmed
just like a little bit of the stuff has helped so much...
Monday morning, we will have to go to the body corporate meeting...
I will have to be a really good father taking our child with Annette...
I have to spend the money on things that are very important to the care of our child..
He is our future!!




Thursday, February 12, 2009

 











Monday, February 09, 2009

 


I decided to continue on with the essay of yesterday...Or start one from scratch about the most wonderful body surf of my life today!! and the 3-4 hour experience on the beach and in the surf...really romping and playing as a child...
Now I have epiphany of the whole experience...
the height of the day was the morning from sunrise at 5:30 to 10 am...
ending with a water fight with my feisty lady and playing on the backyard like children with the water hose....almost as if we were being naughty....
I took pics like crazy before and during the magnificent star coming right out of the Pacific....
I decided instead of just looking at the sea....I would become part of it and the sea and the king tide washing the water right to the edge of our dune vegetation fence...
the waves were higher and the tide was higher than I ever saw it here ....
even since body surfing as a child...
I met one of the volunteer life guards, George, who is a lawyer/accountant...
almost as if the universe knew that I needed somebody like him as a friend and professional help....
He was a better swimmer than me and he knew exactly where the rip was to take us out past the last breaker where the water was calm...
a hard set was coming in for a few minutes and we waited for it to eventually go back out...
I followed him on rip to the beautifully big breaking waves...
He advised on where the wave is best to take...
You have to take it early by being a little further out...
so we both took it only a few feet from each other
and we cruised in on the most beautiful wave of my life..!




I figured that I would show this full moon pic ...its of course the opposite weather here in Oz!

 

I thought that this passion flower could symbolize happiness!

The photo epiphenously became the symbol for happiness for me!



I looked at the passionate colors of the flower the image just oozed joy and love....



It symbolized enjoying life in the many different ways we play..

PLAY



helps our souls bloom, flower and self actualize...
I was feeling it so much being in the zone of the largest most beautiful wave...



my new mate caught it together...



it was so symbolic of my feelings...



I felt part of the ocean!







I was self actualizing with the just being in the zone of the wave...



It was like "Zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance""



This was even better...I was one with the nature ....using its power to carry me fast and fly through the waters....It was the best feeling this whole trip!"





the natural waves of the sea....



So many of these life guard veterans and experienced surfers have the knowledge and expertise about the variance of the daily surf!



It is a science!

It was so wonderful to share the same passion with other club members
body surfing in the Sea
we all do it with glea
and the body surface made Barrack the candidate for me...
aging men and women all remembering how to play as we all wait to catch the best waves
like kids on a playground at Water World...
this natural fun roller coaster ride is free
and we were all surfing close to King Tide and the Full Moon...
this is happiness...

learing how to play again and sharing the fun with new playmates in a new welcoming community....
I feel more at home here and in the surf than I have ever felt before!!
I can get down about the psychological trauma of parenting...
but then my wife and child join me in the play...
they see how much I am having and can't wait to go swimming...
(that reminds me about how we need to go swimming together while we keep Colin in the stroller..of course we'll alternate taking swims....)
later on, after my honey took her avo (afternoon) nap, a great new friend of ours, Martin, walked up the beach path while I was getting some fresh air from our backyard....
he was with his boogey board...
He is a very sage man , almost Merlin esque, several years older and many kilos lighter than moi... We chatted under the shade of the koolibah tree on the lawn by the Dudley street entrane to Mermaid Beach before I invited him upstairs to see young Colin Murray Garvald...
I chatted and and he gave sage advice helping put my new life into a new found perspective...
He's a very succesful business man running a graphics company...(I still don't understand graphics>>)
He also is a wonderful father to 8 children of he and his wife....
He told me that he could remember being born!!
He believes in past lives..
I'm looking forward to chatting with him again next Friday???
I gave him a copy of my father's book, "The Creative Mind and it's origins"

It is these serendipitous meeting that appear destined to happen
almost as if someone up there is holding the puppet strings...

Him to help me and me just giving M my Dad's book!!
it makes me believe so much in synchronicity...if I would have any kind of religion/philosopy???
The last 2 days have been happier in one respect than ever..
I am really realizing that I'm in better physical condition than I have been since I bicycled "the Hotter than Hell" 100 mile bike ride in Wichita Falls, Texas!!
Was that about 14 years ago??

It is scary to think how fast that time passed and in 14 years will be that much older...I don't want to even think about doing some addition...
... Was it the last summer before Alene passed away ??/
It's painful but bittersweet when I think of those much more innocent times in summer when I was still a tennis/bicycle bum... I was walking around so proud of myself that I could ride a 100 miles on bike in 4:45 hours! Averaging over 20 miles/hour over this hot arid part of Texas!
I felt that way after realizing that I had won this race...it was too easy...

Am I that good to compete with these veteran volunteer life guards!!

I have often sunk very low thinking about the inevitability of death
and that sometimes evolves into a deadly fear of growing old...
so I do everything I can to extend any delusions of immortality...

so I win the Handicap swim with our local Mermaid Beach SurfLifesavings Club....I set off on the course after about 5 minutes from the start with a few others ...(they would determine my handicap from this race for next's weeks surf-swim
All of us would leave every minute with last strongest swimmers starting as late an 11:30 minute handicap!!

I surprised myself when I looked all around to see if there were any swimmers when I swam the tide in 3 minutes a head of the next competitor.
This lady is a school state swimming champion!
Then the others started surfing in...
I found out that I unofficially won the race but next week I would that the official handicap of 9:30!!
My wife and our child came to cheer me on....She saw me come in first and was so excited to see how fantastic shape her husband is!! The other racers all clapped with Angela, of course, cheering the loudest...I had not been in a competitive swim race in over 30 years...
I had butterflies again...but I was so relaxed...doing a little Michael Phelps behavior sure gave me delusions of becoming an age group champion!!
I had an evolving herbal induced epiphany after being reintroduce to our friendly Drag on ;)
Enjoying this natural herbal medication after the very tumultous bipolar week!!
My honey was so excited and of course had to jump my bones last night!!

Friday, February 06, 2009

 

Happy Belated Birthday, Dad! Colin Murray the First!


Yesterday was Dad's bday in Oz or today in the USA...
Today was a great day after our friend, Stan, came over to visit our little family... There is nothing like a little natural therapeutic herbal medication to lift my spirits...
nothing could do better to cut through the tensions of parenthood than a little of Puff, the magic dragon!
Nothing else on the market helps one stand back and realize even with all the new found stresses and constraints of rearing a child ,,, we are all still on holiday...

It was wonderful seeing Gabrielle at the Surf Club this Avo for a couple drinks
she gave us some wonderful therapeutic advice and reassurance....this last week was the most bipolar of all with the ups and downs of my sweetheart...
my muse only asked for a divorce about once every day except for Monday and Tuesday...Those were great days with a little family visit down our pathway through the dunes to the beach...
oftentime as our relationship evolves, it's 2 steps forward and 1 or 2 steps back...
we are learning how to cope with each other's multidimensional personalitiess
and the herb helps me be more creative in appealing to wife's sense of humor
this way I could communicate with her laughing in the whole entertaining process
Nothing like impulsively doing a Chippendale dance for her in her sexy string thong!

With the Mermaid Beach diet of swimming 2x a day and bicycling everywhere as the soul mode of "fast" transportation,

I'm losing about a kilo per week....as my wife eats less, so do I!...
now, I have the luxury of the Pacific as my daily backyard playground!!
I've lost over 10 kilos!
Tomorrow, I will be at the local Surf Club's handicap race where we swim past the breakers around a couple of buoys,,,,
I'll probably get about a 2 minute handicap whereas the best swimmers that are experienced racers might start after about 10 minutes....
While we were at the surf club

Thursday, February 05, 2009

 

ok....sometimes it's really tough being attention disorganized parents!
but it sure helps to have our backyard beach everyday!!


Tuesday, February 03, 2009

 

Adderall sure works!!

Suddenly, I am hit with this land tax from the Queensland Revenue department. It's almost my take home pay for a year teaching! I had thought that I would be exempt from this when I am living in my flat for a year. I am feeling a little overwhelmed with all the bills and calls that I need to make. I take a little addaboy and then I am focused on making all the necessary phone calls. I don't feel overwhelmed and I can accomplish the tasks without becoming distracted!

Living with my wife, I understand how easily both of us get distracted and how difficult it is to stay on target!

Monday, February 02, 2009

 

Greedy banks squander our money!!

"Despite a near collapse that required $45 billion in federal taxpayer bailout funds, Bank of America sponsored a five day carnival-like affair just outside the Super Bowl stadium this past week as President Obama decried wasteful spending on Wall St. "

It really pisses me off that our taxpayer money is bailing out these basturds! And then the right wing greedocons whine about spending taxpayer money on schools! Our government continues to waste money on this war and then we bail out banks....
When will Americans pay the piper??
Other countries are giving us the loans to continue wasteful spending...when will they ask our country to pay up the loans...
we are totally in debt....
we cannot continue this insane spending...
and then we worry about Michael Phelps enjoying a bong!

Sometimes a little herb is the best way to deal with this insanity!

Sunday, February 01, 2009

 
"The story claims Phelps partied for two days with students in November at the University Of South Carolina in Columbia, with one witness telling News of the World "he was out of control".
Reportedly Phelps knocked backed beers and shots of spirits, before being offered a bong from which he inhaled deeply.
"You could tell Michael had smoked before," the article reported a witness as saying.
"He grabbed the bong and a lighter and knew exactly what to do!"

Here we see an Olympic champion who enjoys a little bit...what is the big deal about how evil and unhealthy cannabis is??

I'm sure if Jesus came back, if he enjoyed a little wine, he would also talking to his apostles over a communal J or bong! Bush , Carter, Clinton all enjoyed the forbidden herb...
"Addressing the economic and social situations which encourage people to use and sell drugs is critical. But it is also important to take advantage of changing public attitudes in order to do away with hypocritical drug policies that undermine public faith in an impartial justice system and disproportionately harm segments of society which are already teetering on the brink of collapse. Public apologies like those issued today by Phelps ring hollow because he will not be persecuted for his actions by either a court of law or the court of public opinion. The fact the he feels he must apologize is simply an effort to pay homage to past American morays that no longer impact private behavior. But those morays still impact drug policies, policies that continue to hurt citizens to this very day. Some steps to mitigate the worst impacts of these broken laws, like those governing sentencing for crack/cocaine offenses have been taken in recent years. Let's hope that President Obama, who saw the impact of bad drug laws first-hand in Chicago, will continue these reforms""
so why is it illegal??"

Friday, January 30, 2009

 
When I have writer's block or I'm just too embarassed to show my innermost feelings to my 5 readers I like to include an essay from the Daily Om since it coincides with my feelings so much! From there I can bounce off my current feelings and have a guide to write something...

January 30, 2009
"Expanding Their VisionNine Ways To Help Others Awaken to Consciousness
1. Living by your values allows you to become a positive source of inspiration for others. Don’t hide – express yourself and embrace life without reservation. By simply being yourself, you can help the people in your life see how one person can make a difference by being a living example of consciousness.
I often think of what impact I might of made with the Navaho students at Utopachi...it was wonderful hearing a voice from our past when Ang and I chatted over the ocean to Mary...
she had become a wonderful friend and colleague to us both...she said how there was a vacuum at the school with no more after school activities. We all had given so much to the program and inspired the students to act and play chess... I sense how many miss us despite the jealous teachers that did everything to inhibit and extinguish the growth in the children..

2. When you communicate your views, do so casually and in a nondogmatic manner. Allow the people you speak with to ask questions. Offer only as much information as they are ready to hear.
I suppose that was my biggest drawback in teaching... trying to eagerly to help them when I should have let them ask me for guidance...That is something that I still have to work on...to communicate my views in a less agressive way??

3. Igniting the spark of consciousness can be as easy as giving someone a gift. A favorite book, a medicine bag, or a beautiful gemstone can pique your loved ones’ curiosity and prompt them to begin an exploration of the soul.
I suppose that the drama club was my biggest gift to these students..It was wonderful to hear how our drama club was the talk of many students after we left! These students had a little spark of what it was like to act and improvise in front of a group of folks...I know that many of them will want to pursue acting!

4. Teaching a friend, relative, or colleague to meditate or chant can put them on the path to consciousness while simultaneously reducing their stress levels.
5. Others may want to know more about living consciously but are unsure of how to begin. Starting a discussion group – even a virtual one – can help you reach out to individuals that are eager to learn.
6. By recognizing and acknowledging the inherent value in everyone you encounter, you can teach them how to value others. Sometimes, the easiest way to encourage people – even challenging ones - to respect others is to respect them first.
7. Invite people from your personal and professional lives to join you in attending a ceremony or ritual. The experience may touch them in a profound way or introduce them to a new spiritual path.
8. Casually point out the interconnectedness of all living beings using concrete, everyday examples. Many people are unaware of how their actions affect the world and are intrigued when they learn of the power they hold.
9. Introduce your loved ones to conscious living in a lighthearted and enjoyable way. Serve delicious organic recipes at gatherings, volunteer as a group, and show them how wonderful it can feel to be truly aware and connected to the universe. "

It was so cool for my wife and I to chat with Mary, the social worker at our school...
She became a good friend over the last year...sometimes when we get a little homesick, it is so heartwarming to chat with warm friends!
I also chatted with my brother, Ron, and it warmed my cold feelings towards him...

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

 
Right now, my wife is feeding our beautiful child…I feel frustrated at this point…thinking about how many things we could be doing to have fun…
We need to at least rent a car and try traveling around the country a little bit..
It was good finally chatting with my brother, Ron. I know that he loves me even though he doesn’t really show.. I felt like I was ripped off by him the way he would take advantage of me in Monopoly or other games since I was a little child…
I felt jealous of how he would always have the friends and be successful at school thereby getting the praise and adoration of my parents…
I was the black sheep of the family always struggling in school and in relationships but oh well…
Now I have a loving wife who does not know much about domestic engineering so it challenges me to do all the things that I never had to do…I am a new father …I have dove into the pool of parenthood attempting to dog paddle in the new waves of fatherhood
I was just looking at one of the thousand photos that I have taken of our family…
I am wearing my surf lifesaving beanie that I can wear while training for the bronze medallion in lifesaving….My son looks on with the look of amazing intelligence…it is an intriguing photo of father and son…
When I look at him overwhelmed with our family’s future, wondering how we possibly can make it,
He looks back at me with adoring smiling eyes….he is so innocent!


















 
From the Daily OM

January 27, 2009

Patient Persistence
Sagittarius Daily Horoscope

You might find that you are determined to get your ideas across to others today in order to achieve your goals. If you find that you are extra-persistent today to the point that others begin to feel restless, you may want to work on developing patience. One way to create more patience is to take a deep breath and count to 10 before speaking. When you stop to count, you can become aware of your behavior when you speak to others. This could help make your interactions go more smoothly. Remembering to breathe and counting to 10 can also help you cultivate patience during those moments when you want to push people or situations forward before the time is ripe. Take the time to slow down and think before you act today, and the wellsprings of patience and understanding that you cultivate could help you achieve your objectives.

Pausing before speaking and taking the time to consider what we are about to say can help us become more effective communicators. During the times when it seems critical to get our ideas across, it can be easy to lose sight of the way we are choosing to express ourselves. We may become so determined to convey our thoughts to others that we forget to consider whether we are expressing ourselves in a way that other people can hear us. Pausing to take a few breaths allows us to stay centered so that we don’t end up pushing our ideas on others. Take a moment to consider what you are saying and how you are expressing yourself to others today, and your interactions will become more productive and less stressful.


Tuesday, January 27, 2009

 

Ding Dong the Witch is Dead!

wow!!...I hope that Conyers nails this pompous pig and the rest of the Bush henchmen ...
will they get him as well as they did to all those crooks from Watergate??
Watching this pig grovel the way the bloke did in Deliverance wouldn't do justice for all the murders and bullshit that this criminal brain of Bush has masterminded!
No punishment would be better for this slimy bastard!
Saddam was executed....why not the same for causing a war of murders for innocent young soldiers and civilians!


""On Monday, House Judiciary Committee Chairman John Conyers (D-MI) issued a subpoena to Karl Rove, requiring him to testify regarding his role in the Bush Administration's politicization of the Department of Justice, including the US Attorney firings and the prosecution of former Alabama Governor Don Siegelman. The subpoena calls for Rove to appear at deposition on Monday, February 2, 2009.

Rove has previously refused to appear in response to a Judiciary Committee subpoena, claiming that even former presidential advisers cannot be compelled to testify before Congress. That "absolute immunity" position was supported by then-President Bush, but it has been rejected by U.S. District Judge John Bates. President Obama has previously dismissed the claim as "completely misguided."

"I have said many times that I will carry this investigation forward to its conclusion, whether in Congress or in court, and today's action is an important step along the way," said Rep. Conyers. Noting that the change in administration may impact the legal arguments available to Mr. Rove in this long-running dispute, Mr. Conyers added, "Change has come to Washington, and I hope Karl Rove is ready for it. After two years of stonewalling, it's time for him to talk."

The House Judiciary Committee chairman subpoenaed former White House adviser Karl Rove on Monday to testify about the Bush administration's firing of U.S. attorneys and prosecution of a former Democratic governor.The subpoena by Rep. John Conyers, D-Mich., continues a long-running legal battle with ex-President George W. Bush's former White House political director. Rove previously refused to appear before the panel, contending that former presidential advisers cannot be compelled to testify before Congress.

The subpoena commanded Rove to appear for a deposition on Feb. 2 on the firings of U.S. attorneys for political reasons. Conyers also demanded testimony on whether politics played a role in the prosecution of former Alabama Gov. Don Siegelman, a Democrat.

Bush upheld Rove's legal position, but Conyers said times have changed."


I decided to add this lady if I were wanting to have more gender specific role model for witches
( "are u a good witch or a bad witch??")

I often would like to include other pics of ex witches who cast spells on moi...but I don't want any papers served to me, especially in Oz...especially with all the tax bills that I am hit...(dont get me started!)
Ms. Coulter is definitelya witch...(is it safer to for a male to say witch than bitch??)

"Officials are responding to a formal complaint filed by Coulterwatch.com blogger Dan Borchers. "For over 10 years, Ann Coulter has gotten away with illegal, immoral and unethical behavior, ranging from plagiarism to defamation, perjury to voter fraud,"
claims the conservative Borchers. Coulter declined to comment, but in the past has branded Borchers a stalker. He says the FBI has determined he poses no threat.
Coulter was investigated and
cleared of wrongdoing in 2006 for allegedly violating Florida's voter registration laws by voting in the wrong precinct.
Brad Friedman of
BradBlog.com reports that Coulter was never actually cleared; the Florida Election Commission dropped the case after deciding that the two-year statute of limitations had run out.
An official previously told the Daily News that they would
investigate "if we received a complaint under oath." Read more about Daniel Borchers, who filed the complaint, here. "

My wife and I were watching the view....
she realizes that I like "chick" shows and "chick" movies..
she says I'm a lesbian trapped inside a man's body!
I do get jealous of Degenerate who can invite the most beautiful babes , get all close dancing the dykish way she does with these ladies....and her total female audience gives her standing ovulations...( I mean ovations!) I would never see a male host sing, dance, and wear the same grungy clothes and sneakers every day in and out...It almost reminds me of a skinnier Rose Odonnell<<<

Monday, January 26, 2009

 

The ADD Challenge!


MARRIAGE!!...
It could so easy for folks married to people with ADD to lose patience and get divorced when the going gets rough..
Imagine two people with this condition and shades of manic depression...
Could that be twice as bad??
It's easy to just say
"Fuck it! ...Another one bites the dust...
easy come...
easy go...
but suddenly there is a love child involved and that changes the whole story....
He has changed both of our lives...
Suddenly this young man came into our ADD world
and put us both into topsy turvy
and we have to figure out not the very easy solution of parenting in the 21st century...
but at least we are coping in paradise...
Can't beat taking a dip in the rejuvenating salt waters of the Pacific two times a day....
and then she gets distracted and forgets about the tomato soup, rice and pasta creation of her husband's on the stove!!

"The stories of creative individuals are replete with instances of childhood problems in school (Piirto, 1992; Thompson, 1971; West, 1991). Although it has been argued that many creative individuals have suffered from mood disorders and other clinically significant psychological problems (Hershman & Lieb, 1988; Jamison, 1993), there are others whose behavior, although irregular, may be more indicative of their creativity than of any disorders. In the case of Janet Frame, New Zealand's poet and novelist, her "difference" resulted in a diagnosis of schizophrenia, confinement to a mental institution, and the scheduling of a lobotomy that was only canceled when her first novel gained widespread distinction (Frame, 1984, pp. 110-111). In some cases the very qualities that cause creative individuals to have problems are the same ones that may facilitate in their creative accomplishments. Edison's energy, the vivid imagery in the daydreams of Frost and Wright, and Einstein's alternative mode of thinking created problems for them in school, but were undoubtedly invaluable in their creative endeavors."

Sunday, January 25, 2009

 

what can we say??/
uh, huh...yep...
Prettiest baby on the C



Friday, January 23, 2009

 




Thursday, January 22, 2009

 



FOOT TO FOOT!

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

 

READ MY LIPS, "NO MORE BUSH"

OUR FAMILY IS SO HAPPY TO HAVE SOMEONE WITH INTELLIGENCE AS OUR
LEADER!! COLIN MURRAY IS HAPPY THAT THE US MIGHT NOT GO DOWN THE TUBES!!
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Tuesday, January 20, 2009

 

GO BACK TO TEXAS BUSH! ...NO MORE OF YOUR BUSHIT! GREEDOCONISM IS DEAD!....LONG LIVE OBAMA

WOW!!! mY WIFE IS DRIVING ME INSANE SOMETIMES AND i THINK I DRIVE HER CRAZY...BUT OBAMA IS HERE AND HE HAS A DREAM LIKE i DO....
Seriously, I'm gonna work on my B ronze Medalion with the local Mermaid Beach Surf Life Savings Club. One can join the club for only 60$ !!
and then buy the speedo beanie with the Mermaid colors that I have on my head for only 15$!

The lifeguard club is just below the restaurant part of the club where we eat affordable meals a few nights a week (if my wife will behave ;)



Now my to become a volunteer surf lifesave without getting eaten by shark first....
Speaking of which:
We interviewed a babysitter yesterday evening over dinner at the Surf Club who was harrassed by the local shark
It was a little earlier almost just in front of our flat! I congratulated on both of us being shark survivors!

(Colin Murray is showing off with his power to the people fist!)

Mermaid reef is now spawning...(spawning means that the local reef of coral is reproducing which brings heaps of schools of bait fish which then of course bring much larger predatory fish. This abundance of dead fish attract the hungy sea gulls...)


Believe it or not I was swimming unknowingly with birds all around me...


I realize that at that point that I better body surf in....
Good to follow instincts!...
Our potential future nanny/babysitter told Ang and me that she was with about 5 other surfers when they yelled
"Shark!"

4 of the luckier surfers caught the next wave in leaving just her and the other potential shark burger alone with the 2-3 meter shark
the shark circled them four times while they were paddling furiously into shore
and finally taking the rescue wave in...
on a previous attack further down the east coast, bystanders on the beach saw the shark surf in with it's potential victim before being saved by another swimmer!
sharks like to surf too!.....
wow!....
there have been so many fascinating coincidences and wondering about being psychic.
I went swimming and body surfing twice that day...Earlier I talked to her and her Canadian gf while we were waiting for waves about the possibilities of sharks...
We need a babysitter/nanny maybe a couple of times a week for Colin Murray Garvald...
Young Garv appears to have a way with beautiful women
they all just instantly fall in love with him and then wanna have one of their own!!





Monday, January 19, 2009

 




Do you think there is any likeness??
I apreciate the nice comment from LA!! The beach and surf life is wonderful...


I am looking forward to seeing the inaguration and hopefully Oz TV will show a lot of it!
From the Daily OM:
"January 19, 2009
Evolution Through Exploration
Purpose
Most living things belong to a particular soul group and are born knowing their purpose in life. An animal will spend its day foraging for food, taking care of itself and its young, and creating a home. No one tells an animal to do this, yet it instinctively knows how.
Humans, for the most part, are not born consciously knowing what their purpose is. Purpose gives our life meaning. When you discover your purpose, you can live your life with intention and make choices that serve your objective for why you are here on the planet.
Finding your purpose is not always easy.
You must embrace life wholeheartedly, explore many different pathways, and allow yourself to grow.
Your purpose is as unique as you are and will evolve as you move through life.
You don’t need anyone’s permission to fulfill your purpose, and no one can tell you what that purpose is. Finding and fulfilling your purpose can be a lifelong endeavor.
To figure out what your purpose is, ask yourself what drives you – not what forces you out of bed in the morning, but what makes you glad to be alive.
(I guess what motivates me or makes me glad to be alive ...is living here on the beach and the excitement about our child's new future unfolding before his eyes! Obama has a purpose and he has a dream...My dream is evolving and happening almost the way I planned it..at least of having the life of a beach bum..with low carbon imprint...what could be a more lazy idyllic life)
Make a list of activities that you wish you were involved in or think about a career path that you would love to embark upon. These are the endeavors that can help you fulfill your purpose and bring you the most satisfaction. Picture yourself working on projects that don’t interest you or fulfill your purpose, yet they help satisfy your basic survival needs. Imagine how living this way each day would make you feel.
Next, picture yourself devoting your time to projects that spark your imagination, inspire, excite, and satisfy you.
Maybe some of my readers (LA?) could tell me what posts would be best for my book??
More often than not, these activities are some of the ways that you can fulfill your life purpose. Time spent on these endeavors will never feel like a waste.
Live your life with purpose, and you will feel significant and capable because every action you take and each choice you make will have meaning to it.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

 
"Shedding Light On Ourselves" from the Daily OM
"In almost every case, we know what is best for us in our lives, from the relationships we create to the food we eat. Still, somewhat mysteriously, it is often difficult to make the right choices for ourselves. We find ourselves hanging out with someone who leaves us feeling drained or choosing to eat fast food over a salad. We go through phases where we stop doing yoga or taking vitamins, even though we feel so much better when we do. Often we have no idea why we continue to make the less enlightened choice, but it is important that we inquire into ourselves to find out. When we choose that which is not best for us, the truth can be that there is a deep seated part of us that does not want to heal. We may say it’s because we don’t have the time or the energy or the resources, but the real truth is that when we don’t take care of ourselves we are falling prey to self-sabotage. Self-sabotage happens unconsciously, which is why it’s so difficult to see that we are doing it. The important thing to realize is that this very part of us that resists our healing is the part that most needs our attention and love. Even as it appears to be working against us, if we can simply bring it into the light of our consciousness, it can become our greatest ally. It carries the information we need to move to the next level in our healing process. When we recognize that we are not making healthy choices, we might even say out loud, “I am not taking care of myself.” Sometimes this is the jolt we need to wake up to what is actually happening.
Next we can sit ourselves down in meditation, with a journal, or with a trusted friend to explore the matter more thoroughly.
Just shining the light of our awareness on the source of our resistance is sometimes enough to dispel its power.
At other times, further effort is required. Either way, we need not fear these parts that do not want to heal.
We only need to take them under our wing and
bring them with us into the light. "
These last few days have been better... we are gradually getting into the reality of being parents...
yet we both still wanna play too much...
what a place to share our playing!!
On the Gold Coast of Oz....with everything we want within bike distance...
low carbon imprint...
always activities going on in the beach..
My muse was so happy to hostess the reunion of all the mothers from our prenatal class...
It was at 3 pm and I had to grab the barbie on the park...
My new friend in fatherhood, Case, said that I needed to pull in the reigns a little bit as we were all parting...
yeh, it's obvious she likes to play and can be a loose cannon...

 




 




Saturday, January 17, 2009

 




Wednesday, January 14, 2009

 

Ang just went shopping with the bub...
I'm happy she still has some of her tax refund check
TV is showing the "remake of Barrack" Monday night at 9:50 (here is my other gf;)
just kidding...
she won't tell me how much she spent on her hair...but's that's cool...I'm so happy she still hasn't spent all of her hard earned tax refund$$
and can have a good hair day!!
I haven't had to worry about hair or lack of it on my head for over 3 decades!! I guess that's like having a bad hair day for more than half my life???
It seems like baldness is the one disability that anybody can pick on....

"Look, Ma. He has zero hair!"

lol





but seriously folks , we all have to tighten our belts with us in the worst depression since Okies left the Okie Zone in the "Grapes of Wrath" 30's!
as beach bums we are making the least carbon imprint
for any small family in the western world(??)....cept my wife takes showers too long..;)


 





I dunno...I just love these images...this camera has been the best present to myself....capturing moments of time with a picture...

it's worth a thousand words......coming to Oz has brought back so many childhood moments of happiness...

we hope to see this happiness when he laughs...

we see him develop a personality with everyday..

There are so many topics to discuss with you...and yet sometimes I feel so shy to come up with the words...

when really this blog is for myself and hopefully let others tune into my life??

Monday, January 12, 2009

 

I'm watching features of the "Love Guru" while I write to you in my state of funky lethargy....
feeling better with the Byron Bay hinterlands' freshly ground coffee beans mixed in with my love herbs....
all mixed with Puff the Magic hydro and I am feeling a little better ....and more playful...
heck!!...we are with other who also love this wonderful backyard of ours' called the Pacific!!
cept I get to play on it every day....as the days waste by in this lazy summer in the bottom hemisphere...

It is a very sinful type of laziness and I feel guilty as hell...so I go for a swim or take a nap
watching the features of this DVD

Mike Meyers is a more waspish version of Woody Allen...
I suppose he is very creative and could have some of the qualities of some bloke with ADD
Other than that I could ramble on about something but I have no clue what my random readers of this site wanna read?? Leigh Ann and others please feel free to comment again...
Raphael, leave another comment...
Matt Wheatley, thanks for the xmas card from Tahoe...
Looks like you and the family are very healthy ....maybe this summer we could have a reunion??
It is cool to look forward to just summers!!
Well, Ang hasn't come back from her"hour " walk...and Id like to swim before the sharks come out....
Need to buy a Bulletin to buy a paper and some local honey!

 
wow.....We can't take life for granted....why worry? Be Happy!!

My wife wanted me to take these pics off because it made her look she was snorting something.

no worries mate herb and beer are the strongest spices in our diets!
I guess we continue to be in a fishbowl here on the beach with the filthy rich folks in their grandiose palaces...
Our glass house is available for everyone to see...
but..... who cares....
it has become our backyard playground!!








Sunday, January 11, 2009

 




Saturday, January 10, 2009

 
ok.... even though everything else seems to be falling apart sometimes....
and we get into the summer doldrums of where the fuck are we going???....




We do look pretty healthy...I'm gettin in pretty good shape working on those abs...(roll ur eyes)




Angela is losing weight and getting a very healthy glow to her skin and sometimes ....


we forget how lucky we are to have such a beautiful baby.....

My muse was reading the printed scripts of this blog that I got from the library's printer ...


she saw how these pages with the pictures could actually turn into a best seller... > (that's my hat that stays on in the surf)




How does a family drink the cocktail of manic/depressive moods and Attention distraction doubled....



How the fuck can we ever get out of a place....um..."Where are my glasses??"
People might ask??
"How can they survive with their being constantly driven to distraction???
especially driving on the wrong side of the road
getting lost down unda??
How do they get by from day to day..."

Figuring this out will be a major project...
My wife had an epiphany this morning over the two morning beers of medication needed for her mood swings....

she wrote a little letter to me and then went on a long shopping spree...
she felt better
while I baby sat....
I dunno....
sometimes I am so desperate to bring these thoughts out to you and then I am tired...
I just want to write my feelings down to help ourselves be happy....

Friday, January 09, 2009

 

Up your Gitmo Bush/Cheney!

Rudd won't accept Uyghur Gitmo detainees

"The Rudd governmenthas rejected a formal request from the Bush administration to resettle a group of Chinese detained in Guantanamo Bay military prison to Australia.
The Weekend Australian says the Australian government has been warned by Beijing not to take the 17 former terror suspects, who the US have cleared but refuse to send home for fear of their torture and possible execution.
Beijing has made at least two approaches to the Rudd government not to accept the group of Muslims from northwestern China, known as Uyghurs, the paper says.
One was at a meeting in Canberra about three weeks ago, involving Australian and Chinese diplomats.
It came as the Foreign Ministry in Beijing stressed publicly its opposition to any resettlement of the Uyghurs.
"We have said on many occasions that the 17 terrorist suspects detained at the US military base of Guantanamo are members of the Eastern Turkestan Islamic Movement, which is listed as a terrorist group by the UN Security Council ," a spokesman said.
"The Chinese government requires these terrorist suspects be repatriated to China.
"We firmly oppose any countries receiving these people."
Last week, the Rudd government reportedly told the Bush administration the Uyghurs did not meet Australia's stringent national security and immigration criteria."


Good on Ya!! Australia!! I like Rudd..He is not like the puppet, Howard was to Bush attempt at it's neocon empire!! No wonder Bush wanted Howard to stay at Blair House instead of snubbing Obama!

We are settling slowly into the low carbon imprint lifestyle of being beach bums...
We cannot get depressed about how life is passing us by so quickly
without achieving anything .... as relative to others or to our potentials...
I just finished changing Colin's diapers and giving him a shower since I hate dealing with shit...
and the necessary evil is best taken care of with all evidence running down the drain from our human shit!! ...at least this way ...
my tight asss ways are much more conducive the Al Gore theory of low carbon imprint!!
I don't waste wet wipes and diapers as much!!
This fatherhood was thrust upon me and sometimes I feel like the reluctant beneficiary of bringing another soul

Thursday, January 08, 2009

 

I guess I am just a hopeless romantic...Maybe I am very in touch with my feminine side??
We watched "Mama Mia".... I guess I was a sap for Disco...
I love Abba!...and the way they put all those songs...
A love lost ...
and the daughter brings back all of this lady's (Meryl Streep) love's of that magical summer when she was conceived...
She invites all three potential fathers back for the wedding..
I love some of these sappy romances!
Boy...being a dad exhausts me but I look out at the sea and go for a swim....catching that great wave while the current sweeps me down the beach.....at the mercy of nature's strength!

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

 
Apparently, Oprah, Ellen Degeneres and Dr. Phil are popular day time talk shows here in Oz....


Many times I would rather just watch the view from my window rather than see Degenerate get away with hitting on the beautiful women she has as guests..


It's like society has a double standard..

she loves to dance close to young models

so one time Chris Mathews got a little too close in dancing cheek to cheek with Ellen

Her way of revenge is showing the clip of him accidentally touching her touching her small chest. ..

on several different shows...

She always does the same exact dance at the beginning of each show with the same butch outfit of sneakers and jeans...(at least she must save alot on her wardrobe)



Imagine if a homosexual man had a totally male audience and he got to hit on all the men on the show...

Right wing fundamentalists would be in up in arms...


I don't know...Ellen is just one of these militant lesbians that appears to get away with alot more because of her gender...

I was fascinated with "The L Word" but it appears that female lesbians have much more of a following among women...


As a society men and women tolerate female gays far more than gay men...

What gay man has his own talk show now where he can act openly gay??

Maybe the last flaming homosexual was Richard Simmons??..

I guess I just had to give my 2 cents on Ellen...thanks for letting me ramble ;)

I don't want to sound homophobic but these type of women can get away with much more than other "minorities"


I know how they have dominated women's tennis and the womens' tennis umpire association...

Now in some tournaments, women actually get a bigger purse than the men!!

but in the past

normal heterosexual women had to go into the showers with chaperones or they would get hit on by very strong female tennis players...
I was just thinking how we have to be wonderful humans to become good parents
I hope that we can evolve into those rare creatures
and eventually self actualize as great parents...
we both have to be positive with each other....



 











Monday, January 05, 2009

 

Well, we are not quite that young...but we are in Oz!

I often think of my wife coming into this country with our little Colin inside of her kicking

Paris Hilton and her bf were walking on Mermaid Beach in front of our flat when Angela went for a walk...
She couldn't believe how ugly her new boyfriend is!
Angela is realizing it's
"lifestyles of The Rich and Famous" here on the Gold Coast with it's most marvelous stretch of beach in the world....
and we own our little parking spot on our beach
And nobody is gonna take it away!!

Paris Hilton is returning to the Gold Coast for Summafieldayze dance music festival at The Spit on Saturday. Paris and Nicky Hilton touched down in Melbourne from Los Angeles yesterday ahead of their gig as hostesses of the online and live event “The Bongo Virus”, in Sydney on New Year’s Eve.
As Sydney promoters try every trick in the book to lure the Hilton party girls to their events, the Hiltons have made plans to ditch the Harbour City and head over to the Gold Coast. The sisters made contact with Summafieldayze promoters Jacki and Billy Cross to ask if they could join the 30,000 crowd expected at The Spit for the annual dance music festival on Saturday.
Acts on this year’s bill include UK greats Underworld, Calvin Harris, Ferry Corsten, Armin van Buuren and Eric Prydz. “She’s coming specifically for the festival. She’s asked for four tickets and security, but no special VIP area,” said Mrs Cross yesterday.
The Hiltons’ entourage in Australia is said to include Nicky’s boyfriend, David Katzenberg, aspiring rock singer Brittany Flickinger, of the MTV reality show Paris Hilton: My New BFF, and one of Paris’s real best friends, Australian model Cheyenne Tozzi, who starred in the crime drama The Strip, filmed on the Gold Coast.
“She flies in on the night before the festival and flies out the day after the festival,” said Mrs Cross. “When she was here filming House Of Wax on the Gold Coast she was a massive regular at The Drink (nightclub). We looked after her then many, many times.
“She was at The Drink weekly when she was here. “She was a regular in the back corner of the VIP bar. “She’s also been to our club in Vegas, The Cat House, many times. She’s familiar with us as promoters. “We got a phone call to say she’s keen to come back up and we’re very happy that she’s coming along.”




Sunday, January 04, 2009

 






What is it with this man always taking pictures of me??

Saturday, January 03, 2009

 


Friday, January 02, 2009

 
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I took the photo on the left...not the one of Byron Bay on the right...
I love the colors and I'm so happy this new digital camera captures them so well!
My cousin Kate and her bf, Mick, gave us a wonderful
New Year's present by watching Colin for the evening so we could watch "Australia"!
It's funny how I think we were meant to see the movie...It has so many symbols of what I have been writing about...
It was so coincidental (?)
There were so many references to the "Wizard of Oz" with the song of "over the rainbow " frequently coming on as if it was magic
It was amazing that I had just put in the pictures of the beautiful rainbow outside our window on my blog!

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

 

Happy New Year!

" Somewhere over the rainbow"

This beautiful rainbow appeared after the storm...

Maybe that is a sign for us and the brave new world that Colin is arriving into!

(I had no clue this song would show up frequently in the movie, Australia!)







Monday, December 29, 2008

 


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